tw.

block me i need this space to vent. pro-recovery all the way. dream weight; 34 kg lol.

[coke0andcigarettes]

My hobbies include staring at my thighs for hours and regretting every calorie I’ve ever eaten

[daintynfainting]

i wanna kms in the nicest way possible

[daintynfainting]

my bf of one year n 4 months broke up w me so hey tumblr

[daintynfainting]

lowkey thought i was recovering but i have the urge to start restricting and fasting again..

(and no i havent stopped purging either)

[eviscerateddolls]

[m0ldys0cks]

my eating is disordered but not in the way that i’d like :/

[buttermilk-boy]

ew I just did a basic human function, eating so I live

gross

[dirteater0-deactivated20220328]

i just wanna look as sick as i feel damn it

[daintynfainting]

im going mental yall i feel so manipulated rn anf i know ik being manipulted but what if he actuslly does leave me pls im prsying im prsyikg im praying this is fakr its a dream ill wake up and well be together again

[daintynfainting]

my relationtip is

[daintynfainting]

HEY TUMBLR O FINALLY GOT MY DIAGNOSIS YAYYY

[daintynfainting]

haha gained weight and now im back hey yall

[daintynfainting]

i can't believe that i havent been on tumblr for so little. it has felt like forever and im once again trying to vent to no one

i hate when my friends do things i do

fheyre always better than me

why did she dye her hair my color

when she knows she looks better than me

i dont wanna be arounf them anymore at this point i know theyre trying to embarrass me

i hate how i look and they know it

why do they purposely do what i do

is it so i can hate myself more?

why am i so jealous

why

why why

why is it really painful

why does it feel like everything is getting worse again

i just wish it never happened

i wish i looked pretty enough

i dont even have a nice body

or a pretty face

im nowhere near beautiful and it hurts i really wish i was more attractive not only to myself but other people

why would i like mysekf when none of my features are attractive

i know the reason why rhey choose my friends over me

qnd ots just because theyre better thab me

theyre more caring than me

theyre nicer than me

theyr lrettier than me

they are built better than me

they are more outgoing than me

they are more tslented than me

they have less orovlems than me

i just want to feel accepted

i feel so stuoid i hate being jealius of them

i hate it i hate it i hate it so much but i cant help it

its everything i wanna be

why wasnt i able to be like them jnstead why did i have to turn out the way i did

why doesnt my body look like theirs

why do i struggle to find things that suit my body when everything they wear suits theirs

its not fair i cant stop sobbing

[daintynfainting]

im shakinf brk what the hell

[golden-years-s]

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

I made myself FAT

I can make myself SKINNY

[daintynfainting]

im scared to even call you at this point. im scared your family will be there and i dont feel welcomed i feel like im gonna fuck it all up again

[daintynfainting]

i wanna feel desired again