Forbidden Fruit - a love story
natasha romanoff x f!reader
You refuse to trade your autonomy for suffocating traditions, while she relies on strict rules just to survive. What starts as a bitter battle between your differences slowly chips away—dragging you from enemies into a secret relationship that threatens to tear everything apart.
details: 9k words, STRONG fantasy!au, this is a story btw not a short fic, princess/fem!reader, r is sarcastic/fighting spirit, knight!natasha, eventual smut, top!natasha, bottom!reader, first time together (kiss/sex) fingers in v (r receiving), oral (r receiving) secret lover, romance/smut, injuries/discussions of war/violence (time period, nothing major to major characters), happy ending, enemies to friends to lovers, age gap (r is 23, n is 34), slight hurt/comfort, wine mention (r consuming)
Traditions offer safety and preserve culture, but for a free bird, they are nothing more than a cage built to clip her wings. They leave no room for freedom or independent thought, forcing you to tread the exact same worn pavement as those who came before.
You had zero interest in obeying or marching in line like a robot, and even less understanding of how anyone could willingly surrender their dreams and autonomy just to repeat what has already been done.
You tried to push boundaries, to challenge every limit of what was believed and accepted, yet it yielded nothing. Your defiance only made your family restless and multiplied the stress on the staff who had to manage you. Night after night, the maids would find your room empty, the silk curtains billowing in the cool air, their panicked screams echoing through the corridors at your vanished presence.
You thought they would eventually tire of the game. Instead, they adapted.
Your father selected a guard with the utmost care. A cold, immovable presence tasked with keeping you under perpetual watch. At first, it wasn't about her specifically, but the simple reality of being observed every second of the day. Having someone trail your every footstep was infuriating. It made the hair on the back of your neck stand up and forced your posture into a tight, rigid line. It was nauseating, suffocating, and frustrating beyond measure, trapping you far tighter than any corset ever could.
That resentment festered quickly, turning into an intense hatred for both her and your parents. Your entire situation.
At first, you maintained a polite, respectful distance, but the constant surveillance quickly wore down your patience. You grew antsy, desperate for a single breath of privacy, and began trying every trick to shake her off your trail. You would linger a moment too long in the washroom, stay submerged in the bath until the water turned cold, or ask her to fetch something from across the hall just to give you thirty seconds to dart into another room.
You went to bed every night with your jaw clenched until it ached. You hated her. You swore it to yourself in the dark, using the anger like fuel. You promised that no matter what it took, you would tear your freedom back out of their iron grip.
Tonight like all previous nights, you washed your face with the fragrant oil. In the mirror capturing her presence standing silent behind you near the doors. The faint flickering of the single candle illuminated only a sliver of her face.
Just beyond the glass lied the open balcony doors, where the cool night breeze drifted in, taunting you. The fresh air was an undeniable pull, drawing you toward the edge. You craved it: the urge to slip out into the dark once more, to feel the cool dirt beneath your bare feet...
She wasn't stupid, but you truly believed her guard had finally dropped after two full weeks of your perfect, obedient act. When you slipped beneath the covers and blew out the bedside candle, she turned to shut the heavy chamber doors behind her, just as she had done every night prior.
The very second the latch clicked, you threw the sheets off your body and bolted toward the open window.
The sharp crack of the doors swinging back open startled a gasp right out of your lungs, making your heart leap into your throat. She hadn't even fully closed them. Her gaze locked instantly onto yours as you stood poised in the window frame, caught red-handed in the pale moonlight.
Before she could close the distance, you threw yourself over the sill and scrambled onto the familiar branches outside. She made her way to the ledge as you dropped franticly from limb to limb down the trunk of the tree, your chest heaving violently as you tried to stay ahead of her.
She wore no heavy armor like the other knights. Only lightweight linen clothes that made her entirely silent, her soft footsteps padding closely behind you. You reached deeper into the thick forest, weaving between the dense trees in a desperate attempt to throw her off. After a few agonizing minutes of running, the sound of her pursuit finally faded into the dark.
You collapsed forward, hands resting on your knees, letting out a sound somewhere between a ragged heave and a dry laugh. Maybe she had missed the turn at the creek, or maybe her training didn't cover sprinting through unlit woods in thin shoes.
You straightened up, taking a deep breath of the crisp night air, only to feel a sudden, heavy weight hit you from behind.
The force swept your legs out, bringing you crashing down onto the damp earth.
"You—!" you snapped, utterly enraged, immediately twisting in the dirt to shove her off you. "You're foul, you know that? Tackling me to the ground like that? I'm not in danger!"
She leaned back, using one hand to push her loose hair back from her face, completely unbothered by your outburst. "You decided to run. What was I to do... lose you?"
"Yes!" You spat, shoving yourself up into a sitting position and brushing the dark soil off your palms. "It'd do you good. Get another job. Who even wants to watch another human being forever? Oh..."
You stopped for a second, pointing a sharp finger directly at her face. "Miserable twats like you."
"I swore an oath to the king. To your father—"
"Oh, shut up," you said, rolling your eyes as you pushed yourself off the ground and stood up, dusting the pine needles from your night dress.
"Just take me back. You've got me. You proud?"
You turned and started walking back toward the castle, forcing her to follow. You kept your eyes fixed strictly ahead, refusing to spare her even a glance, the heavy silence between you thicker than the woods.
A deep, suffocating wave of frustration settled over you, laced with a quiet, burning sadness that cut far deeper than the fall. The game was up. The small window of hope you had spent two weeks carefully cultivating was gone, crushed under her grip in the dirt. You were truly trapped now.
