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Crazy,

Crazy I gave you the world,

My time,

Unconditional love and care.

Now we are no longer us.

You settle for worse then you made me to be.

Loved and cared even through the hardest and toughest times for you.

Yet here I am, missing you when I should hate you.

You put me through the worst ever in my life.

Yet I still have love and care for you.

Everyday I hope this feeling goes away completely.

Cause I know I’m not even a spec of thought in your mind let alone love or care.

The love you showed and gave felt so real, now I feel every bit of it was lies.

This sucks. Wish we could have be something different then I couldn’t feel what I’m feeling and lost you completly.

A best friend, lover and all. Just GONE

Guess I was right as always a trial run for you to be better and give the next everything I begged for. As you are

#lost #thissucks #hurt #noclosure #loveaintreal #unloveable #imjustatrialrun #foreverbroken

star-struck09

Do you think of me as often as I think of you?

vjeranski

LAST NIGHT,

As I held you in my arms holding back tears all I can think and feel is you will never love me like I love you. You won’t go above and beyond as I would for you. All I would and do for you I don’t get or will anymore from you. I feel I have lost you along with the affection, attention, appreciation, compliments and just love.

What am I? I no longer know what I’m worth to you or am I even enough anymore.

I’m giving up and I don’t want to.

yuyuuyuyuu-deactivated20230726

“ur overthinking this” bro I have anxiety. I have no other type of thinking available

Sucks to feel not wanted or Yearned for. To feel like someone can’t get enough of you and can’t resist you. To hear someone say “ damn I’m so lucky to have you” “your so sexy” “I want you” “I appreciate you”. To just have someone want to always please you as much as possible sexually, physically and mentally. I want to be wanted

#Iwishtobewanted #iwanttomatter #iwanttobewanted

rainy-autumn-day

carmdesiree

Cat naps 😍

highassi

I think it's sexy when someone can handle my smart ass mouth and attitude instead of leaving like a little bitch

Why do I even exist?

I miss the way you look at me.

Like I was the only one around, as if I was a random bright star on this universe and you couldn’t stop looking, like you was falling in love over and over again with being amazed.

I miss see the look in your eyes when you look at me, as if you was in a deep day dream but still aware what your looking at with happiness. The little smile yet smirk that followed that look. As if I know.

I know but I also feel every bit of love you was feeling for me in that look.

I guess I’m not worthy of someone ever being in love with me.

To be in your head

I just want to know what was going through your mind when you did what you did. What was your thought? Who or what was you thinking of?. To know what you was truly thinking maybe I can come to a better understanding of you causing the hurt and pain you decided to give me and put me through.

The damage is done.

How do you truly feel now?. What is it you are truly thinking of?, after me spilling out all of my feelings let alone the pain you have caused me. Was it worth it?. Telling you from the start all I been through, why? Why put me through it again? Why repeat something someone else has done to me already?. You said how can someone take my smile for granted. You would never cheat or do the things someone did to me. So...... why?. what is it you are thinking? I want to really know what is on your mind honestly. I want to be in your head.

Then maybe just maybe I could understand why I deserved what you did to me.

#personal #iwanttobeinyourhead #whyme #whatismyworth #hurt #painful #idk