the lies wont hide your faults

Dallas McGregor | Sixteen Give me a reason

[dallasmcgregor]

ooc

[mylesofcool]

He looked ahead, taking in the small area that held Dallas’s tent. It was secluded, more so away from everyone. Had they done that on purpose? Derek wondered if he had gotten a tent away from everyone if he would of did this whole camping thing the right way. But it didn’t matter now, it didn’t seem like he would be spending another night by the lake.

He walked with Dallas up to the tent, his arms still securely wrapped around the other, “It’s like you want to get me alone, what are your plans?” He asked, his tone teasing. Dallas would know that he was joking, but he still wondered in the back of his mind what this all was. But there was no reason to question it. He unwrapped himself from Dallas, already missing the warm embrace of him, but took his hand again standing outside the tent, just looking at him. What where they doing? Was Derek sleeping the night, had he just walked him back to his tent? Derek over thought the entire thing. And instead of voicing anything aloud, he leaned in and pressed his lips to his, kissing him slow, his fingers brushing against his cheek, as he pressed his body to his. He had missed him in more ways than none, and deep down he didn’t want to mess this up.

[dallasmcgregor]

Dallas had remained quiet the rest of the way back, waiting until they were at the tent before he responded to Derek's question, fully understanding that it had been intended to be a joke. "I do want to get you alone." he finally spoke, unable to hold back the grin that spread across his face from ear to ear. The kiss was amazing, each little thing was able to set his heart into a flutter. It was as if the magic they had in the beginning was back, something had halted them in the middle but now it had returned after such a test on their relationship. Maybe it had been worth it, the struggle, the cheating, the suicidal urges, everything, maybe it had all just been worth it if it ended them right back to where they once had been. Dallas returned the kiss, softly and slowly. It wasn't long lasting though, he pulled away shortly into it, lingering his lips against the older boys for a brief moment before letting out a heavy sigh of contentment. "I want you, Derek..."

[mylesofcool]

“I’m not worried.. ” And he wasn’t.  He wasn’t worried if someone came into their tent. It wasn’t as if Derek would be alone.  He wasn’t going to be alone tonight. Or maybe after tonight he wasn’t going to be alone at all.  Derek allowed Dallas to walk them up the hill, before pulling the other closer to him as they walked.  His hands wrapped around Dallas from behind, before wrapping them around his front, and pulling him close to him.  He leaned his head by his neck, as he slowed their pace so that they wouldn’t trip as they walked,intertwined together. “I really missed you..” he breathed out into his ear, before placing a kiss by his ear. 

And he really had. He had been a huge mess since their break up. It had messed him up big time, but he wasn’t going to tell Dallas just how messed up he got. Because he knew that Dallas had gotten a bit messed up as well. And just maybe that would change now. He kissed him against behind the ear, before following Dallas’s lead towards the campsite where his tent was. He wanted it to change - he wanted Dallas more than anything, and he had lost that. He didn’t want to lose it anymore.

[dallasmcgregor]

Dallas seemed to completely freeze in his tracks as Derek shifted them from hand holding to a rather complete (and honestly a bit romantic) embrace. The Scot's heart gave a flutter, his face warming up and allowing a small pink blush to grace his cheeks as the older boy's breath teased against his ear. Dallas had to bite down on his bottom lip, softly, to keep himself from getting worked up over such a simple act. The feeling such a small change could make him feel was amazing, truly amazing, everything seemed right between them again even though he knew it wasn't completely, not just get. "I missed you too..." he murmured back, sighing through a mix of emotions. Somehow he felt his heart still ache even amongst the happiness that now filtered through him, causing his confused heart to go all a flutter whenever Derek touched him or even just simply spoke. It was a bit of a struggle keeping them at an appropriate pace as they made their way back to the campsite, Dallas raising a hand to point at the tent that Linus and him had set up. "That's where we are headed, told you it was a good distance away from the other tents. Not perfectly ideal but as far as we were allowed to get..."

[mylesofcool]

He held the side of Dallas’s face then, before leaning in and kissing his forehead slowly. He then nodded his head, before meeting his gaze, “Lets make sure it doesn’t.. ” Dallas wasn’t the only one that had felt lost. Dallas was the only one that held him together. The only one that could calm him down, and call him out on his shit at the same time. He was the only one that knew what to do when Derek was pissed off and angry. Just being near Dallas it calmed him.  And their time apart, hadn’t been the best on Derek, it had been the worse. “I don’t want to go anywhere..” Derek finally said, staring at him, his fingers ran downwards then, pulling Dallas into a hug, before wrapping his arms around the younger boy, and kissing his cheek gently.  He didn’t want to go anywhere, where Dallas wasn’t there - things had been fucked up for to long.

Derek broke the hug then, pulling back only slightly, before taking Dallas’s hand again, “Fuck no, it’s to disgusting out here.. and I’m sure something is out to get me in the lake..” he looks towards the lake, before looking back at Dallas, “The only reason I was out here, was because I didn’t want to share a tent with any of my roommates” Which was the truth, he had rather sleep alone outside a tent, then being around anyone. He then tugged Dallas along, before allowing the other to lead him away from the lake.