The dark glass shattered against the wooden vanity with a sharp, violent crack. Oil pooled instantly across the polished surface, reflecting the dim candlelight in fractured, golden shards.
Your breathing came quick and shallow as the cold reality settled into your bones. It was all gone. Every small, precious mercy—the breeze through an unlocked window, a solitary walk down a quiet hallway, a fleeting breath of unfiltered night air., had been methodically erased. You weren't a daughter; you were an investment. A broodmare wrapped in silk, waiting out a twelve-month countdown until your life was handed over to a stranger.
Standing by the wall, she didn't flinch at the sound of breaking glass, but her posture shifted, her focus locking entirely onto you.
You stared down at the oil seeping into the cracks of the wood, your trembling palm opening to reveal slick red blood mixing with the golden pool. The tears you had fought so hard to suppress finally burned hot against your cheeks, driven by a sickening mix of rage and absolute defeat.
Your forehead hit the cool surface of the vanity, your harsh sobs echoing through the suffocatingly quiet room. You heard the rustle of her uniform before a gentle hand reached out, taking yours. Without a word, she pressed a clean cloth into your palm and began binding the wound tightly.
You turned your head, keeping your face resting against your arm as she finished tying off the fabric. She stepped away for a moment, gathering the necessary tools to sweep up the glass shards.
"Aren't you going to say something?" you mumbled against your forearm, your voice muffled and cracked. "Or even ask what happened...?"
She paused, keeping her back turned as she reached for a rag. "I am not going to pry unless you wish to speak to me."
You let out a wet, breathless laugh against your sleeve, the sound hollow and sharp. "Pry? You literally watch me breathe all day. You watch me sleep. What's left to pry into?"
She didn't take the bait. She simply knelt, her knees hitting the rug as she carefully swept the largest, sharpest shards of glass into a thick cloth, keeping her movements measured and deliberate.
"I watch your surroundings," she corrected quietly, her voice calm in the heavy room. "I do not claim to know your thoughts."
"My thoughts?" You lifted your head, tears tracking through the light layer of oil still on your cheeks, your hand throbbing where the tight bandage held back the blood. "I think about how I am a prisoner. I think about how in a year, I will be sold off to a man I don't know, to spend the rest of my life as a vessel for someone else's legacy. And I think about how you are the one holding the door shut and allowing it all to happen."
She paused for a fraction of a second, a piece of glass held between her fingers, before placing it into the cloth. She didn't look up at you, but the line of her shoulders stiffened just enough for you to notice.
"I am holding the door shut," she said, her tone level, "because it is my duty to keep you alive. What happens on the other side of that door is not my choice to make."
"It must be nice," you whispered, wiping your face with your uninjured hand, "to hide behind duty so you never have to feel guilty. To be so alright being a slave to a system."
She stood, setting the bundle of broken glass aside. "I fought the system, but I also understand why it's in place."
"That makes zero sense," you deadpan, wiping a stray tear from your cheek with your uninjured hand.
"It makes complete sense if you stop looking at it through the lens of what is fair, and start looking at it as a machine," she said, her voice remaining steady, almost clinical. "Women are not meant to be knights. The rules were written to keep people like me at the bottom, sweeping floors and starving in the lower city. I didn't change the rules to get here. I learned how the machine operates, proved I was more useful holding a sword than a broom, and forced them to employ me."
She looked down at you, her dark eyes entirely unreadable in the dim candlelit room.
"The castle does not run on feelings. It runs on transactions, alliances, and order. Your father doesn't lock these doors because he hates you, nor do I stand guard because I take pleasure in your misery. It is simply business. To the crown, you are an asset to be protected and placed where you offer the highest return. To me, keeping you in this room is the contract that keeps me fed, clothed, and alive."
She stepped closer, retrieving a fresh cloth to wipe the remaining oil off the vanity. "You view these walls as a personal attack against your soul. But the world outside doesn't care about your soul either. It only cares about power, position, and who holds the keys. I survived by accepting that reality, not by weeping because the world is cold."
You shook your head in disbelief. "I'd give anything for actual freedom, to not be forced into a marriage I don't want, forced to bear children I never asked for."
"Living as a commoner in the village would yield the same fate," she replied flatly. "You would still marry who you are told to marry, and you would still bear children."
"Then disappearing evades both," you snapped back, your voice cracking. "I just want to be free. I would rather face whatever consequences come with running than endure another second of this life."
She paused, her hand hovering over the vanity for a fraction of a second before continuing to wipe away the spilled oil.
"Don't we all?" she said, her voice dropping lower, losing just a sliver of its sharp, clinical edge. "Everyone wants to vanish."
She straightened up, tossing the oil-stained rag into the basin before looking back toward the door.
"It's getting late, and you have early events to attend tomorrow. You should rest."
Without another word, she stepped out, pulling the heavy chamber doors shut behind her. The sharp, decisive click of the lock turning from the outside echoed through the dark, leaving you entirely alone with the lingering smell of copper and sweet oil.
The days that followed blur into an exhausting, rigid rhythm. There are long, quiet hours spent hunching over heavy, leather-bound volumes with a tutor, improving your reading until your eyes ache from the script. You sit through formal meals with your family and a rotating cast of carefully selected guests.
Foreign nobles, high-ranking lords, and potential suitors, learning how to smile politely while keeping your posture perfect.
