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OUR VOICES MATTER

Frankly speaking, I decided to pour my heart out on Tumblr again for the mere reason that I wanna take a pause from Twitter and Facebook. The noises have been absolutely taking a toll on my mental health. Truth to be told, I am extremely tired of reading dreadful news about the current social issues that our country has been dealing for several months now. From reading how the current administration responds from the pandemic to its imprudent placement of priorities. Things are getting worse every freaking day. It depletes my energy, drains my brain and exhausts my soul. For some people, it seems exaggerated stressing these seat of emotions I’m feeling, but it’s only because those people don’t actually give a single fuck with what’s going on right now. Y’all are sitting pretty inside your privileged bubbles.

One thing I have realized from attempting to take a hiatus from empathizing, creating a stand against injustices is that — if you start screaming, you can never be silenced.

It started from the early months of this year when the extreme rage from my system started flaring up. The president has been granted of acquiring emergency powers to deal with the pandemic. That power gave him the green signal to impose stricter implementations of quarantine rules. The police and military were also given an increased authoritarian muscles to flex and it resulted in troublesome situations for the Filipinos especially the powerless and the poor. It’s enraging to think about the initial aftermath of the lockdown. A ton of people have lost their sources of income, became homeless and many are left with no food on their table. Poverty-stricken communities were losing their grip on where or when to start pushing through their livelihood. Whereas the public knew that PH debt nears P9 trillion loan in response with the pandemic. I might sound suspicious, but I’m wondering, where did it all go?

The horrors of handling the grievances during the lockdown vividly reflected on public. Activists got arrested, a vendor got beaten because he wasn’t wearing a mask, jeepney drivers protesting for balik pasada were captured and a mentally-ill former army was shot dead for being outside. Meanwhile, a public official who has been tested positive with COVID-19 can roam around and visit his wife in the hospital. An OWWA deputy administrator can hold a mass gathering with OFWs and a police officer can celebrate a “mañanita” feast to honor his special day. Yet, they weren’t held accountable of violating BASIC quarantine rules. Sucks how police are everywhere, but justice seems nowhere.

On the contrary, the Anti-Terrorism Bill has been recently passed creating alarm and fear to activists not only in the streets, but also for people who are fearlessly blurting out their sentiments against the administration through any social media platforms. Imagine how we are all subjects to being tagged as terrorists. ABS-CBN — one of the largest media networks in the country, didn’t attain the grant for the franchise renewal due to its ~alleged violations~ resulting to retrenchment of the company’s employees. Reallly, in these trying times, where everyone needs a job more than ever? The two issues I’ve mentioned earlier are actual indications of attack on press freedom. Why do they have to prioritize these things in times of a huge public health crisis? Are there some things that the public shouldn’t know?

During the first of April, I have tweeted about my dismay with the response of the current administration in this pandemic. DDS troll farms started attacking me with (non-verbatim) “Ikaw nalang kaya mag presidente?”, “Ihiwalay nyo na ang Luzon sa Visayas at Mindanao puro kayo reklamo”, “Ganda mo sana kaso bobo ka” and my notification went like a warzone. Having an argument with a DDS? I have experienced that firsthand for several times. I got called names and the trolls don’t seem to comprehend my point. But I really don’t give a fuck about trolls because I know for a fact that they’re just being paid. What stings me to the bones are the real ones. The actual people who support this demogorgon. I can’t even include his name in my write up for he terribly disgusts me. It saddens me how both uneducated and educated people can be blinded by the system. Even if they’re witnessing all the atrocious happenings caused by their tatay, they still hold their fist up and believe that this prick can change the country into a dreamy paradise despite the constant existence of violence and attack on innocent lives. How can you all sleep at night playing blind while bearing the idea that the person you’re wholeheartedly supporting has been damaging a ton of lives every fucking day? How?

