So when are you going to own up to being wrong? Or are you just happy to sweep the racist and defense of the racist under the rug?
I'm kinda going to mush a couple asks into one answer here, and then answer some others down below. I always do my best with the information I have at the time, and I always try to do the right thing. I'm not always going to get it right based on initial information. The person in question had not been in discord since the start of this and had been decided not to return since the start of this, and that really should have been the extent of my personal involvement. There is nothing I can do further than that in this situation, I have no recourse besides that, and that occurred at the very start of this situation. I realized that my previous posts may have not been in line with how I should be reacting to this, and to the end of ensuring I am not unethical acting towards any victims, that I shouldn't be engaging in the situation as I had been. I don't know the truth, obviously, as someone not being directly involved in any of this, and once it did not involve my clan, which it didn't since before I even woke up the first day, I should not have been involved. I am personally not well and still in recovery, and this whole situation has been negatively affecting my health that I have not been keeping up with it much after the initial day, and I'm not really in a position to be able to at this time, but it's not my responsibility to. I always try my absolute best to do the right thing, but I'm not psychic and can only deal the cards I have in my hand at the time. Even then, I don't always deal them in the best way.
Obviously, I don't condone racism. Obviously, I'll never knowingly defend racism or racists, there's no defense to racism. Obviously, having experienced racism myself I understand how much it can hurt people, both the vulgar kind (I have been called "b****r", "w*****k", "m******o", one I won't repeat that was popular after 9/11 that technically does not apply to me, and variations on my ethnic last name) but also the casually much more quiet kind (being told how negative aspects of personality is due to specific genetics, how I better not end up like certain stereotypes, if I'm embarrassed of my name, making fun of thick dark body hair, that I'm just a diversity hire, and of course, how I'm super smart or well spoken for being Mexican). I'm sorry for anyone who has encountered racism in this community and the world at large. Since there are other humans in the LD community, there is going to be racism, and that's going to be something the community will repeatedly have to reckon with. However, I have no solution for this, the only thing I've ever been taught in college is exposure to help temper such hate. I feel as though most members are assumed to be Caucasian. If it helps those who may have implicit bias or even a bit racist, I am multiracial and have been a kind and competent member of the community. I am primarily Indigenous American/Mexican/Caucasian/Indian, with other smaller heritages. I have family living in Mexico that are successful smart people, including an art professor and food business owner. By the way, that is India the country Indian. I say this because I don't often discuss my racial background, but maybe I should and maybe that would help folks expand their views on people. I'm lucky to have grown up in one of the most diverse places on Earth but I realize not everyone has had that chance.
Back to the ask, you ask if I'm happy. I'm not happy at any of this. None of this is a happy good thing. This is all a bad thing no matter how I look at it. I don't know if I was wrong but I don't know if I was definitely right, only two people know that and I'm not one of those persons. The whole thing is absolutely bizarre and hurtful and confusing and off. This person is no longer in the Lioden space I manage, and I reviewed what was available for any racism in the server to ensure there were no victims or proof and I came up with nothing. I can't do anything besides that and I'm sorry for that. I did what I thought was right with the information I had at the time. If your response to that is death threats or slurs, maybe review what appropriate reactions to things are. I'm not going to be active here for a while, primarily due to my health and just not handling this situation well in multiple ways. There's really nothing more I can add or help the situation regardless. I'm sorry.
Someone asked what my advice for this situation would be, and I have zero advice really. Obviously like don't fake things or be a closet racist, and if there's drama or some big blow up and it does not personally involve you don't get involved even with the best intentions because if it doesn't personally involve you, you might not know or understand the complex workings of the situation such as the truth.
Someone asked something about how I wished this had happened and I guess I wish this was in court because I believe there is a way to formally request all records from Discord that would definitively show the reality of the situation.
Same vein, someone asked regarding defamation if it is false. Uhh, so you can't sue Tumblr itself. Also there needs to be damages and I haven't heard of a case regarding online personas. I think in this case as it stands there's not really grounds for a lawsuit. If this was happening regarding real life personas it would be a different story because it would be easier to prove authenticity and damages. There are other things that could happen that could result in the case but it's pretty horrible and I'm not even going to put that out there.
Am I going to quit Lioden... Well, honestly I've been considering prior to all this, and this situation certainly didn't inspire the warm fuzzies. I'm already on a hiatus due to health so who knows. I likely won't be as active as a year ago just because of things outside all this.
Not personally interested in killing myself at this time but if I change my mind I'll let you know.
How do I plan on killing myself? Oxygen poisoning over several decades. Guys, seriously, don't do death threats or suicide urgings in 2022 especially just because I investigated something. This isn't a reasonable response to this situation.
Thanks for those wishing well wishes. I appreciate that. You're kind.
Okay, everyone, have a wonderful night. I'm sorry this is the situation in the community right now. Love you all despite this.
