How do I end a year-- end a blog, too-- when it's been such a strong part of my life, my routine, for so long?
To the audience of maybe, what, three people that look at this, I want to say thank you. Thank you for joining me through this year, for watching as the days progress, and just... for being there.
A lot has happened, and honestly? Am I going to use this funky experimental sideblog to air out my emotions? You fucking bet I am.
I started this blog, this little project, with a simple goal in mind. I wanted to give back to one of my best friends, because I thought they deserved more than what RNG was offering. Over time, however, it... became something else. It became something for me to dedicate my time to, even if just a little, it became a reminder for when midnight neared, it became a push for me to at least doodle something every day.
I'll be the first to admit the quality of some of these days is, for lack of a better word, absolute dogshit. From me just being in a rush to me deciding I needed to see just HOW SMALL I could draw a vaguely recognizable Nessie, all of these are in no way masterpieces. And... that's okay. That's kind of how a lot of things go-- sometimes it's not your 100% best, sometimes you just have fun with it, and sometimes you draw the same thing over and over just because it's easy and hey. It looks good enough.
I've had a big problem with being a perfectionist in my past. Being embarrassed of any flaws, being mortified at the thought of anyone pointing out what I do wrong. But this... honestly, helped me through it. That my goal was "one Nessie a day", not "a perfect masterpiece a day". Not to say Nessie on his own isn't a masterpiece, but you get what I mean.
This year was rough. On a personal level, it's had some of the darkest moments I've gone through period. But... it's also had some of the brightest moments. I've lost friends, but I've also gained so many, and grown closer to those dearest to me. I got a girlfriend for goodness sakes-- and they're the whole reason this blog even exists!
It's been turbulent. At the time of writing, it's nearly five minutes left until the year turns over. But while one age might end, and even with the end of this project, it marks merely the beginning of so much more.
Good god, that's cheesy.
Anyways... I'd better get ready for the celebrations. Thank you to all for a fantastic 2020, and let's look forward to an even better 2021!
Love you all. ❤️