Venting
I am in love with someone that I can’t have. We had something special going on, but in the end I ruined it. Jealously over the fact that I couldn’t spent time with her outside of class. So I tried to control her. Pushed her away so far that she went back to her ex 😒. Now whenever I see her smiling, glowing, and just looking gorgeous as fuck. I know that it’s not for me, but for him. Iitnsucks, because I definitely see something in her that I haven’t before. I’m so head over heels for her, but in the end. I can only admire her from afar. Like no girl can compete with her, to the point that no other women are catching my attention at all. To me, she is my ideal girl and sadly, I don’t tend to fall easily, but for her. I might have to say that I do love her. There are times when She tells me that she still has feelings for me, that I am a distraction, but she won’t leave her man because he hasn’t done anything wrong. To me, she will always be special no matter what. I know that I need to move on, but it’s hard when there is no one out there that catches my attention. In the end, I’ll stay like this until we are no longer classmates, which should be soon 😒