Every afternoon brings tedious lessons in geography and statecraft. You are forced to memorize the borders, the trade routes, and the lineage of a kingdom you feel no kinship with. Your instructors preach about duty, drumming into your head the importance of keeping the past alive. That the sacrifices and deaths of those who came before you cannot be in vain, and that your bloodline is the key to preserving it all.
Now, the entire castle is buzzing with preparation for the upcoming grand ball. A lavish celebration dedicated to the kingdom's rich history, its triumphs, and its supposed love for its people. Silk banners are hung from the high arches, the floors are polished to a mirror sheen, and the air smells heavily of crushed flowers and spiced wine.
Everyone around you is eager to celebrate how the realm has flourished and provided for its subjects, while you are left to prepare for a night where you will be put on full display, a gilded puppet in the center of their grand performance.
"You look wonderful," she commented softly.
And you sighed, walking right past her without another word.
For the rest of the evening, you moved through the ballroom like a ghost in fine silk. You made tedious, boring conversation, nodding along to dull stories and smiling on cue. Forcing a completely fake version of yourself to the surface. You threw yourself into the cadence of each dance, using the swelling crowd and constant movement to desperately avoid meeting the man your family was so eager to marry you off to.
But you could only dodge the inevitable for so long.
During a sharp turn in the music, you spun straight into a firm chest. You caught yourself instantly, burying the sudden jolt of shock and every drop of disgust behind a practiced, flawless smile.
"Oh, sire," you said smoothly, dipping into a graceful curtsy. "It is my absolute pleasure to meet you."
"No, it is all mine," he dips to press a kiss to your hand and you bite the inside of your cheek not to jerk your hand into his jaw.
You kept the conversation brief, desperately hunting for an easy way out. "Oh, that is wonderful... but we shouldn't waste all our conversation now at a ball. We must save this for when we have our official meeting later."
He opened his mouth to say more, but you gave him a polite, dismissive hush and slipped away before he could object.
Taking full advantage of the opening, you didn't just leave the conversation. You fled the ball entirely. You slipped toward a far staircase tucked away in the shadows, stepping up each stone riser until you reached the high balustrade above.
From up top, you looked down at the glittering sea of nobles, swirling fabric, and roaring festivities below, taking a slow sip from the glass of wine resting in your hand.
The woman, your guard, stepped up behind you. "You like to run away."
"Balls aren't my cup of tea," you bit back, keeping your eyes fixed on the chaos transpiring below. "It's just the rich flaunting their wealth, trying to act richer than everyone else most of the time."
She didn't answer.
You spent the remainder of the ball up on that ledge, watching the celebration blur into a distant haze of noise and light. When the music finally began to wind down, you handed your empty glass off to her and slipped away, making your silent exit back to your room to go to bed.
Ever since the ball, preparations had been underway for a trip to a neighboring coastal village. It wasn't a grand voyage, but simply escaping the same four walls that had defined your entire life was a massive leap forward. She had certainly noticed the rare smile returning to your face, a fleeting spark of joy slipping back through your usual guard.
Upon arrival, you were given a proper tour and introduced to the locals by a castle steward. One of the royal courtiers assigned to oversee the regional affairs. But as night fell and the rest of the household began turning in, you grabbed a heavy cloak and pulled your hair back into a loose pin. Planning to leave the small and old inn you two were housed in.
She watched you from the doorway in silent disapproval. "Miss, I don't believe—"
"You'll be right there, won't you?" you interrupted smoothly, adjusting the hem. "I'll be safe... it's only to scope the place out a bit. It's good for me to know the village as royalty, isn't it?"
You slid the hood of the cloak over your head and stepped right past her. A heavy, defeated sigh echoed in the hallway behind you, followed closely by the steady, familiar thud of her boots keeping pace.
The village was glowing, transformed by a vibrant light festival. Bright, colorful lanterns and warm candles illuminated the bustling market stalls and stone homes, casting a magical sheen over the crowd. Because of the dense sea of people, she kept an exceptionally tight pace beside you, her shoulder repeatedly brushing against yours to keep you anchored.
You waited for your moment. Sighting an opportunity, you asked her if she could fetch something for you nearby. The second her attention shifted to complete the task, you vanished.
It wasn't a trick of your own making.
A rough, calloused hand clamped tight around your wrist, yanking you violently out of the main thoroughfare and dragging you backward into a maze of dark, narrow alleyways. You opened your mouth and screamed with everything you had, but the booming festival music and cheering crowds completely drowned out your frantic, fear-ripped cries.
Whoever held you tugged with a desperate, rushed urgency, hauling you deeper into the shadows. Peeling you further and further away from her, and any hope of help.
You hear him breathe out a rough sound, mumbling something about how you're a squealer.
Your boot caught on an uneven cobblestone, sending you sprawling onto your knees in the wet dirt of a side alley. The hand on your wrist yanked violently, forcing you back up against a damp stone wall. A shadow loomed over you, a reeking rag smelling of bitter herbs pressed hard toward your face.
Before it could cover your nose, a sudden, wet thud echoed down the narrow brick corridor.
The man’s grip on your wrist went limp instantly. He dropped to his knees behind you without a sound, collapsing forward into the mud.
Standing over him was her. She wasn't breathing heavily, nor did she look frantic. You avoided looking at the weapon she sheathed, noting a dark liquid drip onto the cobblestone below.
She didn't ask if you were alright. Instead, her eyes swept past you, scanning the shadows behind you, the rooftops above, and the mouth of the alley to make sure he was alone. Only when she was certain the threat was contained did she step over the man's body, her heavy boots coming to a stop directly in front of you.
