M U T E D.

Hope that you spend your days, but they all add up And when that sun goes down, hope you raise your cup Oh, I wish that I could witness all your joy and all your pain But until my moment comes, I'll say...

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My Medicine // Harper&Open

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shvdowofintcnt‌:

It shouldn’t have, but it actually surprised her that the Ravenclaw just immediately gave in, and she wasn’t sure exactly how to react. On the one hand, it was extremely gratifying to see the so-called hero kids starting to give her the recognition she deserved. On the other, it wasn’t as much fun when they didn’t fight back. Sort of like kicking a puppy, or something else equally as pathetic but slightly more useful than her brother.

“That’s it? You’re just gonna take that, no argument? The hell’s wrong with you?” It wasn’t that she cared. She just wasn’t used to that instant and dejected acceptance, and it was kind of freaking her out.

Caspian slowly looked up, putting his attention to something behind her shoulder. Whatever small molecule there was. His shoulders lifted up in a shrug, not really having an answer for her. It wasn’t that he had anything to argue anyways. And if he did, there wasn’t much to argue about. He just couldn’t talk to people and would avoid them like a plague. It was such a minor flaw in his personality- amongst many other flaws. 

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My Medicine // Harper&Open

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shvdowofintcnt‌:

Coming around another corner of the castle, Harper groaned out loud as she nearly walked straight into yet another student. Tucking her pack of cigarettes back into her pocket, she was ready to hex someone if she didn’t find somewhere she wouldn’t be caught soon.

“I swear, if you’re still here in five seconds, I can’t be held responsible for my actions!”

Caspian flinched at her tone, pointedly staring at the ground. Well, it’s not as if he would be looking anywhere else. He dropped his glasses and now he was blind as a bat. Nodding mutely, he tried to discreetly toe his way around her, being careful of not accidentally stepping on his glasses- wherever they were. He had a back up pair but Lyria hid those to mess with him. Just because he accidentally got her scarf dirty didn’t mean she had to do him dirty like this.

[jamesredacted]

outgrown things || james&open

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jamesredacted‌:

James held himself cold while the boy fixed his bandages, attempting, at least, to stay completely still as he did so. James wasn’t much for being touched, but this was something that he had asked for, and that the boy had complied to without saying a word, which was refreshing to say the least. A hundred princes who went to Hogwarts wouldn’t be able to shut their traps for a moment, tripping over themselves with false concern despite the fact that they didn’t care about James any other time, only when he wanted his privacy. It was a bit of a shock, actually, to see a prince so demure in the face of someone who didn’t somehow outrank them, eyes on the floor, so quiet.

James had to wonder what was wrong with him, though he supposed it wasn’t his business. He didn’t care much for things that didn’t directly affect him.

“Thank you,” James offered, not because he was particularly strong in meaning it, but because it was polite. He didn’t really think that the half-mer would want his thanks too much, but it was customary to offer it.

Caspian kept his attention trained to the ground. Now that the initial task of wrapping up those bandages was over with, he just wanted to bolt. Talking to boys was the absolute worst for the prince. His social anxiety just worsened around guys. Why? Because his stupid gay self was just too fucking weak to actually talk to them - or, you know, look them in the eyes.

Infact, the very idea of looking one face to face made his head light and his nerves frazzle even more. Lyria would be having a field day if she saw this. 

Giving a fierce nod of his head, he gestured, ‘no big deal.’ Well, the message would come across hopefully. He really needed to learn sign language at some point- would people even understand him then though??? He wasn’t sure. ANYWAYS. Caspian turned to run away only to nearly run into a conveniently placed wall. 

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princessnedakhthatch‌:

Alina watched him as he glanced around, unsure of it he was about to tell her something and he was checking to make sure that no one else was around to hear it or if maybe he just genuinely didn’t know if she was talking to him. His small shrug made her assume that it had been the latter option.

She was surprised to see him pass her and head towards a statue and as he slipped behind it, her excitement continued to grow. She hadn’t known what to really expect, but she hadn’t really thought that what she had said was enough to convince him to come along. She was just glad that it was, it was always more fun to explore with another person than it was to explore alone. 

Alina chuckled softly as he poked his hand out and waved for her to follow, eagerly sneaking in and sliding past the statue. She hadn’t known of this tunnel and it didn’t come as a surprise as to why, the statue didn’t move and she certainly wasn’t about to start shoving her head behind random statues. Keeping her voice down to a whisper she broke the silence, “Woah, I wouldn’t have even thought to look here. You must be pretty good at this kind of thing.”

Caspian liked… not having to deal with people. That gave him the skill of finding ways without having to deal with them with ease. Thankfully the castle was built to keep its secrets- there was so many hidden passages and moving walls in this place. He knew a good number of them and where they lead and which teachers liked to use which to catch students in the act. Of course, he was a decent student and knew how to blend in so he was fine.

