[daddyysgooddgirll]

People always seem to tell me how special I am. How I’m one of a kind. How ANYONE would be lucky to have me. How genuine and sincere I am. But everyone seems lo leave. Everyone seems to fuck me over. Everyone seems to leave me in the dark wondering.

For ever alone in the dark, I’m sure to become

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I think laying in bed for the time being is best for me. I’m sad. Depressed. Hurt. Angry. Everything in between. I just need something. Anything at this point.

[halflifesk666]

Is your soul okay?

[belmasworld]

no, next question

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I didn’t even get an I love you too last night. You really are stating to see me as just a friend huh?

I can tell my our hugs, our chats, and by the way you look at me.

I haven’t received a compliment from you in some time.

You’ve actually quit trying.

Idk why it surprises me so much. It shouldn’t come to shock to me, but it always does..

I guess there really is no fixing this

[angelpoetsspeak]

To Max.

Love Letters from a Real Love

The trees are awfully frightened tonight.

The wind blows and shakes each tile on the roof.

Will my home make it through the night?

Will I lose everything?

Is it as scary where you live?

Or are you outside, spread across your sunny lawn

like an angel in the snow?

Each letter you send creates a new reaction.

One letter makes the flowers bloom.

One letter makes the trees split.

One letter makes the wind calm.

One letter rips the ceiling off.

Is it really a mess?

Or is it beauty, is it freedom?

Did I ever want to stay in this house?

Is this even home?

It's all I know.

Am I happy?

One more letter.

I walk out the door

and just as I'm down the block,

the house crashes,

killing all within

and I run.

[ultrawistful]

little bit from a longer piece of mine ࿔‧ ֶָ֢˚˖𐦍˖˚ֶָ֢ ‧࿔

[morasmetamorficas]

I see the footsteps of someone who never arrives

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I just wanted to be held tonight. I even asked. I’m so mad that you’ve made me hate physical touch because it always has to end in something sexual.

I crave touch that isn’t sexual. Why can’t you give that too me?

Who are you talking to, that’s getting you this worked up, because it’s not me… but you wanna use me to let it out…not fair.

I really miss my mom. She’d hold me<\3

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I wanted you to ask me to come over. But I’ll never be enough. Even thinking you’d sit with my sister during a miscarriage just because I meant enough to you, but you couldn’t do that either because someone else was to important.

I thought I’d cry tonight, because I thought I’d be more surprised by this..but I’m not…it always you over EVERYONE else… even your own wife

Maybe it’s not fair of me to say that because I asked for the divorce, but I guess I thought you’d try to get yourself together for me…not for someone else

But I know now it was never me. Just the level of love I had to give.

Thanks to you, I won’t give this love again..

I won’t get to have the family and LOVE I deserve.

I will die alone..I thought with maybe animals, but even those are better off with out me..

So I will die alone. No kids. No partner. No sidekick…not even a pet.

I DON’T deserve the love I give to others

I’ve accepted that..

But I’m tired.

I’ve gave a lot.

Not much left to give.

I’m drowning

Does anyone have anything they can pour into me?

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I just wanna cuddle with a warm body. I want someone to hold me and tell me I’ll be okay. I want someone to hold me so tight and not let go.

I won’t have that for a long time. I crave human touch. Touch that isn’t followed by sexual favors.

I know I have to do this for me. But it’s so fucking hard. I hate that’s it’s not you. I hate that it can’t be you.

Every night I’ve spent away from you, I’ve cried at least once… I’m so tired of crying for you

[daddyysgooddgirll]

And just like that I’ve gone from wanting to work everything out to actually being done.

I forget how much you love bomb me and take care of me when I’m sick.

I have no more regrets. I now know it never was me you wanted, just the thought.

But best friends in the end I would say is pretty great too..

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I don’t wanna watch tv. I don’t wanna listen to music. I wanna be all alone in the dark in my bed, curled up in a ball, but I don’t have a bed. I can’t sleep. Can’t eat. I don’t want to go anywhere. I have no where to be alone at…

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I just want YOU to cuddle me and tell me everything will be Okay. I already miss your touch.

I hate that I’m the one that left and I still hurt so bad. I hate that. I’m the one that left and I’m still crying myself to sleep or when I walk into the store and see something that reminds me of you 

[daddyysgooddgirll]

Keep remind myself

It’s okay to cry..

[daddyysgooddgirll]

If I have to be the bad guy in your story because I left, I guess I’ll have to live with that…I can’t sleep, I can’t stop crying, my heart is broken. I left yes, but I stayed for 8 years with you, suffering, anxiety ridden, walking on egg shells, just hoping things would change. They get better for a while, then go right back the way they were…I’m absolutely a wreck, and I still miss the shit out of you and want YOU to cuddle me and tell me it will be all okay…but now I don’t get that..I have to do this alone.

[daddyysgooddgirll]

[daddyysgooddgirll]

I have a secret fantasy where you watch a man fuck the shit outta me. And when he’s done I want you to finish me off.

[daddyysgooddgirll]

How does someone be alone?

I have not been alone in over 7 years.

How do you be alone?

Mind racing, heart pounding, missing you.

How do you be alone?

Rewriting texts, deleting them, crying

How do you be alone?

For 7 years I had you by my side. But then you had to go and break my trust again.

We weren’t perfect, we were us. I’ll always cherish that.