She took your elbow in a firm grip and hauling you up.
Her voice lacking any triumph, only a low, dangerous edge, she says. "Up. We are leaving."
You lay on the antique bed, feeling a bit dazed as her hands moved gently about your face, carefully checking for any injuries. As your vision cleared, you looked closely at her face in the warm, clear light of the room, instantly noticing the small, fresh cut split across her lip.
Your eyebrows furrowed. "Are you alright...?"
"Yes," she answered curtly, not breaking her thorough inspection.
"I mean the cut on your lip..." You reached up slightly, gesturing toward her face. "What happened...?"
She didn't immediately answer, her fingers lingering against your jaw to tilt your head slightly.
"One of them was quicker with a knife than I anticipated," she said plainly, wiping a trace of blood from the corner of her mouth with the back of her hand. Her voice remained steady, completely unbothered by the sting. "It is a minor scratch. It will heal."
She reached for the damp towel resting in a basin near the bed she requested earlier, wringing out the excess water before dabbing it to her lips.
You swallowed, staring up at her. "I guess this is the time where I should thank—"
"Save it," she cut in, her tone flat and unyielding. "Sleep."
"You saved my life...?" You pushed yourself up slightly, your brow furrowed. "Can't I just—"
"No," she said, wringing the rag out again with a tight, methodical twist. "It is my job to lay my life before yours."
"Oh God, stop speaking like that..." You let out a quiet, frustrated breath, leaning back against the pillows. "I just wanted to say thank you."
The return to the castle felt less like coming home and more like entering a tomb. The high stone walls, once merely cold, now felt oppressive. Your tutors doubled down on your lessons, your family watched your every move, and the impending marriage hung over your head like an executioner's blade.
The only difference was Natasha.
She no longer stood three paces back. When your eyes met across a crowded room, there was an unspoken understanding between yo. A shared memory of dark alleys, cold mud, and the sharp scent of copper. She was still your guard, but the professional distance felt thinner now, worn down by the quiet moments. Your anger flittered away.
It was long past midnight when the heavy latch on your chamber door clicked open.
You sat up in bed, hand instinctively going to the dagger you’d hidden beneath your pillow since the festival. Of her mentioning to you to head her warning that since you are to be married off to another, to be queen, there's a wanted label on your head more than ever.
But it was just her. She stepped into the dim candlelight, stripped of her formal castle armor, wearing only her muted leather brigandine and dark trousers.
"Put your boots on," she said, her voice barely a whisper.
You said you liked to see the village," Natasha said flatly, tossing a dark wool cloak onto the foot of your bed.
"If this is a test my father set you up to, you're doing a shit job." You pulled the sheets up tighter around yourself, eyeing her with deep suspicion.
"I'm giving you an opportunity."
You eyed her for a second longer, weighing her expression in the dim light, before reluctantly sliding out of bed and slipping on the items she had tossed to you.
The cool night air washed over your face as you stepped under the heavy canopy of the forest, the towering castle walls finally shrinking behind you. Leaves rustled softly beneath your boots, the quiet crunch breaking the silence of the night.
She walked half a pace ahead of you.
"Why are you doing this?" you asked quietly, pulling the wool cloak tighter around your shoulders.
She didn't slow her stride. "You're walking too loud."
"I'm serious," you pressed, taking a step closer to her side. "A week ago, you locked me in my room and told me freedom was a illusion. Now you're helping me break out past the guards in the dead of night. Why?"
She finally paused, stopping near a wide oak tree. She turned her head slightly, her dark eyes catching the faint moonlight filtering through the branches.
"Because a caged bird that hits the bars long enough either breaks its wings or breaks the latch," she said softly, her voice low against the rustle of the wind. "If you try to escape on your own again, someone else will grab you. And next time, I might not make it down the alley in time."
She looked away, stepping forward into the path once more.
"Besides," she added, almost too quiet to hear, "I know what those four walls feel like. You deserve an hour where you're not just a piece on your father's chessboard."
You let out a laugh, following behind her—a bit too loud, prompting her to instantly turn and shush you, but you kept going anyway with a quiet smirk.
"You're not joking? Suddenly a change of heart?" You picked up your pace to walk right beside her, watching her reaction in the dim moonlight. "Maybe you finally see the point I was trying to make. Tradition is just a waste of breath to please dead people. Or again… maybe you really are just testing me. See if I'd run away again."
"It's not running away that's really the issue. It's your safety. It is much easier keeping you there."
"Mm, but not as fun, is it?" You shot her a sideways glance, stepping over a stray root in the path. "You have to live a little."
"Royalty often can't have fun."
"Oh," you countered, tilting your head as a faint smile touched your lips. "Then what are we doing now? Duty?"
"I'm trying to give you a moment of fun."
She didn't look at you as she said it, her eyes remaining fixed on the moonlit trail ahead. But the subtle soften in her posture spoke volumes. The night she had witnessed your shoulders finally relaxing. Seeing the tension leave your body as the castle walls faded into the distance. It had been worth the risk. It was worth it that night, and every quiet night that would follow.
Physical protection was her sworn oath, but nowhere in her contract did it say she couldn't protect your spirit, too.
It became a tradition, one you didn't hate or attempt to disregard.
She snuck you out, the two of you embarking on smaller adventures across the land. Whether it was slipping into the quiet midnight village, hiding away in a secluded clearing in the forest, or sneaking down to the mirror-still lake nearby.