These questions resonate in my head from time to time. I have always been vocal with my sentiments on social media whether it focuses on socio-political issues and other matters that I publicly want to acknowledge. It infuriates me when people call it a thirst for clout, or ~pa-woke~ or pa-revelant of some sorts. But hun, I have been given the opportunity to acquire proper education. My academic years will be put into waste if I don’t use my voice to create a stand of what I fight for, for what believe in. I studied in an institution where we were taught to be men and women for others. We have to live in the concept of Cura personalis, which means to care for the entire person. And who are these individuals we’re concerned about? These are the victims of injustices, the oppressed, the marginalized sectors — the voices they always deny to hear.

We can still protect our inner peace while dealing with the noise of the society. Take a pause, reward yourself some break. But never stop taking a stand. I am just an individual who has the capability of using her platform, her voice to help educate the ones who aren’t. This is how I’m using my privilege. I hope you’ll do the same. Just a friendly reminder: Your ignorance is their power.

#musings #1st and 3rd photo from: Pinterest | 2nd photo credit: Ateneo de Naga University The Pillars Publication

WHEN IN BAGUIO

During the first week of March, everyone was alarmed regarding the first cases of COVID-19 in NCR. We were also frightened by the fact that the initial patients were confined in a hospital near my workplace. Days later, we have been getting some hearsay about the NCR’s possible lockdown. Some of my friends in Manila abruptly planned to travel back in Naga (which is originally our hometown) before the lockdown and they actually did. I also had it in my plans because our company decided to allow us to work from home.

The weekend before the lockdown, my boyfriend’s lola texted me if we can go up in Baguio before we get stuck in Manila and to assure our safety too. Just a little background: I actually met Anton in Manila but they also have a house here in Baguio. And as far as I’m aware, he grew up here? (not sure haha!) So anyway, going back.. I was really torn if I would stay in Manila, go back in Naga or accompany Anton in Baguio. I actually asked my friends in our condo to weigh down the circumstances and majority of them agreed that I should go to Baguio. Of course I had to ask permission from my family too. My mom was hesitant at first because you know, I’m from a conservative family. But what surprised me was when my grandma permitted me to go so my mom didn’t have a choice but to agree as well. I don’t know, my lola just trusts Anton so much. They even talk to each other thru chat without me knowing (huhu so cute!!). Besides, I’m already 23. I know how to properly carry myself now. But I understand cos they still see me as a smol naive gorl. Plus, he’s my first boyfriend so they’re still adjusting with these sudden happenings.

So eventually, I told Anton the news. And I could barely explain the grin on his face. He was making tambay in my condo that time feeling gloomy before I told him that I’m coming with him because he thought I’m traveling back to Naga. So he was a little surprised when I uttered the news. *u* We abruptly bought a ticket for two going to Baguio and we left the next day. This is one of the evidences how Anton can be very spontaneous and I have to deal with it. His lola was also happy when I responded about going up in Baguio. She is a really really cheerful and jolly grandma, just like my mama. It’s nice to gain another lola. And I definitely love them both now.

When we first arrived at the terminal, it felt so freaking weird for we were the only people wearing face masks and people were staring. It made me feel that wearing a mask looked silly. Jokes on y’all, you’re required to wear one now. It was actually our month anniversary when we traveled going here in Baguio. We don’t usually celebrate “monthsary/monthsaries” because I don’t feel like it should be a thing. Planning on ~cheesy things~ every month is literally exhausting you know (no offense to those who do but this is just me okay). Maybe this is also one of the reasons why I didn’t have a boyfriend before — I can be a slob sometimes. We also do remember when it’s our day of the month. But it doesn’t have to be very special. Because he makes me feel special every frickin day. Nux.

