From the Chaos through Necessity all things are given Form

Writings, poems, thoughts.

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Going Down Steady

Hot and heavy your breath does pervade

You’re affection is a trojan horse to sent to my heart and invade

The slaughter inside, the screams of panic and pain, the taste of homicide and disdain

What’s right and wrong? You need not judge or consensus it’s written in the lyrics of the cosmic song

It burns and yearns for a body to hold with a spirit of Gold it demands and commands nations and armies to death and pacifies the hate and outlives fate stitched onto your souls

Lord is watching with eyes of fire and aer melting away your anxiety and fear

These frozen peaks filled with spirits watching carefully, sentinels against the sky

Enemies speak in strange languages and don’t wonder why

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Why do You Live Like This?

Insects and lizards and bugs in my stew chased by rott meth brew, rott meth brew, rott meth brew, rotts through you

The inhabitants drink from a broken glass, a crack, and when needed by a loved one always turn their back

Down the neglected country road paved with with animal trails targeted and ran over to hear them explode

This cat is dinner now no beef, no meat from poultry or cow

The trees are dead and hallowed at the core being eaten away by mold and a mass of worms with in an endless swamp and yet the creatures in the woods hump and romp to pro-destroy at their haunt

Uneasy, uneasy, as they lie the air is boiling and wet and their bodies are covered in filth and sweat a top a urine stained blanket

Tattered clothes and tattered homes a world trapped in a stagnant act of death

No fresh air to catch my breath just a salty suffocating burning fume with a smell of an ancient corpse exhumed and now the land has left the life that treads upon it doomed, the land has left the life that treads upon it doomed.

This is state of a depraved self desecrating tomb

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So many thoughts penetrating through time and space in you

Access a foreign memory as your eyes roll to the back of your skull before it cracks from the beating you took

Hating you through and through, knocking your teeth loose

The pain took you to a time when you remembered telling the one you loved most to lay beside you in bed and with a smile they said you’d be better off dead and they were right

Every friend is barbed wire entrapping you and the spirits whisper and you hear them pray shouting till you talk back to them too

You have so many thoughts in your head some sneak out and your assailants call you an idiot and in your mind their is no doubt

Character assassination carried out for caring about someone else and now you’re helpless and robbed of hope

Slowly murdered in the crowded street as crowds gather and mock you with noose and rope

There’s nothing you can ever do as your eyes swollen shut and you feel your warm blood trickle down your face but you like the taste

They’re spitting in your face and with haste they made a dire mistake

Half dead and fully disgraced your existence has been erased presently a forgotten shell trapped in hell

Now you find yourself whispering in someones ear praying for their well being and demanding to be acknowledged as you see the claws of the world slowly grasp and entrap them till they’re one day bleeding and beaten black and blue till they’re corpse is left to rot on the street and join you and warn another of the deceit

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Loathsome Month

Angsty wet screams

I seek love but was told to drink down a lit molotov

“Faggot” carved into my face cause at it’s base I’m just a disgrace a soul out of place

I was enjoying dinner, eating and I was getting fat feeding on delusions of equality

Round me up with guns and things dashing out my dreams filling the world with your vile schemes falling apart and it seems every ally is a knife

What just is life?

A disposable thing brought about by your gay hell and I won’t go quietly with gun and bat in hand I’ll shoot and beat you bloody on demand

There are no friends just unhappy endings with violence urging the things that your betrayals bring

As a man I just wanted a man to love but I’m sure murdering me slowly is just as sublime

Crazy with rage in this accepting day and age I’m ready to move from this and for the next stage

It’s outrageous, love treated as a disease sick and contagious yet they welcome risk quick and brisk

Patience is ending I’ll fight you with no punches held back your moral deficiency is what has always lacked

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The Bleed

I catch your finger print in the lens of my eye

And I don’t know where I am

And I don’t give a damn

And I don’t give a damn even for uncle Sam

Cause I don’t know who I am

And I’m serenely bleeding out

No longer filled with doubt because I know where we stand and I’ve ignored your every demand

Defying your every command because I know who I’m not

And behold my blood is poring out in response the power you sought

It’s rancid and corrosive like acid just like your intentions and thought

My hopes and dreams for life dashed

My hard work and life smashed

With my teeth gnashed I accept love from him

Devoted and kind not just his passion on a whim

Something you can’t account for cause they’re feelings you can’t whore for

Too much time spent for your deceiving I have the love I know you won’t ever be receiving

