2 months official. Almost 6 months since the communication started again.
We were friends back in high school but we were never really close. We were more of the friend-kita-kasi-crush-ka-ng-friend-ko type of friends. š Now, I canāt even last one day without hearing your voice. Funny noh?
I donāt know why Iām writing this though. I find it quite corny to be celebrating a āmonthsaryā or whatever but for some reason, I kind of want to write a little something just to let you know how much you mean to me especially because you are a bit far.
Itās really amazing how I could never run out of things to talk about with you. Thereās always something new everyday.
I was never a believer of LDR until you came along (UGH! Ka-corny but dis be true tho š). To make this message even cornier than it already is, let me reminisce about 5 of my favorite memories of this thing we call āour relationship.ā
I will never forget that night of confessions. I cried out of awkwardness and your mouth kept fumbling to find the right words to say. Looking back at it, I find it one of the funniest conversations we ever had. š
I remember our first video call because it was my birthday. š That was the best birthday gift ever.Ā
I will never forget the first time you called me and how awkward that felt.Ā
āCanāt Help Fallingā will forever hold a special place in my heart. The song in itself is corny AF but it made a lot of sense (plus it was the first song I sang for you. Chedeeeeen! Extra corny-ness to go! š½š½š½).
That time you said, ādi ak mauurit. š kita ee.ā I donāt know if you already meant it at the time but my kilig was so hyped up I pretended to fall asleep after you texted that because I didnāt really know what to say. šš
Wheeeew!!! š Let us continue with the cheesy-nessā¦
I used to cringe at the sight of couples being cheesy with each other (I still do... sometimes š). Every now and then though, I get jealous because I wanna be cheesy with you beside me and deep inside, it just crushes me that I canāt have that with you just yet. š
This thing that we have, itās really hard. Very hard. I hope we donāt ever have to go through something that would force us to break up. I donāt think Iād ever be able to recover from it. I was scared to enter this situation but now, I am more scared of losing you.
It does get lonely sometimes. The only thing keeping me sane is our late night to early morning video calls, our all-day long conversations, and my imagination. I keep imagining what it feels like to touch your face, to see your eyes twinkle at the sight of me, to feel your lips against mine, to hold your hand & see that whilst itās not the perfect jigsaw piece, the spaces between your fingers will be filled with my tiny fingers, how warm it must feel to hug you & to finally feel your arms wrap around me. I know I will have to stop imagining all this just because itās not healthy for my mental health. Haha. š I have to stop because all of these imaginations will become reality someday. ā¤
Thank you for a lot of things. I know I said those two words so many times already but I just canāt seem to thank you enough. THANK YOU! š
Two months in and I havenāt discovered your wholeness yet. There are so many things I have to learn about you & there are also a lot of things you have to learn about me. I hope the learning about each other never stops. I hope āweā never stop.
I love you with all my heart, Nelson and I want to love you more everyday. Cheers to 2 months!!! š»