I actually met some of his family when they were still in Parañaque except for his mom and his siblings who are staying in Baguio. I only just met them when I got here. Anton’s family is very similar with mine. We noticed that because we’re both close with our relatives. Somehow, getting along with his family lessens my homesickness. They’re all absolutely nice to me and treat me like a family too. I got to randomly play with his little brother who can’t stop asking me if Nadine Lustre and I were related ++ reminding me that I’m prettier without make up. (sucha cute kid!!) I’m all delighted as well for he has a younger sister. We had bonding moments too where I got to do her make up and make kwentos. She’s very inquisitive, asking me a lot of stuff and it reminds me of my frustrations of having a little sister. Not to mention that she’s very pretty too! I also get along fine with Anton’s cousins because they’re all approachable and perhaps making me feel homey in here.

My friends were a bit worried about me when I came up here because they have thoughts that we might have terrible fights here and I have nobody running into (I love you guys so much okay!! I appreciate that) See how I don’t just get babied by my family, but my friends too!! Anton and I would surely have fights, that’s inevitable. But I’m a grown up, strong-ass woman now. I can handle myself (but still a crybaby pls im a softie). Plus, I noticed whenever we argue, we still care about each other, making sure to still be gentle when we’re mad. We’re still learning the art of dealing with our shit. We eventually fix things and never get to the point of arguing over petty things that can be settled with proper communication. I’m happy that Anton learns my way of establishing disagreements. Creating total silence for an hour to formulate our own assessment, then the one who created the beef should approach first. We have to listen and comprehend each other’s point of view, then compromise. And it probably works well for us. Wee~

I’m still working while I’m here with the WFH set up. Truth to be told, it’s quite mentally draining. I couldn’t separate work hours and rest for I am in the same place. But now I’m trying to balance it. I’m glad I’m back in Tumblr to pratice my writing skills and rant about shit I couldn’t convey on my public social media accounts. I love being here for I could write whatever I want peacefully. *heavy sigh* I’ve been staying here for almost six months now. I have had few unsolicited breakdowns while I am here. I’ve been through episodes of panic and anxiety attacks. My pet hedgehog in Naga died, my dad’s mother died, my emotional traumas still haunt me in my sleep at times, I miss my family, and when my job frustrates the shit out of me. Can I also include how the government fucks with my anxiety? There I said it.

Well I’m eminently dismayed that I couldn’t even stroll around here. Baguio is really a stunning place to visit and it just sucks that I’m stuck inside because of the lockdown. We can actually still go out but only when we’re doing groceries and errands. So where else did we go? SM Baguio :c Malls, I’m sick of malls. I don’t even usually go to malls when I’m in Manila. I wanna see nature, uplifting and fascinating sceneries which this place possess. The weather’s my favourite thing in here!!! It’s just a little distressing not being able to roam around this beautiful place, but I’ll be back here for sure, when everything falls back into place. ♡

#musings #3rd photo from pinterest #diary

ON BEING A COMM-ARTS STUDENT

To start off, I wanna dedicate this one to this particular person — for I don’t actually know who, but I hope you would happen to pass by my blog. Honestly I feel terribly bad upon checking my Tumblr messages just recently. It is for the mere reason that an anonymous person asked me to create a post (two or three years ago I guess) regarding my college course for she/he was torn between choosing two different fields. I wasn’t able to read it then, so I am very sorry. But I do hope she chose the path that she’d truly love and enjoy.

Just a little overview about the course I took in college. Bachelor of Arts major in Communication is a four-year degree course for individuals wanting to pursue a career in the fields of advertising, media, public relations, film and such. This course would generally integrate the mastery of using different media platforms such as radio, television, print media and I think they should now include the social media because various advertising and marketing strategies work magically in that platform nowadays.

During my first year as a Comm-Arts student, things were still fine. I would usually get more stressed with my minor subjects than the major ones. But when our third year came, that’s where all the weight of the universe conspired.