A love I once offered you

It’s what you threw at me unknowingly set yourself lost at sea with no anchor with sharks that eat

I won’t hear your screams cause I’ll have bled out when they eat your meat off your bones

I’ll be buried beneath the stones true to love and him

No one will know what happened and for that I am saddened but it’s the price of living silence to not incite violence against someone I loved

Even if I’m mad and drugged

I stayed true to me

Even if no one will see

Except my love across the sea

That’s all that matters here

To live without regret or fear

To do my very best

Live life like it’s a test

Cause I found it true

That if you are not you

You have died young

Fell for what the sirens sung

Death knells to you

I never got to say goodbye

I won’t trap myself wondering why

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Never Loved

I may never be loved, I may forever be is snubbed

By mother and father from discarded child to discarded lover

I’m screaming in to the great expanse of an empty void filled by the echos of emptier space

I am a man with no face growing paranoid as the sea of cruel eyes watch me

You are an ocean of voices violating every thought and moment

A sick chorus whirling across the globe some seeking pain and some seeking atonement

My mind and heart are broken, all that I can fight with are dead and with your words spoken I will never be awoken

Because you live by the same rules but just take and take and leave and abandon

I have no worth for you to hold me at ransom so I am owed a bullet to the head and a knife in my bed

A young death to my rage so that I would never grow to engage

So that you would not reap what you sow

So that I would not keep every woe

You sit there sneering as my corpse is leering

You dance still on a premature grave and I am the living dead from the half death that you gave

If I the undead were ever to rise I’d burn the world down and set a fire to the flames of demise

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Ring of Knives

With a ring of knives I wed to bound the souls of the dead

My bleeding gashes are the only signs of life in a world of ashes

Chasing a ghost that has not become loved that has leftover for the death of most

Sidhe fly over head the sea of empty moving bodies with hollow eyes

Lies not to be told as they unfold

You think you’re evolved but you’re weak and ever so meek

The things that’s seethe and the things these automatons seek

Screaming their scripture that they have no soul, no mind and can’t think I’ll cut you loose and let you sink

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Hearts Looter

The things that were fought for and made

Centuries drown their thoughts and memories of love

With your wounded sense of self you evade

You’re a sad delicate thing

I’ve been so betrayed by a lewd soft “human being”

A gift earned through merit and not deceiving

Empty you hunger and swallow like a whore expecting more but still plundering hearts

With these thuggish arts you’d think you’d be straight forward

But you let what’s not said speak for your mind like a coward

What you can get with your deceit is only what I’m willing to give but won’t receive

I’m freeing up my time and mind from the idling by not being kind

You make cruelty virtue and kindness vice just a catty whiner disguised as a temperamental liar with no cunning sending out your subtle tells and signs

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Hands Fasting

Ribbons across miles of country like scarlet welts

We come together for this hand fasting

Tied hand in hand the ribbon burns as the sting from leather belts

Joined for something that’s never lasting

Hearts imprisoned by animal need

Souls damaged as though they were not

None is left obscured at the sight of it’s cruelty and deed

Happily left alone into old age they rot

They wonder as if it were a secret in a hidden tome

These lives they ignited on their own

To make profane vows is to live without a home

To break a heart for fun is to break their bone

With their eyes downturned to their great exalted god of nothing

Covered in regret at such a late stage

Wishing they had valued something

It costs so much to not engage

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What you Regret

Hopeless, faithless, remorseless

Denying everything that is self evident

Denying the soul, the force that animates them

Deny yourself but you will not deny me

I exist, I breathe, with these lungs I speak word and law and of peace

With this mind I think and my thoughts become substance

My suffering emanates a vile heat poisonous like radiation

My joy is a beacon, I am more than inhuman

You will not love you make that choice day after day when your eyes open

You have no kindness your well is dry

No identity and no face you stalk the world

Willfully empty refusing any help for recovery

If not join hands if not stand then why crawl?

