Dam † @damvenganza - Tumblr Blog

It feels nice to be on the right side of the bed.

Today, I feel good.

This week has not been easy and I just want to congratulate myself for ending it gracefully.

It has been a productive day.

Went to bed earlier than I used to on a Saturday morning. Attended class equipped and confident. Received my first check on my side hustle. Received positive feedback from my students. Started on some work reports. Shared kindness. Went for a walk on a good area I haven’t explored yet. Had coffee and chilled. Read a few pages of a book. Got the time to bond with my Dubai family. Talked to people I love. Watched a few episodes of Young Sheldon and RPDR Season 16. Oiled my hair. And typed this post.

Thank you, Universe.

Good job, self!

I miss us.

Or maybe just the times I had to fight knowing that I’m not alone.

Gusto ko nang umuwi sa Pinas. 😭😭

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No matter how many times you replay the whole timeline in your head, you’re never going to be able to pinpoint the exact moment it went wrong. Rereading months of text messages isn’t going to give you any clarity, or make it any easier. You won’t get answers out of his friends, or his horoscope, or the pictures he’s liking on his phone. Sometimes you have to tell yourself it’s not something you did, or didn’t do, and there’s nothing you could have done differently, and it’s not because you were too much to handle, nor is it because you weren’t enough. And then you have to just let go, because it’s all you can do.

Is it even possible to have something without any complications, difficulties, drawbacks?

For months now, I’ve been trying post something here on Tumblr but would keep it in my drafts. Not sure if this is the same safe space I once knew.

Thru Timehop, I’ve been reading back on my posts here for more than 10 years ago, I was surprised that I have that in me before.

Hello, child! How are you so free and expressive?

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