My favourite major subjects were Journalism Principles and Practices, Feature Writing and Media Laws and Ethics. These are just some of the interesting subjects you’d take if you’re more into reading and writing. I would never forget that time that I was the only one who got a perfect exam score during our midterms in Journalism. What actually made it more fulfilling was when I saw a small note at the bottom part of my test paper. My professor told me that I do write so well and he hopes to see more of my write ups someday. Plus I should share more of my thoughts and insights in the class, too! It literally made me so happy knowing that I have been appreciated by my Journalism prof like imagiiine *u*

Our course also caters Broadcast Media and TV Production. I can still recall being a court side reporter during our school’s basketball game against different universities in the city. Yup, it was one of our major subjects. We had actual broadcasting executions. I have also been one of the school’s DJ with my best friend Cleo at Ateneo Radio and TV Network. One of my profs has also given me this opportunity because he told me that he saw a potential in me while I was doing the court side reporting thing. Grr I’m kilig. On the contrary, we had live Youtube streams and all that jazz. Truth to be told, I used to have stage fright and I get conscious in front of the camera, but my course absolutely helped me in regards with boosting my self-confidence, big time.

This is one of the most exhilarating phases of being a Communication student. We were able to perform a Theater act!! Don’t fret because there’d be massive workshops and lectures beforehand. Your creativity and imagination will be very beneficial in this part. Starting with the script, costumes, set and stage design concepts, poster and ticket ideas, lights and sound production... Squeeze your creative juices on this one! But it’s just not all fun and games for you have to deal with constant rehearsals. A live theater act needs to be done flawlessly for you cannot edit and redo an actual presentation unlike when creating movies, awful clips can be removed and not shown through the audience. But one false move on Theater and you’d be remembered forever... by your co-actors atleast. Don’t worry, mistakes are for human and you aren’t less like that.

Film. Film. Film. Creating films made my relationship with my blockmates (which are now my best friends) even stronger. Producing a film is no fucking joke. It demands a lot of patience, time, effort, creativity, logical reasoning and of course it requires passionate people who are willing to take the risks of learning from it. It is given that it is essential for you to have a video camera, tripod, production lighting, laptop, and an editing software. Did I forget to mention something? Of course you need a director, scriptwriter, cameraman, crews and actors. It is not a one-man job. You need man-power and teamwork so you need to be in a good company. As a Comm student, you must know the basics. You’ll learn the significance of knowing what lies behind these three stages — the pre-production, production and post-production. You’d basically acquire and understand the importance of executing proper angles, good lighting and so on. I swear it’s so fun and you’ll learn a lot from it!!

In terms of internship for Comm majors, we are one of the most sought candidates in all sorts of professional fields. You can apply for an editiorial, public relations, content/copy writing or broadcast internship, even marketing! I actually applied for Summit Media. It is a digital lifestyle network in the PH. It was supposedly a dream come true for I had a call and scheduled interview from the said network. I chose that particular company because of my undying love for Candy magazines since I was a teen. Too bad they’re only digitalized now. Sigh. Oh, the succeeding generation wouldn’t experience that satisfaction and ecstatic innervation of having an actual printed issues with your favourite Candy artist on its cover page!! I wasn’t able to pursue it because my mum didn’t let me take my internship in Manila that time. Only for the reason that they didn’t approve of the idea of letting me be an ~independent lady~ in a whole different city. Sucks, right. But on a brighter note, I took an internship in a radio broadcasting network in our city. The local radio station hosts different events outside the town and one of their DJs is a singer. He has this amusing segment on the radio giving various advice for their listeners We learned how to adapt with different types of people for we have different target audiences. That DJ also gave me a spotlight in terms of singing (exposure, right). He’d ask me to sing on-air during our guesting on his segment while he plays the guitar. He also let me sing on stage during one of their local concerts. It was an internship slash portraying of our talents (and I enjoyed it a whole lot!).

These are just some of my personal experiences in this field but I hope I have given you a beneficial background about my college course for you to ponder upon. PS: I have already graduated last 2018 and I am currently working in an advertising agency as a content writer! Besides the dream of working in a reputable and well-known fashion/lifestyle magazine, this is actually one of the jobs I have been eye-ing since I finished school. I personally enjoyed my entire college years academically and not. I had serious struggles too especially during our thesis. But nonetheless, it’s really up to you if you’d take everything lightly or seriously. What matters the most is that you are doing it for yourself and not for other people. Pursue what your heart truly desires. Always remember that! ♡

#musings #photos from pinterest

OH, THE THINGS ABOUT HIM

My heart is in a happy, contented and a peaceful state — all because of him.

