Regarding Mango’s post
I wholeheartedly agree with most of what she said. I will agree that my earlier designs we’re dangerously close, regarding my first Star and his stand. That I will agree was completely my fault. I was really young when I created my very old, badlydrawnhumanstar blog. I had seen the designs floating around at the time and yes! I used what I had thought was a universally liked design, in my case I didn’t realize that I was copying someone, because so many other people were drawing it and I was distressed and surprised knowing I had basically STOLE! Someones design! Regarding posting the dm, I will also agree that was completely my fault, I was very upset at the time, in fact crying, because someone since the spaceau I had looked up to was so very angry with me, even blocked me! Which, of course does not excuse my actions, I wasn’t thinking at the time.
I’d also like to add that I didn’t realize my apology had come off so haphazardly. I was trying to be polite and I really didn’t, and still don’t, believe that I copied Mango’s secondary design for what was to be my bdjam oc. Yes I realize I look like an entitled brat, yes I realize that what I have done is wrong. Yes, I do now realize that after I had answered someones praise it did look like I was discussing it further, but I was simply trying to explain why the design I did was no longer posted. I was personally humiliated, not because I posted the chat, but because I had been called out through the asks I had received. I did not purposefully copy your design, be it because you’re on hiatus or any reason! I based his sole look on Yamada.
Track suit dj! I just used what Stars iconic looks were to make it seem like he was relevant since stands weren’t allowed in the event. I was angry that I was wrongfully being accused of stealing someones design when I really wasn’t! And I know, I really do know that they do look strikingly similar. I’m not TRYING to look like the victim, I just don’t think before I act and I know I need to work on that. Secondly, I DID NOT know that Mango was personally being targeted because of what I’ve said, I’m so very glad there were many people there sending her good vibes. Do not attack someone for my sake! Let Me Bury My Own Grave! I see my mistakes, I have and always will take them into account! I will always see Mango and love her art and wish her well, albeit I know she doesn’t want anything to do with me at this point.
I won’t use some excuses that I’m too young to understand or mental illness or blah blah blah. I know what I did in the past was wrong, I know what I did two days ago was wrong. And I do so very much apologize for what I’ve done. To Mango: You’re very much right! A lot I agree on, and a lot I do realize. And yes I was sadly annoyed, you did block me and wouldn’t allow me to really talk and reason about the situation and it caused me to do stuff that I wish I hadn’t. For that I deeply and humbly apologize for not only my actions but the consequences that came with them. I will say that I never thought our styles looked very similar, its a little flattering but with these circumstances, I don’t really know how I feel about it. I know you’re sick and tired of it, and I’m sorry to prolong this, but its a much needed reply even if you don’t want it. I’m sorry I posted things I shouldn’t have, I’m sorry I copied your designs, one without realizing it. I know posting this just after you made your post it looks so damn shady. I am taking the blame I promise you that! It’s not easily seen, but I know my mistakes. I know I’ve hurt you, I know I’ve did some serious bad damage. I don’t know if you’ll allow me to make it up to you, but I am sorry and I’ll say I would’ve loved to be friends. You seem like such a cool and sweet person. The only way I actually ever saw this post was because someone I followed had reblogged it. I’m not so sure it’ll be the same for you, but I hope you too have a better future hopefully without me in it jeez amiright. Have a nice day, I’m so sorry I came off so rude and childish, I was wanting to send an apology through Chloe!