Even Lyria didn’t know about this stuff, so it was a little odd to him that he decided to show Alina.

“It leads out to the quidditch fields,” He coughed into his arm- voice raspy and low. Caspian still struggled talking to others, but he thought he could manage this atleast. Pulling his wand from his sleeve, he mumbled a quiet ‘lumos’, light suddenly in the dark passage way. “It branches off to the herbology greenhouses and the upper towers.” He explained keeping his eyes off her and going on ahead.

[lukas-musings]

    I hate how such 𝘴𝘪𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦 words                                Fill my soul with 𝖋𝖊𝖆𝖗

[jamesredacted]

outgrown things || james&open

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jamesredacted‌:

James kept his temper in check, not because he was a particularly patient young man, but rather because he knew that Ariel’s son was young, even if they didn’t ever speak. He was two years younger than James, and James was only half sure of his name being one of the boys from the Narnia series, let alone able to pin point what it actually was. He pointed to the wrappings on his hand and where they were fraying loose, coming off of his hand in a rather annoying fashion.

“Would you mind helping me out?”

He didn’t really have any reason to say no, so he decided to go along with it. Truthfully, the other was intimidated- but when was he not? Caspian couldn’t pin point when this fear of people began, just that he’s felt like this for a very long time. Before it was manageable but the more he avoided people, the worse his anxieties got. Being of royal lineage didn’t help any with that. As a prince, you had eyes on you all the time. It came with the title. What Caspian could manage though was how often people saw him, so he went out of his way to try and avoid people as much as he could.

Not really helping his social anxieties, but he never had any issues avoiding his problems before. He wasn’t about to start to.

With shaking hands, Caspian reached out taking the bandages and rewrapping the bandages so that they were tight enough to not fall off or cause any circulation issues. The halfblood took a step back, returning his attention back to the ground. He gestured nervously, ‘all good...?’

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outgrown things || james&open

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jamesredacted‌:

James picked at the wraps on his knuckles, older ones that he needed to go to the hospital wing to get replaced. He had put it off for a while, but it could go for another few hours without peeling itself to shit. He had split the first and third knuckles on his right hand on the bag this morning before classes, and he couldn’t rewrap the bitch by himself. He turned to the nearest person in the hallway, clearing the scowl off his face for careful neutrality, a learned trait if there was one.

“Would you mind helping me with this real quick?”

He tensed seeing the other look in his direction. Caspian was about to book it when the other person suddenly started speaking. Crap. Was he talking to him? He glanced around before taking a hesitant step forward, thinking maybe someone would walk past him and handle this. That didn’t happen and Caspian found himself standing infront of the other staring down at the other’s hands with apprehension on their face.

Lifting his own, he mimed a rolling action silently asking ‘roll the bandages?’

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princessnedakhthatch‌:

Alina avoided meeting his eyes or even looking at him further for that matter, she didn’t want to make him even more uncomfortable. She had considered leaving him alone but she thought that people like him probably needed a friend to stick by them. She didn’t know what she would’ve done if she hadn’t had Kamil and Cade by her side all these years. Things would have been entirely different and she imagined it wasn’t easy to get through Hogwarts with no friends. Then again, she couldn’t be sure he didn’t have friends, he might’ve. Just because he was alone now didn’t mean he always was.

She smiled excitedly at hearing that he knew about even more places like this and turned back to look down the hall that he had pointed at. That she understood fairly easy, as long as she kept heading down that way she’d stumble across a few more secret areas of the castle. Alina went to start heading in that direction before pausing and stealing one more glance at the boy. “Would you maybe want to join me as I explore? We could just walk in silence if you want or I could do all the talking for both of us, if that’s easier for you.” 

Was... Was she asking him? He even took a quick look around to check if there was another student who happened to be in this quarter or a ghost maybe. When he looked and saw no one else, it dawned on him that yes she was asking him. Caspian shuffled in his spot before he shrugged.

He didn’t have anything to do- really all he planned was do some singing practice and potions. But exploring the castle was always fun. And he could already hear Lyria nagging him about trying to make friends.....

Caspian took a couple steps ahead of her to show her where the secret passage was. It was a bit of a squeeze getting behind the large statue- this was one of the few that didn’t move, unfortunately. Once managed he slipped into the tunnel, throwing his hand out and gesturing for her to follow.

[bob-belcher]

[heiressofallevil]

Olympia // Liam&Open

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balleycastledemigod‌:

Well that was just great. Still, a shake of the head was a step up from no communication whatsoever. At least now if the kid had to go to the hospital wing he could officially declare him not alright. Which, yes, he recognized was not an actual medical diagnosis, but it beat the hell out of telling the nurse the kid was just really quiet.