Let’s start with compatibility. We’re both January babies but he is an Aquarius and I’m a Capricorn. They say, “when Capricorn and Aquarius join together in a love match, they tend to bring out the most positive attributes of one another.” Yes, I couldn’t agree more and also, I just googled that okay. (click here for more details and check your compatibility with your jowa too haha!!) We have similarities but it’s true that we are like the total opposites. Weird as it seems but I feel like it makes the relationship more interesting. They say Caps tend to be very organized (yes omg!!) and Aquarius sees life as a random exploration. For me, it creates a room for discovering each other’s individuality. Sometimes it’s nice agreeing to disagree. But in the long run, we learned how to understand and respect each of our differences. Anton knows how much of an arte person I am, how I want things to be planned properly beforehand, or how I want everything to be in order that makes him grumpy at times, but he deals with it, anyway!! On the other hand, he’s very spontaneous and I f r e a k i n g hate it, but I try to keep up and learn his ways. Compromising is the key, honey. It’s funny how he reacts when I throw an attitude sometimes, he’d attest and say “Argh Capricorns, I swear!!!” Cute how he never invalidates and make fun of my thing for astrological stuff to look cool like some other pricks.

He likes communicating. Anton is very vocal with his feelings and he literally says what’s on his mind. He’s a good communicator and a listener, too. When we were still dating, we’d spend almost the entire day talking on the phone without getting bored for we both really like sharing stories and ideas. We’d usually talk about our families, childhood, our friends, pets, our weird dreams, our pasts, our deepest fears, how shitty the government is, how religion and our belief affect us, even the tragic story behind our faux dimples. Anything under the sun, name it!! Words of affirmation is one of our love languages — making it easier for us to discuss our plans, problems and concerns. He never fails to provide the assurance that I need even if I don’t actually ask for it. He would randomly say I love you at the most random moments. He'll suddenly whisper to me the words “love na love na love kita” or tell me heart-warming compliments, and even reminding me that he’s genuinely happy being with me out of nowhere and I swear it’s the cutest thing ever. *sniff sniff* He even randomly sends me handwritten letters!! God I’ll never get tired of listening to this guy. He’s so adorbs okay. :c

Not trying to be cheesy but... Yup, we both have fake dimples. Truly meant to be. Soulmates, to be specific. Charot. Anyway, about our faux dimples. The side of his face got bitten by a dog when he was younger so it has to be stitched resulting into a cute smol dimple (my poor baby grr) and my brother stabbed my cheek with a pen when we were kids so you’ll see this little dot on my cheek creating an illusion of a dimple whenever I smile!! Such violent creatures. Argh.

He loves to cook and he cooks so well. I ain’t being biased here but he really does. He would usually tell me that it’s his passion and he enjoys doing it (indeed, my total opposite cos I ain’t the kitchen typa gurl!!). I remember the first time he brought me in his house in Parañaque to introduce me to his family. He cooked my favourite dish which is carbonara. Ooff white pasta. And the taste literally got stuck in my brain. Sometimes I feel like he gets a bit pressured cooking for me because he’s aware that I’m picky when it comes to food. So he really makes sure he’ll do a great job. Hay, this smol bumbum still tries to win my heart. ♡ I remembered when my dad used to constantly tell me that a man cannot stand a woman who can’t cook and dad guess what, the heavenly saints blessed me with a guy who can cook for himself. Hah!!! Fuck gender roles. (I’ll wash the dishes, don’t worry baby issa teamwork!!!)