You really didn't hate it. In fact, it had become the exact opposite.
Now, when you sat through grueling, endless political lessons, your eyes would drift across the grand hall to catch hers, finding a silent anchor in her presence.
When you walked beside her through the thick woods, her gentle hand would reach out to guide you through the uneven brush, her touch lingering on your waist or arm just a beat longer than necessary after you were steady.
When you both shared quiet moments of humor in the dark, building a hidden language of inside jokes that no one else in the castle could ever hope to understand.
You learned about her past, stripping away the soldier's armor piece by piece, as she learned every hidden corner of yours. What started in blood and duty had budded into a beautiful, undeniable friendship. and perhaps, something even deeper.
Then came the night at the lake.
The water was black and perfectly still beneath the moonlight. Standing on the grassy bank, a sudden spark of mischief took hold of you. Before she could voice a single warning, you reached out, grabbed her wrist, and dragged her right off the edge with you.
You both hit the cool water with a loud, splashing crash.
When you resurfaced, gasping for air, you immediately burst into breathless, uncontrollable laughter. Natasha stood waist-deep beside you, her dark hair soaked and clinging to her face, dripping wet.
She just stared at you. The usual sharp, guarded look in her eyes completely melted away, replaced by an intensity that made the laugh die in your throat.
Without a word, she stepped closer through the water. Her wet hand rose, her fingers cupping your cheek. Warm against the chill of the lake. She leaned in and pressed her lips to yours.
The wind stopped, and so did your heart.
The second she pulled back, shock hit you like a wave. Your heart slammed against your ribs, panic and adrenaline surging all at once. Before she could say anything, you scrambled backward through the water, hauled yourself onto the bank, and took off into the dark.
You sprinted all the way back to the castle, your wet clothes heavy against your skin. Right behind you, the steady, rhythmic thud of her boots followed suite. Never trying to tackle or grab you.
You managed to slip back through the hidden servant entrance and into your room, shutting the heavy oak door behind you. Avoiding the looks from the maids.
The morning light filtered through the heavy drapes, doing little to ease the exhaustion weighing on your chest. You hadn't slept a second. Your eyes were raw, red-rimmed, and your fingers repeatedly traced your lower lip. A lip that still felt electric, buzzing with the lingering phantom pulse of her mouth against yours.
You had never kissed anyone before. In your world, intimacy was something abstract and clinical. A duty your father always spoke of as a transaction reserved strictly for marriage, a political tool to bind lineages. Something to do only behind closed doors, not with your sworn guard out in the lake at midnight.
Your mind had spent the entire night swinging violently back and forth like a pendulum. One second, you were wrapped in the dizzying, gentle warmth of her thumb on your cheek and the sudden softness of her lips. The next, a cold chill of realization ran down your spine, leaving you breathless with panic.
When you finally stepped out of your chambers, Natasha was already there, standing at her post in the corridor.
On the outside, she looked as composed as ever. Her posture was straight, her hands clasped, her armor pristine. But the moment your eyes met, the shift was unmistakable. The easy, unspoken warmth that had grown between you over midnight walks was completely gone, replaced by a rigid, guarded wall.
Neither of you spoke a word about the lake.
As the hours dragged on, the silence between you grew suffocatingly thick, heavy with an awkwardness that made every second drag. Every time her shoulder brushed yours in a crowded hall, or every time you caught her lingering glance across the room, the air charged with questions neither of you knew how to ask.
Internal panic clawed at Natasha beneath her calm mask. She was convinced she had overstepped a dangerous line. That she had abused your trust, broken her duty, and made you feel cornered. Terrified of making things worse or pushing you further away, she kept her mouth shut, waiting for a sign that never came.
And you were left drowning in the confusion, completely torn between the terrifying weight of what the kiss meant and the undeniable truth that you hadn't wanted it to end.
The second nightfall came, and with it, the quiet click open of your chamber door.
Natasha stepped into the room, her usual calm completely frayed around the edges. Her hands hovered nervously near her sides. "I never meant to—"
Before she could finish, you reached out, grabbed the front of her tunic, and tugged her fully into your quarters, shutting the door behind her and pressing a finger to her lips.
"Natasha, I..."
"I promise, I swear..." she hurried on, her voice low and frantic, dark eyes searching yours with a rare, desperate panic. "I should have asked, Ive never done that before. I just thought..."
"Natasha... please, listen to me, I—"
"I broke your trust, and if you need me to step down, if you want another guard—"
"Natasha!"
She kept going, the words tumbling out of her in a rush to fix the damage. Frustrated, you grabbed her shirt with both hands and pulled her down, cutting off her sentence as your lips met hers yet again.
It was brief. Just a soft, decisive press against her mouth, but it instantly silenced the room. When you pulled back, Natasha stood completely frozen. Her eyes were wide, her breath hitched in her throat, the stoic soldier entirely undone.
You held her gaze, your heart hammering against your ribs. "I'm trying to say... I didn't mind it."
That moment. Where the panic evaporates and transforms into soft, dizzying relief is where their dynamic completely changes forever.
Natasha remained frozen for a beat, her dark eyes searching your face as if trying to process that she wasn't dreaming. The tense, rigid posture she’d held all day finally melted away.
A quiet, shaky breath escaped her lips, and the defensive wall she built her entire life on completely crumbled.
"You didn't...?" she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper.
"No," you said softly, your hands still loosely clutching her shirt, feeling the fast, steady thud of her heart beneath the fabric. "I was just... overwhelmed. I’d never been kissed before. But I didn't hate it, Natasha. I didn't hate it at all."
