i see this couple online and all i think about is that i have to write something
the world is falling apart because this pandemic problem
and i still figuring out how to present my final project nicely.
college life is no longer like it used to,
i didn’t attend to any class anymore
i didn’t have to arguing whether eating lunch in which cafeteria
i didn’t have to running in hall before getting late to start any test or quiz.
so many things happened for this past year.
i somehow trapped in a corporate institution, played around with this student organization, finished my final project for bachelor degree, had fight with some friend, laughed and hugged some new friends, and so many tears wasted to become i am today.
well.. this shouldn’t be about me at first
cause i wanna write after seeing a cute couple thru instagram
but yea whatever here it is
i still remember the first story i wrote beside diary,
it’s some mysterious short story about kids and their neighborhood.
i kept them in my book and carried it where ever i go.
that short story made me write over and over again,
sometimes it was about fiction story,
in another day it was short poem about love and surviving.
back then i wrote because i was mad,
i wrote because i was upset,
i wrote because i was in love,
i wrote because i was guilty,
i wrote because i was pretending,
i wrote because i was so grateful,
i wrote because i wanted people to see it, to read my words.
and i am satisfied with all of it.
it’s so relief and i’m so happy about what i have wrote.
years later, i keep busy doing anything i could.
i only write in one orange little note sized 6x4 inches.
a friend suggested me to that to help me controlling what i shouldn’t think of.
then after half of the note pass, i filled the next page with pieces that will remain me about what happened, places i went, movies i watch, things i got, and many more.
i stop writing and collecting pieces.
i only write when i want to put something here now,
i only write because i want to remember now.
i still talk a lot in twitter and mocking how human should and shouldn’t be,
but that’s not what i want to remember.
this can keep going if don’t feel sleepy
gotta stay fit to keep sane because this pandemic
i’ll see you around, probably soon
snowghoul
2087
vaporwave