Anton really seems like one tough badass on the outside. But hun, he’s a softboi. He gets mushy with me all the time. We are both an xoxo type of person. Adults who are sucker for lambing. I wasn’t really a clingy person until I actually got into a serious relationship. One of the things that I value the most from him is the fact that he never gave me mixed signals. Never thought it’s possible because those men I used to date are all walking fucking contradiction. I know him for almost ten months now. He still treats me so well. The guy I knew since day one is still the guy I’m with up until now. Never had this kind of consistency in my entire ~dating lyf~

We didn’t have any mutual friends. It was hard at first because we started from scratch. I had no idea of who he was and he had no idea of who I am. And I admired his concrete honesty with me. He didn’t hide who he really is. During our first date, he told me things he did in the past that he wasn’t really proud of. Knowing that I might feel off with him (& he told me I might ghost him after that date!!), he still continued showing his authentic side. He wasn’t like the usual guy who’s all goody two-shoes trying to impress a girl. He was genuine and I saw his sincere intentions with me. We all have awful pasts, anyway.

I have no words for his patience towards me. I admit that I got bad qualities that I had to fix in order to retain a good relationship with him and vice versa. I was so used to being a strong independent woman who needs no man. I didn’t like rules, obligations and all that jazz. Our first months were really really tough especially on his part because this is my first actual relationship. He had tons of adjustments to deal with. Ya gurl needed more time to let herself realize that she needs to be more sensitive. I only had MUs and flings back when I was still studying. And it’s absolutely a whole different world when you’re in an actual relationship. It’s quite a struggle having your first boyfriend in your 20s. You’d sometimes feel like you’re dumbfounded. My family also guided me for they know that I am a stubborn little bitch sometimes. They warned Anton about it. Grr I didn’t like being controlled and I don’t want to control a person as well. It’s a good thing for us both so we’d refrain from being potential toxic partners. I let him do his thing and he has no choice but to do it for me as well! I don’t know but this is definitely the relationship I’ve envisioned for so long. Just tryna chill, feels casual and fun but literally crazy about each other. A home that you can consider.

I still have a lot to share about him but I feel a bit groggy while typing this because of the weather. But anyway... It’s the first time I wrote about an ACTUAL boyfriend in this blog. It’s ironic how I used to blurt out my sentiments here only when I’m lonely about heartbreaks. My younger hopeless romantic self should prolly be proud of me. Now this is pure bliss. I’m finally sharing something real, genuine and I could literally call a blessing. Still can’t believe that after all the wrong turns, I finally found the right path. ♡

#him

IM BACK HOME

Tumblr is like that toxic and manipulative ex-boyfriend you keep on coming back to, no matter how much or how long you’ve tried to get rid of them. But that ex-boyfriend obviously doesn’t feel like home, it will never give you the feeling of inexplicable nostalgia and pure bliss. This is my thoughts’ safe haven, a home indeed. Tumblr isn’t your toxic ex-boyfriend, okay.

Hello! I really don’t know how to start writing in a ~virtual journal~ again. Though my current job requires me to write. Yes, I’m working already (can you imagine!!). The last time I wrote here was three or four years ago (I guess), which posts I have set to private just because ~I can~

So how am I doing for the past years?

First of all, yes I graduated already last March 2018. It was a tough journey, I can tell. Finals, thesis, separation anxiety from friends, thinking of what career path to take... everything was literally a ball of stress. But hell yeah, I’m finally done with school! Woohoo!! *pops bottle*

Well god damn it, jokes on me. Life after school sucks. Adulting sucks. Life sucks in general. After I graduated, I decided to take some break from reality before I take life more seriously. The entire 2018 was a whack. From heartbreaks, to friendship breakups, family dilemmas and all that bs you can possibly envision. I applied as a part time gradeschool English tutor just to keep myself busy and so I could finance my walwalera self that year. I feel like that was my rebellious phase (late bloomer haha!!) Atleast I didn’t have to worry about school while being badass. But seriously, that was the year that I had an absolute existential crisis. And I swear I wouldn’t wanna go back. Never. E v e r.