A faint, breathless half-smile touched her lips. The rarest look on her face, saved only for you. Slowly, carefully, as if asking for permission, her hand rose and her fingers intertwined with yours.
The contrast was sharp:. Her palm was warm, slightly calloused from years of holding a sword, yet her touch was impossibly gentle as she squeezed your hand.
"I thought I ruined everything," she confessed quietly, stepping a fraction closer. "I thought I lost you."
"You couldn't lose me if you tried," you replied, your voice softening.
That night, the dynamic shifted, built in the quiet shadows of your bedchamber. There were no grand declarations to the court, no dangerous public displays. Just a sacred, secret space that belonged only to the two of you.
It started small... Holding hands while sitting on the edge of your bed, thumb brushing over knuckles as you talked late into the night about things that had nothing to do with kingdoms or duties.
Slow, soft kisses lingering on your lips before she had to slip out the door back to her post. Kisses that left your chest feeling tight and full, your heart aching with a deep, quiet yearning the second she stepped out of sight.
You realized then that your heart didn't just ache for freedom anymore. It ached for her. For the sound of her boots outside your door, for the warmth of her hand in yours, and for the way she made the gilded cage feel like a world where you could finally breathe.
It wasn't allowed, you knew, but when have you ever listened to what's allowed.
Your gentle kisses shifted from slight pecks. They were one hand on your cheek, lips meeting briefly, though clumsy at first. They progressed. When she pulled back, you leaned in after her, chasing her lips in the quiet dark.
Your body on occasion pressed against the cool castle wall, her hands tugging at your hips, your lips meeting in tandem as soft gasps escaped the two of you. Pulling away only at the last second, breathless and dizzy, before drawing each other back in.
Spending nights under her strong body became your sanctuary. Your hands hooked around her neck, playing with her short hair, your lips swollen, messy, and glossy as you kept kissing long past midnight. She even experimented. Pressing soft, lingering kisses along your neck, down toward your collarbone, learning every spot that made you shiver beneath her.
In those quiet hours, surrounded by the shadows of your quarters, the heavy weight of the kingdom completely faded away. There was no princess, no guard, and no impending arrangement. There was only the heat of her skin, the steady thud of her heart, and the intoxicating, quiet ache of falling completely in love with her.
It progressed to the point where you were laying in your bed side by side, whispering quietly to one another with your hands tightly intertwined. Eyes looking deep into each other's gaze, every bit of your vulnerable souls laid bare in the stillness of the night.
In a quiet, heavy pause, Natasha swallowed, her thumb tracing the back of your knuckles. "If I ask something... promise me you won't laugh."
"I won't laugh at you," you whispered back softly.
She let out a low sigh, staring up at the canopy before turning her head toward you. "I love all that we have... but I want more. I know we can do more."
Your breath caught in your chest. Taking your silence as nervousness, she kept rambling, the usual stoic soldier completely lost in her own rambling anxiety. "I do not suggest this as something that has to be done. It's just... I know couples, married couples engage in the activity, but I know it's also for those who lo—"
You cut her off by leaning in, pressing your lips firmly against hers.
Natasha took the kiss as immediate approval. She shifted, her weight sliding seamlessly back on top of you, her strong frame pressing you into the mattress. Her lips made quick work of tearing down whatever resolve you had left, bringing you instantly weak, breathless, and completely consumed by her touch.
Her lips traced a slow, searing path down your jawline, past your throat, and onto the delicate lace at the collar of your nightgown.
Natasha paused right there, her dark eyes looking up to meet yours through the dim, golden candlelight. She didn't move an inch further until you gave her a small, quiet nod.
Only then did her fingers gently hook into the soft fabric, tugging the nightgown down past your shoulders. Her touch was reverent. There was no rush, no harshness, only an intense, quiet devotion as her eyes lingered over you. She cherished every inch of skin exposed to her, pressing lingering kisses against your collarbone and ribs as if worshipping something sacred.
Your hands reached out, searching for the hem of her tunic. You wanted the barrier between you gone completely. Natasha shifted, helping you tug her clothing down until she was bare, her strong frame warm and heavy as she pressed fully against you. The feeling of skin on skin made your heart hammer wildly against your chest.
Her mouth traveled lower, tracing down your stomach. When her lips finally met you there between your legs, a sharp gasp escaped your throat.
It was all entirely new. A sensation you had never known, overwhelming and intensely sensitive. You clutched at the sheets beneath you as she took her time, guiding you through the uncharted territory with incredible patience. Her tongue spread your slick folds open, testing each area and choosing the spots to stick to. Going off each sensitive reaction from you. Her fingers traced your skin with love, a gentleness you've never known.
When she gently introduced her fingers alongside her lips, the rhythm became a unbearable, sweet ache. They stretched you, probing until they reach a pace and angle that brought you to grip your white sheets.
You arched into her touch, completely undone, until you hit a sudden, breath-stealing high that left you trembling beneath her hands.
Afterward, Natasha climbed back up your body, her warm chest resting against yours as she gathered you into her arms. She pressed a deep, tender kiss to your swollen lips, tasting the salt of your skin.
You both collapsed onto the mattress side by side, completely spent, pulling the heavy blankets up over your bare shoulders.
In the quiet, dark stillness of the bedchamber, neither of you wanted to close your eyes just yet. You lay face-to-face, hands tightly intertwined, whisper-soft confessions passing between you in the dark.
