UPDATE: (16/08/18) Thank God and a friend, I could pay my rent yesterday. Idk why, but today I am so so so SO sad, alone and feeling nauseous… Trying to study, but feeling my body hurting. Need to pay my light bill, had some help with good few days ago, I’m eating a bit better now, but not the way I need too. If you can help me, please donate to my PayPal, and reblog this post will help me too. Thank you all.
Ps: here you can read a person who doesn’t know me in person, but is smart enough to do the math with me.
Through PayPal email [email protected] choosing payment for products. Here’s a longer post if you want to know about all the history. Thank you all. Reblog if you can. ❤️
Ps2: On the comments or the post have some questions and answers that probably most of you ask to yourselves. I am sorry for all of this
C'mon, guys. Just spread the word. You don’t need to maintain the post in your blog, just reblog for an hour and delete after. Help me to get some extra help (since I don’t have enough to everything, like food) bc I am dedicating myself studying, even with my head exploding in anxiety, panic attacks now and then out of nowhere, vomiting, several nights (since January, to be exactly) without sleep properly and, when I say this is bc I truly don’t sleep well. Waking up all the time, feeling my stomach hurting in anxiety, worries, will I have my roof for how many time yet? My pets, my mom’s things, my dignity… $10 can make any difference to you, but for me make a HUGE one. Help if you can, if you can’t, just reblog and spread the word. Please, I am praying everyday to everything settle down, I am feeling, as time goes by, that i am loosing more and more of my life. I am hopeless, and I don’t wanna feel like this anymore. Thanks to everyone who understands my scream for help. ❤️💐
Today I am feeling like I have nowhere else to do besides look to myself and see the miserable human being I turned into after everything. Do you know when all you ask is to die? My pets are without food, at all. Myself, same. My body is shaking, I want to sleep but I can’t. I woke up from the couple of hours that I slept during the night yelling my mom, two times. That’s what make me wake up around 4:50 and didn’t sleep again, I’m just crying since. I wanna run from myself, but I am like an giant wound, where I touch, hurts. See my babies this way is killing me. I can take it, but them? I don’t know what to do anymore. I swear. I’ll lost my power bc they’ll cut, I am lost and I am so so SO fucking tired of fight against myself to be ok… I don’t wanna fight anymore. I just want my mother and nothing else. Hopeless is my last name.
STOP AND READ THIS.
Taís almost broke her finger last night, but it opened up a pretty big wound, thats why she cant tell this to you guys.
There’s pictures, i came running from my place because if you see them, they’re pretty graphic, and she didnt go to the hospital.
She was having a panic attack, she cried all night, she was shaky, dizzy, because every time she looked at it she almost puked. she puked like 4 times during the night till this morning.
Due to her panic attack, she can’t go to the hospital, afraid the nurses will simply just throw alcohol on top and scrub it with some fabric. she’s afraid it’ll hurt a bunch.
Last night i spent some money i didnt have (it was my money to go back home) to buy a med and aid supplies, im taking a little care of the wound, but, it’s not doing much good. We called a friend of ours, who is a nurse, she recommended a medicin, to put on her wound, but we can’t afford it.
If you could afford like 5 bucks, it would help a lot so i could keep on taking care of her wound, she really cant move her finger, please, help ME, help HER.
If you wanna see some pics, i can show whoever sends me a message, but i dont recommend it, they are pretty graphic, as i said before.
HELP ME HELP HER, PLEASE. $1 HELPS.
UPDATE (28/08/18) My finger is better, thanks to the lovely ones who helped me to treat the wound, Carol helped me a lot using my account to reblog this and write that note. I am praying eveyday, bc my sis told me that the house above her own will be empty next week. After the panic attack that I had, I am super scared to be alone. My light bill will be late after tomorrow (R$157,98, in USD is around $40 - my country is a joke). Plus, one of my babies is vomiting over a week now, his throat is swolled and i’ll need to make a lot of exams with him. A friend from here is helping on this, but for my light bill or rent, i am blind. All i could wish now would have money to move to next to my sis. In this house, I’ll have room for all my pets, I’ll not have problems with food, i will not have light bill to pay, The rent there is R$800,00, but would be AMAZING for my mental health. I tried one of my uncles today and even an answer i had. Need to pay here, rent and light bill, and there, three months of ensurance, besides a truck to took my things. Is like an impossible dream, but nothing is impossible when God decides that is enough. Maybe i had enough suffering here, all by myself, alone in this big house, when i can stay near my sis, her husband, my father and his wife. If you that are reading this, have ways to turn this “dream” to reality, God bless you. I know is too much, but if any single one of you donate $5, can be possible! Everything would be so much easier for me… thanks for read ‘til here and I’m sorry for bother everyone.