It was a bizarre feeling, being… cared for like this. Even his crew didn’t check up on him like that, worried about what he ate — after all, he was the commander, and one doesn’t just tell their commander to stop being weird and eat a god damn salad. Nick supposed it was one of those things people developed growing up in a real family. The thought of it stung, and he wanted to brush it off, but Leo was always a caretaker, and it struck him that, other than Luci, his friend didn’t have anyone to care for anymore. Nick had to let him have this. “You’re right, you’re right. I’ll stock up on some Emergen-Cs, okay? And I’ll pick up some carrots. I got a mini-fridge at the motel, I can do that much.”
Under Leo’s gaze, Nick deflated, his shoulders slumping as he took another sip of his coffee. It felt as though there was some kind of mismatch between them, like they were looking for something in the other that wasn’t there — wasn’t known. Secrets were hard to keep, and in their line of work, privacy was of the utmost importance. If Leo didn’t want to talk, Nick couldn’t push him. He couldn’t do that — not to his… friend. “I get it. Some things, you just can’t say. I get it. I do.”
It wasn’t long before they were interrupted again by the waitress, bringing their order to the table. Nick glanced up at her, thanking her, not quite smiling but not as chilly as before. He started on his food, a methodical, counter-clockwise rotation of his plate; slow, careful bites. If it weren’t for Leo, he wouldn’t be eating, and he couldn’t say he was particularly happy about it — he didn’t like the feeling of eating, the textures of food on his tongue. Even with his instructions, it was rarely right, and almost never appetizing.
The searching wasn’t the only thing hanging in the air between them. It was a simultaneous desperation of needing to stay silent and needing to say something, anything. Privacy, for hunters, was important, but they were kept alive by knowing when to speak, when to share. There was so much he needed to know. Did they find the thing that killed their family? Did they kill it, too? Were they being hunted by it? Did they need his help? But he couldn’t bear to speak. Looking at Leo, despite his difficulty reading people, Nick knew there were similar questions unspoken, that couldn’t be said.
Instead, he took the envelope with a nod, sliding it into his messenger bag. His fingers tugged at the string holding it shut, desperately curious as to what it contained, but the time wasn’t right to read it. He supposed he’d have to save it for later, when he was alone in his motel room, curtains drawn and blankets hung over the windows behind them, sealing out the outside world. He’d have all the loneliness and aloneness to take in whatever the envelope had to offer. For now, Nick had someone, and he needed to savour that.
“Some familiar faces, ‘round these parts. Saw that one fang I’ve been chasing for — what, a decade now? Ambrose. Too powerful to just have… stumbled across this place and stayed. There’s something to this place. Something here that’s drawing them in. I don’t know what quite yet, but it’s gonna be a big problem for us, I think.” He dropped his voice, leaning into Leo, waiting for the waitress to have wandered as far as she could to speak again. “I caught some, when I first came in. Stumbled across them. I didn’t start the fight — I didn’t want to, it was too soon. But that angel, man, I didn’t do that. I couldn’t have — it’s not within my jurisdiction, to kill a thing like that; I don’t even know how to. Something’s really wrong here.”
The answer was inadequate, but it was something and Leo didn’t want to push it further. Nick didn’t owe him anything, not really. They weren’t family, though Leo wasn’t sure what they were was exactly friends either. Blinking, Leo realized it had been too long since he’d spoken, and found himself nodding quickly, exhaling in a rush.
“Sure, just seems a shame if after all this it wasn’t even-” Leo broke off, clearing his throat as he glanced away, leaning forward on the table on his elbows. Wasn’t even vampires; too morbid. “Maybe throw a pack of gummy vitamin in there too,” he teased, familiar habits giving way to an easy grin. Nick had always been a notoriously picky eater.
It was comforting some things never changed. Silence was allowed to settle over the table, Nick making his way through his food in a fashion that was decidedly observed, but Leo didn’t mind being humored. It was good seeing him eat a whole meal; or at least most of one, parts sectioned off and consumed separately but more or less completely. His own meal was barely something Leo noticed, but he ended up wandering into the diner for an easy meal at least once a week. More if he was going to be honest with himself about it. Deadwood had a murder rate for a city ten times its size, but their resources to deal with the issue didn’t keep pace.
Listening, Leo tsked, more confirmation of how fucked they really were just turning his stomach. Almost made him wish he hadn’t eaten. “I’ll keep an eye out,” Leo promised, without much faith that would help. “I was pointed in this direction,” he nodded, “they didn’t tell me why, but I was only here a few days before that was pretty obvious.” Leo drummed his fingers over the table, reaching to drag the pie towards himself. He twirled the fork in his fingers when he picked it up.
“It was definitely an angel?” Leo had seen it himself, and he knew, but some last shred of denial had rested on Nick knowing something he didn’t. He scrubbed a hand across his face, shoulders slumping. “Shit. No fucking kidding. I don’t even think I know how we’d start with a place like this. Wipe the town off the map and start over,” Leo shook his head, only half serious.