You can not walk your words are empty when you talk

Your eyes are vacant

I see through you with your actions

Hiding behind your factions

Grasping anything to plug your wound

Self inflicted

Your heart spills out wonton and wanting like a child’s

Undisciplined from denying it, the truth through faith that’s self evident

You have your soul and do nurture it instead you feed it spiders and insects

Laying out their web hoping that whatever gets caught catches your interest

There’s no value to you if it does not serve you

No one will suffer you and no one will deserve to

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Weak Point

I’ve travelled a path alone since I left the comfort of home

Born into cruelty soft and kind I was hardened

I am but cracking glass

I am but melting ice

I’ve always been told I’m too nice

My heart is in it’s eclipse

Just remembering his loving lips

They don’t exist now

To live here I no longer know how

I can feel their corruption eating away at my will to live

In truth I’ve got no use and nothing else to give

Everything is taken from me

No use in fighting there’s no reason to plead

My every need ignored

You’re all always hating me but if it causes pain it’s adored

Every taboo you take joy in breaking

All my faith you feel joy in taking

You tell me to go to the light just to be burnt

You tell me to come to acceptance just to be turned

Lies and lies is all I ever hear you speak

I can’t help you because in ways I can’t relate to you’re too weak

If I leave it all to you and follow your wish and my body meets it’s decay I know you’ll only smile

So smile away

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Schizophrenic Poetry

They give us medication to fix us, but maybe we’re not broken. Just maybe we were lucky enough to take a glimpse of the divine and it was so beautifully heart breaking that our souls began to crack.

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Dogma’s Mouthpiece

Psychopathic, you’re feeling hot and erratic

Your blood is boiling up your face is turning red

The knife your holding is wet

A desire, a confusion, a wish, and suffocating frustration living every moment of life in agitation

Like Fenrir is caged I’m growing enraged

Waiting for the apocalypse as the war systems engage

I am left behind from your deeds and your minds when I eat flesh it’s not human cannibalism because I’m stuck in a prison and I’ve never been acknowledged as such

Don’t look at me now, don’t calm my anger, I’ve never known a tender touch

Feasting on these imbeciles sending off their pseudo souls watching their skepticism melt away

You never hold conviction and your love and kindness is based on prejudiced conditions

I’ve sent all the missionaries to hell try to proselytize the devils with your yell

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Transient Theosis

I wrote a horror story set in the killing seas

Wrapped up in lust and greed giving the fuckers just what they need

Excreting poison from my soul for them to read

I give of myself my pain as penalty for hating everything

Thoughtless and mindless indulgent things and the death they bring

I’m just a small mouth chewing away at the hive mind wait till you see how they broke mine

These peoples and their deeds cover me with misery

Hateful and ungrateful nagging human beings running at a moral deficiency

Burdened with sorrows as my inner light grieves for these things

Soft warm shine illuminating the darkest night

Hearing every complaint and plight immovable and bright

My justice for you is a blight that will last till you gain the sight the extension of your own light through the change that comes from death and the fears in the nurturing night

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Relations

A small bird at my window sill sings to me in the morning

A small bird I befriend in the middle of spring

We fly away into some ancient unknown woods to meet an old tree

We talk about the ages that past and the ones to come

A flock of many kind arrive and a chorus forms and we summon the wind as one

We rise as the sun and set in the night, revel in our nature, and revel in our might

What it is to be free as the stars circle the moon

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If God is Love

If God is love then I am Godless I was born with the curse of generations marked for death and hell’s incinerations

I will stand forever defiant true to my kind and true to my alliance

I came here to kill the devils and save the earth

With a stillborn brith I came screaming into your twisted corrupted world a scourge

Where’s your peace, order, and unity holier than thou charlatans with the smell of impurity on your skin?

With your faces covered in your sins. No one gets out of here alive, here there are no wins

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Spider Bite

Saw a spider with a smile out of the corner of my eye

A fly caught in it’s web struggling as I pray in the room for redemption from doom this day

It’s venom in my veins makes me feel pleasurable pains as it’s toxin makes my skin break out in hives

The spider laughs as it loves to take lives

One second there and gone the next like the light in my eyes as I become perplexed

The suns a burning into my skull like a missile into a ships hull

Sifting away caught in a frozen scream and put on display

Amusement from suffering, you exploit yourself for me

You exploit me too caught with no soul and no one to hold

I was always alone in a shifting room of faces and ever changing places

One scene blends into the next

There’s no time to despair just living to pair with nooses braided from my hair

Whispering corpses dangling from my head forgive me if I take some time to put war paint on my face that’s colored blood red

You don’t know what it’s like to live with this and I don’t know what living is

Bound into a treatment for the same old death

Don’t tell me you care if you don’t and don’t tell me to live if you won’t

Stop killing for me please I’m just asking for a simple release

Don’t tell me to take the power back if you don’t have any

Dancing in the streets mocking God with smiles on your unfaithful face

Don’t tell me I’m a disgrace if you feel no shame in your games

If I wasnt alone, if I wasn’t a broken bone being chewed by a starving dog

I’d love

But you don’t love anyone and you hate the world but I won’t