2019, I managed to take life ~seriously~ for the sake of getting my shit together. I left Naga and went to Manila to find a job. I swear the independent life is definitely no joke. When you’re used to being babied by your family, it was one heck of a struggle. Especially the Manila commute system? Fuck. I hate it. Atleast now I’ve adjusted from the horrors of it. But it still sucks. I had my first job as a Marketing Assistant in a start-up fashion clothing brand. It lasted for three months only because it seemed like it wasn’t for me. So I applied for another job. I’m currently working as a Content Writer in an Advertising Agency in Makati for almost nine months already! I’m happy with my career as of now. It’s nice to be able to pursue your passion and your job at at the same time. ♡

Speaking of passion... I’m also STILL pursuing my hobby turned into quite a dream since I was a teen. Blogging!! Yes!! Well, I don’t consider myself as a well-known blogger (because I still am not!!) but I’ve collaborated with several huge and small brands in the PH. I’m beyond grateful that brands do recognize my platform as a blogger even if I’m not that “huge” yet.

Here, hey listen up. It’s funny because the last write up I posted here was about a huge heartbreak. I dated a few douchebags before I stumbled upon this guy who’s actually worthy of my time. I’m genuinely elated and excited to share that I’m already in a healthy and happy relationship. It’s still quite surreal that I already have a boyfriend knowing that I’ve never had one for several reasons — I have strict parents (yes), I fear commitment, I’m afraid of getting hurt over and over again (yes I’m a pussy), not wanting to be controlled (a stubborn bitch, too!!) and the list goes on... I’m happy I met a guy who literally made me forget I had that list. ♡

It’s weird how a year can turn you into a completely different person. Whether it’s for the better or not. I know my life’s still a blur, but unlike before, I’m finding my purpose little by little. I’m thankful that I have my family, my friends and my boyfriend supporting me in every step of the way. I wuuuv you guys so much~

By the way, I’ll start writing here again since I have all the time in the world. I missed Tumblr so bad.

Current life update: I’m here in Baguio with my boyfriend (with my family’s consent ofcourse!!) Supposedly we were planning to just visit here for Holy Week but his grandma (who’s literally the sweetest) asked us to stay here before the lockdown in NCR. Well obviously I’m working from home, getting the hang of it because my bf’s very supportive. Hey, 2020 sucks and the government can choke. But stay safe, y’all! ♡

#diary #photos from pinterest

CELINE’S BUCKET LIST

These are the things that I would like to pursue before I turn 50. Hopefully, most of them are actually bound to happen. *deep heavy sigh*

This list will be updated from time to time whenever things get a little magical. *grin-face*

PLACES TO SEE:

Roam around the streets of Vigan

Tagaytay City

Batanes

Caramoan Islands (2015, 2017)

Explore Netherlands

Go to Singapore with my family

See the place where my dad worked for years — Saudi, Arabia/Dubai UAE

Calaguas Islands, Camarines Norte (2018)

Mayon Volcano, Albay (2012)

Travel to New York City

Coron, Palawan

Siargao

Baguio City ♡

Amsterdam ♡

THINGS TO DO:

Try all the mind-blowing rides in a carnival

Watch a fireworks display with best friends/family

Create my own blog (2010)

Join the school choir/glee club (2013-2014 4TH YEAR HS)

Learn how to play the piano

Own a lovebird (2014)

Get my degree on time — this coming 2018

Become a vocalist in a band (2015, 2017)

Out of the country with family

Join a school pageant (2010)

Write a letter to my old self

Become a top one in the class (3rd year hs & 4th year hs)

Work in an advertising company ♡

Attend an art workshop

Receive a book as a gift from a Tumblrista (2014)

Audition for a singing contest (2014)

Experience a real formal date

Have a Barbie-themed debut party (2015)

Write my own article in a local school magazine (2015)

Ride a train

Gain weight

Spontaneous roadtrip with friends (2015)

Visit art galleries & museums (2018)

First time to sing in front of a crowd (2007)

Try horse back riding (2015)

