stuck in wanderlust

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I miss you

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I was prepared to love you so hard

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I miss talking to you

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I hate that I long for you. 🙈

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I want to share things about my life with you but I don't think that it's very welcomed.

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I missed you, I really did.

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This is what you wanted right?

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I'm still mourning our what could've been.

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I feel so deflated, I don't even know how to approach this.

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I hate this heavy feeling man. 😫😭

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I like the us now, but I miss the us before

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Minahal yata kita. Actually, mahal parin yata kita. Ewan ko. Tapos ngayon feeling ko talong-talo ako kasi parang mas gusto ko na mag work tayo kesa sayo. Alam mo ilang beses ako nag wish na nag message ka sana sakin-- na hinde ka bumitaw kagad. Yung tipong pinag usapan natin ng mabuti yung sitwasyon. Yung triny ulit natin. Kasi alam natin sa sarili natin na worth it. Na worth it yung pagmamahal ko sayo. I guess ayaw mo talaga ng complicated. Pero ako sige lang go, kasi alam ko kung mahal kita sobra sobra ang ibibigay ko sayo. Oo nagulat nga ako sa sarili ko e. Kasi sa tigas ko nito, isipin mo, ayaw kong bumitaw sa potential nten. Ewan ko ba. Hinde ko alam kung bakit iniisip na nman kita. Please lang. Ayoko na. Ayaw na kitang isipin.

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Interesting... I gues that's it.

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I dreamt of you again. I know deep down that I still want you, and everyday I still think of you, of us and what could've been. I miss you. SO MUCH!

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Hey. I miss you. So much. I still want to message you. It's been a month now and I'm still craving your presence.

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I miss you. I really really miss you.

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I hate this feeling I have because of you. There's always that what if floating in my mind and it's really frustrating. I'm honestly so frustrated and annoyed at myself because I don't know why I'm still thinking of you; of us. I genuinely believe that you've moved past this and you're ok. Yet here I am still thinking and hoping to be with you. Why do I have to be like this?! I know everything happens for a reason and I need to trust God's timing, but it's so hard!