a work in progress

1.67 m, 16 cw: 53.9 kg sw: 63kg, gw1: 58kg (x) gw2: 55kg (x), gw3: 52 kg ( ), gw4: 50.5 kg ( ), ugw: 49 kg ( )

[dailyanadiaries]

what happened when I gained 10 kg:

- the more weight I gained the more insecure I felt and the more I hated myself 

- I’m bloated; my stomach looks so fat and gross

- my face is fat, round, and wide

- cellulite everywhere 

- disgusting chunky huge thighs that jiggle all the time

- huge flabby arms 

- feeling out of control and ‘crazy’

- stretch marks everywhere

- not being able to wear cute clothes and clothes being tight on me

- terrible skin

- I am increasingly more anxious 

- spending so much money on food 

-  I get less compliments 

- feeling like everyone is staring at how fat you are 

- being too insecure to leave the house

- I look horrible in pictures 

- not being able to go to the pool or beach

- not being able to take pictures in general because of how bad I look

please, don’t binge. it’s not worth it. the urge will be gone in 5-10 minutes. you can do this. we’re in this together– let’s get to our goal weight by fall. 

[saharluna1]

[lasplayaslasmontanas]

Drove to Idaho and hiked a few miles to marinate in the most beautiful natural hot springs I’ve ever laid eyes on. The amount of time I plan to spend here…Oooh man

[tinylimbs]

a few more from my beach trip 🦋

[sadnsxinny]

[saharluna1]

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[hvgan]

try me 🕊

[thinningaphrodite]

How I wanna look this summer

[thinningaphrodite]

37kg

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After my workout ! I feel big :-) June 9, 2019

[99g0als]

Imagine being this pretty !!!

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[godjustkillme]

Ideas to curb cravings:

THIS IS ONLY FOR ME, YOU CAN REBLOG IT BUT PLEASE DON’T FOLLOW THESE TIPS, YOU WOULD BE BEAUTIFUL TO ME AND PLEASE BE FUCKING SAFE.

1. Chapstick, I usually wear either flavored (cupcake batter, vanilla, cotton candy etc.) or mint, both work for me.

2. Eat a ton of a safe food you hate, every single bite.

3. Chug a liquid you either love or hate. I use either hot sauce, plain lemon juice or green tea, sometimes I mix all three and yuck. But if I’m having a good day, I’ll drink this antioxidant thing, it’s only ten calories and delicious, sometimes zero cal carbonated drinks. 

4. Water. Just drink some water, please sweetie.

5. Eat some of your safe foods and depending on your craving, here are some ideas: Sweet- Grapes, strawberries, watermelon, one tsp. of honey. Salty- Cucumber with a small amount of salt, pickles, viniger (idk, works for me). Spicy- Literally, one tsp of chili flakes, hot sauce. And finally, cinnamon (more like sinnamon but whatever)- One spoonful of c(s)innamon, mix some of your safe foods with one tsp. of c(s)innamon, experiment, 

6. Painting nails, but as you do it, fucking inhale the nail polish fumes, god, it makes me sick.

7. Go look in the mirror and repeat to yourself “I’m too fucking fat to eat that.” at least 10 times.

8. Whisper “I am in control.” or write it down while making eye contact with yourself and not looking away.

9. Count how many calories that would add up to. If it’s over 600, God, that’s an unholy amount for just one “snack”. If it’s a meal, it’s acceptable. But didn’t you want to be more than just acceptable??

10. Pinch your stomach till it hurts, pinch your thighs till it hurts, pinch every fat piece of your body till it hurts.

[possie-vibes]

Starve to bed, Starve to rise

Makes a girl a smaller size