[dallasmcgregor]

Dallas knew continuing the conversation would only delay them further, shaking his head and giving off a short light hearted laugh in response. His fingers flexed against Derek's hold before he have a small squeeze of his hand and started to lead the way away from the lake where the mosquitos seemed to have begun forming in packs, no doubt with the plans to soon invade the two boys in a plan to feast on their exposed flesh or rather their blood. "Let's not waste anytime then, come on." He gave Derek a small tug as he quickly ascended up the small hill that lead back to the campsite. "Luckily Linus and I pitched out tent a bit away from the mass, so we shouldn't be disturbed unless he decides to come back..." he gave a small shrug, the idea of Linus walking in on them, whatever they were up to at the time seemed to hardly be an issue in his mind. After all, it wasn't like the older male wasn't accustomed to the idea of two blokes being together.   

[mylesofcool]

Derek didn’t even notice that he had been holding his breath.  But when Dallas had stopped talking, he finally let it go, before leaning in and pressing his lips to Dallas’s once more. The kiss was slow, and only lasted a few moments before he forced himself back, “I always need you” he finally said, as he brought his hand back to the side of his face, rubbing his thumb gently against his cheek, “Somewhere we got lost..” he leans in again, leaning his forehead against his, “I dont.. want that to happen again..” he says, his tone low and quiet.

[dallasmcgregor]

"Then, let's make sure it doesn't..." Dallas replied quietly, leaning his forehead against Derek's and closing his eyes. "Let's make sure nothing like this happens again... I haven't felt that lost before, not even when we were at different asylums... before we got reunited at Stonebridge." It was true, their original separation had been hard but their bond hadn't been tested, not like these last few weeks had tested them anyways.  "Come on..." Dallas adjusted himself, standing up straight again. "How about we go to my tent now, or would you rather stay out here and be eaten alive by these pesty bugs for a bit longer?"

[mylesofcool]

“I wasn’t going to just say lets go to your tent, unless that was what you wanted..” he answered back.  He didn’t want Dallas doing anything he didn’t want. Even if he was the one that made the first move. And even if everything feel normal in that moment.  Even if kissing him felt normal. Derek moved closer to him, “Then don’t..” he says quietly, staring at him. His hand slide down then, taking Dallas’s hand, and intertwining his fingers through his.

[dallasmcgregor]

Their fingers entwined and everything seemed to change right then and there, instead of him feeling at all pushed away he felt instantly drawn to the boy that he believed he had never stopped loving, not even for a second. Dallas' stomach began to fill with those old familiar butterflies, twisting his stomach into nervous knots but not enough so that he would allow this moment to be ruined. "I'm not going too, not this time... I..." he leaned in, pecking Derek quickly on the lips. "I need you... without you, I am just an empty shell of my former self."

[mylesofcool]

He forced himself to pull back, his lips still very close to Dallas’s. He kissed his jawline, his hands holding onto the sides of his face. He looks up at him, meeting his gaze, “I don’t.. have a tent..” he says. He had never set one up. He had never wanted to go camping in the first place. So he had stayed by the lake, sleeping outside, alone. Not the smartest, but he didn’t really have anyone to share a tent with. It made being alone, easier.

[dallasmcgregor]

Dallas let out a short laugh, followed by a slow shake of his head before locking his gaze once again with the older male's, not being able to help but grin at him. "Who says we can't use my tent? I am sure Linus can find other accommodations for one night..." It was unlike him to be so willing to adjust, to put others needs second to his own, but somehow he didn't mind how he was feeling at the moment, it felt good and it felt right. "I'm not getting in my own way, not anymore."

[mylesofcool]

“Will it?” he asks, a smirk forming on his lips.  But hell did it.

[dallasmcgregor]

  Dallas eagerly kissed his boyfriend, or rather ex-boyfriend, an act between them that he had been craving for quite some time. It didn't last too long though, he didn't want them out in the open where anyone could stumble across them. "Let's go somewhere private, okay?" he spoke as he pulled away, lips hovering just inches from Derek's.

[mylesofcool]

“I’m sure I can guess. But where’s the fun in that”Derek places his bottle down in the soil, watching Dallas curiously.

[dallasmcgregor]

Maybe this will clear things up...

[mylesofcool]

Then stop smoking.

Oh do you now?

[dallasmcgregor]

-flicks his smoke away, moving in closer to Derek- Perhaps, don't you?

[mylesofcool]

I would tell you to stop. But I’m drinking so that would be really hypocritical of me.

I could say the same for myself, so why don’t you share? I’ll share mine if you share yours.

[dallasmcgregor]

I would listen. I have something better in mind than smoking, drinking, and being eaten by mosquitos. 

[mylesofcool]

I never had to. You where always against it.

Says the one that’s smoking, right now. Huh, really good logic. 

[dallasmcgregor]

If someone wanted me to stop, I would. I just had nothing to lose. No one is kissing me, I don't see the problem in me doing it.

[mylesofcool]

  But it’s okay if you smoke? 

How do you feel about me smoking? 

[dallasmcgregor]

You've never told me not too. I don't want you slowly killing yourself, besides kissing a smoker is disgusting.

[mylesofcool]

Do you?

I’m pretty sure I want to know, because I want you to share with me.

[dallasmcgregor]

You know how I feel about you smoking, besides you have alcohol.

[mylesofcool]

The fact that you don’t smoke.

Ever. 

And maybe the fact that your trying new things. Alone.

[dallasmcgregor]

Do I need a baby sitter now, Derek? I'm pretty sure drinking alone by a river is a lot worse than smoking alone in the woods.

[mylesofcool]

Not fast enough. 

Being outside is disgusting. The lake smells, the bugs are gross and my hair is all messed up.

Are you smoking, Dallas?

[dallasmcgregor]

You look fine to me, and I might be. Is that a problem?

[mylesofcool]

So, is the camping trip done yet?

[dallasmcgregor]

Almost half way there.