"I love you," she murmured, her voice lower and softer than you had ever heard it, her thumb brushing over your cheekbone. "I love how fierce you are, even when you're trapped. I love the way you laugh when we're out past the walls... you made me feel like a human being again."
You smiled against her palm, tracing the line of her shoulder. "I love you. I love how safe you make me feel... even when everything else in my life feels like a cage. I love how you listen... and kiss me..."
She smiles and lays her body down fully. Wrapped in each other's warmth, listening to the steady, rhythmic beat of each other's hearts, you both finally drifted off to sleep.
No longer just a princess and her guard.
It was beautiful. She was beautiful.
Each reverent touch, each tender kiss, each quiet moment of devotion. Whether hidden away late at night in your quarters or wandering together through foreign lands under the moonlight, had built a world where you felt safe. The mere sight of her entering a room was enough to make all the tension melt from your shoulders.
You had gotten bold. In the warmth of her arms, you had forgotten your current predicament. You forgot that to the kingdom, you were still a trapped bird. A bird with its wings cut, destined for a cage of someone else's choosing.
The illusion shattered in a single, silent second.
It happened in the quiet alcove near the eastern wing. You were standing close, your hands intertwined with hers, sharing a soft, whispered joke. When Natasha leaned in to press a gentle kiss to your forehead, the faint rustle of fabric echoed down the stone hallway.
A young maid stood at the corner, her eyes wide with sheer terror. The basket of fresh linens in her hands slipped from her grip, hitting the flagstones with a soft thud.
For one agonizing beat, no one moved.
Then, the maid turned and fled down the corridor, her hurried footsteps echoing wildly off the high ceilings as she ran straight toward the guard barracks.
Natasha's posture instantly went rigid. The softness in her eyes vanished, she knew exactly what this meant. The air between you turned cold, the heavy weight of the castle suddenly crashing back down around you both erasing all warmth.
Your father’s fury was absolute. Upon hearing the maid's report, his verdict came down swift and merciless: Natasha was to be executed for treason before the week’s end.
Desperation clawed at your chest. With everything you had left inside you, you threw yourself at your father's feet, begging, weeping, pleading for her life. When tears weren't enough, you offered him the only bargaining chip you possessed: your complete, unbroken submission.
You swore that if he let her live. If he let her walk away unharmed, you would never disobey him again. You would marry the prince chosen for you, play the dutiful daughter, and bow without resistance to your husband. You made yourself a willing prisoner on the sole condition that Natasha be allowed to flee and never return.
Recognizing that securing your absolute compliance was ultimately more valuable than a single guard's blood, your father reluctantly agreed.
The heavy iron door to your bedchamber was locked from the outside. From the high stone window of your quarters, you watched as Natasha was escorted to the edge of the royal grounds, stripped of her guard's cloak, and forced out past the massive iron gates.
The moment her form disappeared into the trees, your strength caved. You collapsed against the cold stone floor beneath the window, your wretched, gut-wrenching sobs carrying through the silence of the kingdom. A heartbroken mourning for the only real freedom, and the only real love, you had ever known.
Any sliver of the king's spirited daughter had been buried deep beneath the cold flagstones of the castle. Whatever color had once flushed your cheeks drained away entirely, leaving behind a pale, ghostly shell. The passion, the stubborn spark, the quiet defiance. All of it was gone. There was no human left for your father to rule over, only a hollow vessel following instructions.
You grieved every piece of yourself that had ever felt alive. Day after day, the grief bled you dry until accepting your cruel, paved-out fate felt less like a choice and more like an inevitable numbness.
In the quiet, dark hours, bitterness crept in to twist your memories. Natasha had tried to warn you at the start, hadn't she? She had told you about cages, about the sharp reality of the world. And you had fooled yourself—fooled both of you—into believing a princess and a guard could build a life out of stolen midnight walks.
She was older, wiser, hardened by the world. You were just a foolish, naive young woman who thought love was enough to break iron bars.
The months that followed were hollow, marked only by the agonizing torture of searching for ghost lingering in her wake.
Your eyes would constantly drift toward the edge of the dark forest beyond your window, searching the treeline for any sign of a familiar silhouette. Any quiet shadow. Any hint that she might come back. That she might break her banishment, draw her sword, and fight to tear you out of this cage.
And as the seasons bled into one another without a trace of her, the most painful question of all began to rot inside your chest. Was any of it even real? Or had the kisses, the whispered promises, and the tender touches just been a merciful act of pity for a pathetic, caged girl? All to end up with the results your father wanted in the first place?
He replaced her with another woman, and this one you truly hated. It wasn't her fault through that your father was an ugly hearted man. He was following all he knew to do, but he had no love in his heart. He only did what he was told...
The days leading up to the wedding blurred into a gray, suffocating haze. The castle was alive with preparation. Silk drapings, grand feasts, and endless flower arrangements, yet you moved through it all like a phantom in your own life. Like it was a funeral held.
Then came the formal meeting with the man chosen to own your future.
He was everything a prince was expected to be: polished, arrogant, and entirely blind to the hollow shell standing before him. During dinner, he reached across the table with a soft, confident smile and brushed his fingers against your cheek.
The touch burned like ice.
The moment you were dismissed to your quarters, you barely made it to the washbasin before your stomach violently turned. You threw up until there was nothing left inside you, trembling against the cold porcelain as tears stung your eyes. His touch wasn't just unwanted. It felt like a violation of the sacred, quiet memory you still held deep in your chest.