“Alright, can you tell me what’s wrong?” Something simple and he might be able to take care of the problem himself, which while still inconvenient, was much less of a hassle than the walk all the way to see the nurse and interpreting charades. Liam was painfully aware of the minutes ticking by, giving him less and less time to shower and eat before the food disappeared, “You winded? Bite your tongue, what’s up?”

Please just go, he thought fervently foolishly wondering why the other hadn’t left yet and why the other felt the need to ask more questions. Where was his sister when he needed her. She was good with people- hell she talked enough for both of them. Every time he tried he just ended up looking like a fool because his tongue never actually worked, well, ever. 

Thinking maybe if he put more space between the two would help- give himself some more breathing air. But well, it’s never been that simple for him. In his attempt to take a step back, Caspian somehow tripped. Falling backwards in a rather comical style, the halfblood landed on the floor in a heap his breath knocked out of him. 

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princessnedakhthatch‌:

Alina wasn’t entirely sure of just what he meant but she tried to understand. Her eyes followed his movements and it was obvious he was saying something about the room, she just couldn’t decide if she thought that he was trying to say she could have it or if he wanted it for himself. She recognized the feeling of wanting to say something but the words just not coming and she wanted to be able to fill in all of the blanks for him, she just wished she knew exactly what he meant so she could do so. If anything, she was a little surprised he even knew about the place, she rarely ever ran into anyone on this part of campus.

“I mean I don’t even really need it, like I said I was just kinda on a walk, wandering. It’s cool that you know this place exists, I didn’t think that there were many people who knew about it.  Do you know about other places like this? You don’t need to answer that if you don’t want to though. Or you could just nod if that’s easier.” She played with her hands as she spoke, her nerves beginning to catch up with her, that was obvious from her rambling. When she anxious, she rambled. It was habit she had been trying to break.

Forcing himself to take a deep breath, Caspian tried to calm himself down. If this kept up, he would undoubtedly pass out from lack of oxygen going to his brain. That would not be ideal. Fainting infront of some stranger, then worse waking up in the medical bay with rumors flying about drawing even more attention to him. Yes, that was something he wanted to avoid at all costs. His tongue peaked out, wetting his lips slightly as the halfblood glanced around trying to find something to focus on. 

Oh. That was a pretty normal looking tile.

Caspian’s hands shook, wondering how to answer. Yes, he knew of more secret rooms and passage ways. He knew of plenty, it’s how he avoided people and still made it in time for class. Nervously, he gave a nod of his head finally- finally- taking a look at her face. Oh she was pretty. He looked back down again, slowly turning and pointing down further into hall to give her some sort of direction. 

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get em all hooked || harry&open

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themiddlehook‌:

“Come on, ya little thing, there’s no need to be afraid. Just tell me what ya were doin’ an I might even leave ya be,” Harry said, leaning up against the wall with his arms crossed in front of his chest. He liked to spook little Auradon kids, and with ones like this, it was only so easy. The kid looked ready to pass out at the mere implication of someone knowin’ what he was doing.

He opened his mouth, but no words spilled out. As it was always the case. Caspian couldn’t talk to others- even if he wanted to. Whenever a scenario came up for him to talk, it’s as if the words ran away from him. Fear pooled in his stomach, and he felt a rising sense of panic at being put in a situation where he had to interact with someone. Slowly, he put his foot back on the ground, straightening himself up but still no words were spoken. 

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[heiressofallevil]

Olympia // Liam&Open

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balleycastledemigod‌:

Standing around awkwardly waiting for a reply, Liam gave it about half a minute of a whole lotta nothing before giving in. The kid wasn’t that small, so he didn’t think he had to worry about breaking him, but if his shoulder had hit right it was totally possible the Ravenclaw had the wind knocked out of him. And Liam had falling off his broom enough in his younger years to know just how much that sucked.

Quickly taking a look around for someone, anyone, else who could come play hero and take the kid off his hands. Seeing no one, the Hufflepuff sighed to himself before offering the younger student a gentle smile, resigned to being the nice guy once again, “Hey man, you okay?”

The hell was he supposed to if the kid refused to answer? He wasn’t super excited about sticking around to help someone who didn’t want it, but it didn’t exactly sit well with him doing nothing about someone he may have hurt.

Oh god. The other wasn’t leaving. Now things got immensely worse for him.

Caspian couldn’t even look at the other guy, so the smile did not do much to help the situation. Unfortunately. He just wasn’t good with talking and talking to guys was even worse. If he was tongue tied before, now he was just tongueless. Guys intimidated him. Usually they were all brawn and outspoken and tall and nice looking-

Everything he wasn’t and everything he could not handle at the same time.

The halfblood took a step back, looking positively more frightened than before. Sucking in a deep breath through clenched teeth, he managed to look up slightly- enough so that the other’s shoulders were in view- and shook his head even more. Willing whatever deity out there that was watching and laughing at him for the other to understand and just move on.