Take a lead role in a theater play (2016, I was the antagonist)

Kiss a dolphin

See a real crocodile up-close (2009)

Plant a tree (2009, 2011 & 2013)

Watch a movie in cinemas alone

Zipline

Go on a music fest with best friends (2015, Uproar Camsur)

Learn how to swim

Drink an alcoholic beverage for the very first time (2015)

Get in a hot-air balloon

Nature trip/hiking with family (2014)

Watch my favorite horror film with someone special

Try sky-diving

An actual photoshoot with best friends (2016)

Have my first boyfriend (2019 OMG ♡)

Become a member of the student council (2013-2014)

Treat a transportation fare with a nice stranger

Have a pet shih tzu puppy (2014)

Earn money just by singing (2016)

Buy an extravagant presents for my best friends

Sponsor a family charity work (2015)

Have a kids’ party-themed birthday celebration (16th birthday)

Watch a show in Broadway theatre

Join a color fun run (2014)

Attend Wanderland

Paint on a wall

Host an event (2013/2015)

Camp out with bonfire with my best friends

Sleepover inside a tent with best friends (2015)

Get involve in a music video

See my favourite band live (LANY, 2019)

Have a mini tattoo on my nape

Dye my hair with alpine green, ash gray or midnight blue

Watch a concert with best friends (2015 Bamboo’s concert)

Design my own house

Travel alone

Join a school modern dance competition (2012)

Be financially stable at the age of 28

Become a member of a school cheerdance competition (2010 & 2013)

Get married

Have my own business

Work for a lifestyle/fashion magazine

STUFF TO HAVE:

DSLR camera (2015)

Set of calligraphy brush pens (2016)

Polaroid camera/instax

Ear-piercing (2014)

Have my own web domain

Shih tzu puppy (2014)

Golden retriever

A corgi ♡

A pet hedgehog (2019)

My dream house

PEOPLE TO MEET/SEE:

Meet Jenny Han and Colleen Hoover (my fave authors)

Meet Mikaella Noya (my online-bff since 2009)

Meet my forever fave singers — Avril Lavigne, Taylor Swift and Ariana Grande

Bea Marin, Ida Anduyan, Rei Germar!! (fave local influencers)

Meet Vern and Vernice ♡

Meet Bamboo (2015 & had the chance to hug him pa)

International bands: Hey Monday, Paramore, Coldplay, Maroon5, Snow Patrol, LANY ♡

See these local bands as well: Parokya ni Edgar, Silent Sanctuary (2016), Moonstar88, December Avenue and Up Dharma Down

James Reid and Nadine Lustre ♡

Chloe Grace Moretz and Kiernan Shipka ♡

This is subject to change!! I’ll add more soon ♡

#bucketlist #photos from pinterest

Self-portrait in my bedroom.

#selfportraits

Photography shots ft. Mae & Cleo my class buddies. <3

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SEPTEMBER 17, 2015 THURSDAY

We prepared a simple surprise that night for Nicolle’s 18th birthday on Saturday (Sept.19) because we know that we won’t be able to see each other on that day. We surprised her with all these stuff after the concert. We’re on rush but I think we did it well naman and I know that Nikki’s going to appreciate this little effort we made for her special day. <3

#events #bestfriends

SEPTEMBER 17, 2015 THURSDAY

AAAAHHH I CAN’T CONTAIN MY FEEEEELS!!!!1111!!1!!1!

Bamboo fangirling moments~

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JULY 17, 2015 FRIDAY

Photo-walk with my besties, Sam & Nicolle. :)

#photography #bestfriends

These are some of my shots awhile ago for my photography class activity. Yaaaahh they aren’t that good but atleast I tried. Looool. So hiii. I’ll post some of the portraits I took with the people who accompanied me during my photowalk. Hihi. Ciao~

#photography

JULY 12, 2015 SUNDAY

FAMILY DAY

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JULY 11, 2015 SATURDAY

Media Studies Society Coachella-themed Acquaintance Party

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