When the morning of the wedding arrived, you were dressed in heavy, suffocating layers of white lace and gold thread. A thick veil was draped over your face, obscuring the world in a blur of white.
You walked down the long stone aisle of the grand chapel, your steps mechanical and hollow. Hundreds of nobles watched from the pews; your father stood near the front with a proud, victorious smirk. You stepped onto the altar, turning to face the prince.
The priest spoke his opening words, and the prince reached up to lift your veil.
As the fabric was thrown back, exposing your face to the hall, something shifted inside you. The quiet, broken girl who had spent months grieving in the dark finally vanished. You lifted your head high, squaring your shoulders, ready to look your cruel fate dead in the eye and accept the end.
Then, a deafening crash shattered the silence.
The massive, iron-reinforced oak doors at the back of the cathedral flew backward off their hinges, slamming onto the flagstones with a roar that echoed like thunder through the vaulted ceiling.
Gasps and screams erupted through the chapel as nobles scrambled out of the pews. A dozen royal guards rushed toward the entrance, swords drawn. Only to be swept aside in a flurry of brutal, practiced precision. Shields splintered, armor clattered, and within seconds, the king's elite guards were sprawling across the floor, unconscious and beaten.
Standing in the center of the shattered doorway, was Natasha.
She wore dark, road-worn leather, a heavy blade gripped in her steady hand, her dark hair windblown and wild. She looked terrible, wounded. Her eyes swept past the others until they met yours.
She had come back. She hadn't abandoned you. She had been waiting, building her strength, waiting for the one moment the kingdom would drop its guard.
She extended one hand toward the altar, and you didn't hesitate for a single second. You didn't look at your father, and you didn't look at the groom. You tore the heavy lace veil from your hair, kicked off the restrictive silk shoes, and ran.
You sprinted down the center aisle, your heavy dress billowing behind you, completely ignoring the chaotic shouts of the court. You reached the shattered entrance and threw yourself into her arms.
Natasha caught you firmly against her chest, her strong arms wrapping around you for one heart-stopping second. She squeezed your hand tightly, her calloused fingers intertwining with yours just as they always had.
Without looking back at the kingdom, the cage, or the life meant to consume you, you ran out into the bright afternoon sun together, hand in hand, leaving it all behind for good.
The countryside of the western realm knew you as completely different names.
To the locals in the nearby valley village, you were just two quiet women who lived in the hand-built timber cottage at the base of the mountains. There were no silk banners, no marble pillars, no guards standing at attention outside heavy iron doors. The house was modest, built logs by logs, stone by stone by the both of you.
You had no riches to your name. No royal bloodline, no gold coins stacked in chests, no titles spoken in grand halls. But as you stood out on the wooden porch, watching the late afternoon sky melt into shades of deep gold and violet over the valley, you knew you were the richest soul alive. And you knew you were safe, as your father never cared as much to chase you two the ends of the sea.
He didn't even get up from the pew when Natasha showed, he accepted the true fate.
Inside the cottage, the faint scent of roasting pine nuts and fresh bread drifted through the open window. A pair of strong arms slipped around your waist from behind, resting gently against your stomach. Natasha leaned down, resting her chin on your shoulder, her breath warm against your neck.
"You're staring again," she murmured, her voice a low, relaxing rumble against your back.
You smiled, leaning back into her chest, your hands covering hers. "I'm just enjoying the view. And remembering."
"Remembering what?"
You turned slightly in her arms, looking up into her dark eyes. The guarded, stoic look she had carried for years in the castle was entirely gone, replaced by a deep, quiet peace that warmed her whole face.
"I was just thinking about the grand rescue," you said, a mischievous spark lighting up your eyes. "And how absurd you looked bursting through those cathedral doors."
Natasha blinked, her eyebrows shooting up in dramatic offense. "Absured? I battered down four feet of reinforced oak and laid out twelve elite guards in under thirty seconds. I was heroic."
"You were entirely dramatic," you corrected, laughing softly as you reached up to trace her jawline. "You had dirt on your nose, your hair was sticking up on one side, and you looked like you hadn't slept in three weeks."
"I hadn't slept in three weeks," she grumbled, though a reluctant, fond smile broke across her lips. "I was tracking your father's patrols and waiting for the right moment. I didn't exactly have time to brush my hair."
"Still," you teased, turning fully in her hold and hooking your arms around her neck. "A bit of drama for a guard who used to tell me that 'royalty shouldn't have fun.'"
Natasha let out a soft laugh. That breathtaking, unguarded sound that still made your heart skip a beat after all these months. "I stand corrected. Breaking you out of a wedding was very fun."
Her gaze softened, lingering on your face as the fading sunlight caught the flush in your cheeks. The teasing vanished, replaced by that familiar, reverent warmth. Her hand rose, fingers gently cupping your cheek, thumb brushing over your skin with the utmost care.
"I'd break down a thousand doors for you," she whispered, her voice dropping into a tender promise. "Every single day, if I had to."
"Goofy... but you don't have to anymore," you replied softly. "We're already free."
Natasha leaned down, closing the small space between you, her lips meeting yours in a slow, deep kiss. When she pulled back, your lips were warm and tingling, your foreheads resting together as the sun finally dipped below the horizon, bathing the valley in a brilliant pink and orange sunset.
In her arms, under the open sky, you had everything you would ever need.
notes: i know this is an up and rising theme/au for knight/princess and I wanted to take a hand at it.... haven't done a STORY fic in a mintue. This took me hours to write. i did not proofread, kiss my ass not sorry
