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Vulnerability,

Who could stand to expose their entire self?

No mystery. No shame, just baring all and being content. How terrifying.

I can't talk, for who might share it? I can't write, for who might read it? I can barely think, because I can hardly listen, let alone stand myself. I'm annoying, I'm needy. If I don't ask, I'm not a burden.

If there were more to me, I think I'd be relieved. At a distance, no one can be disappointed. Surprise doesn't hurt. I wonder if safety really exists. I'm scared.

#attachment theory #dismissive avoidant #vent

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Before Sunset (2004)

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Late night car karaoke.

#no such thing as a perfect cut #But this'll do #No one goes on here anyway #car karaoke #Bleh

I'm okay. There is nothing new, and I am the same as I've always been. Are we most ourselves at the beginning or the end of each day, or are we two sides of the same coin? Can you trust anyone, including yourself, to not act out of self-interest? Can we do better, to be better, in comparison to both ourselves and to others? I would like to think yes, to all three, but am not inclined to believe it. Perhaps we all act out of fear: fear of recognition, betrayal, loss. Better the devil we know than the devil we don't. It would certainly be nice to drink and not consider the following day.

#it's a condition called being a cynical asshole #and it's incurable #alcoholism #I'm sorry #no one comes on here anyway #it's alright

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dearest cecilia, the story can resume. the one i had been planning on that evening walk. i can become again the man who once crossed the surrey park at dusk, in my best suit, swaggering on the promise of life. the man who, with the clarity of passion, made love to you in the library. the story can resume. i will return. find you, love you, marry you and live without shame.

Hey there. What happened to Cassis? I used to love going in there and getting the Royal Milk Tea. So bummed when I pulled up and saw it was closed.

I'm not sure what happened, truly. When I left in 2016, it wasn't quite on the best of terms with Tony. I think it closed perhaps a year or two after that. Sometimes I dream of going back there as though I'm picking up a shift, and then it's strange when I wake up and remember it's gone.

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He remembers those vanished years. In the Mood for Love (2000) dir. Wong Kar-wai

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“At the foot of the Tree of Life, we must pay the price demanded for the fruit of our previous Tree of Knowledge. It must be remembered that this was not the Tree of all Knowledge, but only a Knowledge of Good and Evil. In other words Man set himself up as an arbiter of Right and Wrong, blaming God for his own mistakes. This was in fact the worst thing Man did, and indeed it was the Original Sin, because sin had no existence till Man invented it. So Man "Fell", though a fall in any direction is obviously a rise in another one. Our “Fall from Heaven” marked the beginning of our rise through evolution.”

- Qabalah Renovata

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A young woman with a big bunch of roses on the Rue De La Republique, Saint Denis, France,1986

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“I should have a drink for this. I should have…no, I know there’s two drinks. I should have three.”

Yep. Still here. But I’m also at Buda Juice now, and it has become my new passion. I wanted to update the Cassis selfie, somewhat surprised I’m still around.

Side note: I found out I’m very right eye dominant, which explains why my eyes look so weird in all of my pictures.

#5 years #cassis #me