Hello there,

[s-u-g-g-e-s-t-i-0-n-s-deactivat]

[nevver]

[dangggkayla]

How are you supposed to feel when the one person you ever fell in love with suddenly loves you now, & claims he always has? This is the same person who made you the happiest girl in the world, but had the ability to break you down into pathetic pieces & watch you crumble with no remorse in his eyes as he mumbled “I never loved you, I want to be single when I go to college”. Two years later, he’s pouring out words as sweet as honey that you would’ve given the world to hear years before, but every single time you want to blush you’re reminded of the coldness in his eyes the very day you decided you didn’t want to live anymore. Did he care? Not really. But he cares now. He wants more but you’re conflicted because although he treats you well now, the memories from the lowest point in your life haunts you every night before you sleep. That’s why you broke it off when things were just starting to work out again. That’s why you’re scared to emotionally invest yourself into any type of relationship. But at the same time, he’s the most beautiful, kind, humble, caring person you’ve ever met & the closest thing to perfect you’ll ever find in your lifetime. No one has ever treated you or loved you better than he has. No one has ever made so many sacrifices for you, fought for you, or had the ability to make you feel every emotion possible at the same time. No one has ever pushed you to the point where you felt pain just from existing, & no one has ever uttered words as cruel as he did. He’s God’s favorite child (literally) & even at his worst you can still see the faint glow of the halo above his head; he has a good heart. So how should you feel?

[moonlyaffairs]

You lost her. And now she lights up the night-time sky for her new lover cause he recognized her as the moon. And you envy him. She could’ve been your moon, but you were too busy chasing the dimly lit stars.

Zienab Hamdan - Admit it, you messed up. (via esolswooonn)

[dangggkayla]

There are so many things that I want to tell you. Whenever something happens, whether it was funny, stupid, annoying, etc, you're always the first one I think of telling. I get ready to send you a text composed of misspelled words, poor grammar, and unnecessary capitalization in sentences followed by a repetition of O's that drag out behind my "LMAO"'s & between my "LOL"'s. Then I remember that you won't even care to hear about my day or how I've been & that I'll just be met with a read receipt or meaningless reply. It sucks to know that this distance in our friendship is only felt by me, & how irrelevant it has become to you. I'm running on an endless trail with you on the other end, but I'll never be anywhere close to you ever again. It's so hard to have to accept that but I'll come to terms with it eventually.

[dangggkayla]

Not gonna lie the best memories I made were last summer 2015, and I would give anything to relive that summer. So many songs bring a sense of nostalgia to me and makes me feel so bittersweet. We were all freshly graduated from highschool, nobody had work/summer school (or if we did work it was only part time) & those were the days I was actually given a curfew because I would be out from sundown to sunrise lmao. I adventured more than ever in that small period of time, was exposed to many new things, & I didn’t have to deal with all the stress that was coming my way. Everyone was so close too... I misssss ittttt

[hplyrikz]

[dangggkayla]

By and by the more I progress through college the more I realize that this wasn’t what I had panned out for myself when I was still a naive highschooler. The constant questioning of whether I belong to a university or not consistently runs through my mind. I can’t say I know this for a fact but I feel like I struggle a lot more than the other people who go here, leaving me feeling like I’m at a disadvantage because I’m just naturally not smart enough. I envy my colleagues who can take on partying, missing lectures, & going out all the time and manage to do well in school. I have to try so much harder than them simply because I take longer to understand material, and knowing that makes me feel sad and worthless. Feeling so unworthy and alone in such a vast place with no one I can truly trust makes things even harder too. I suck at compiling my thoughts into words but this is the best I can do to “let out” how I’m feeling, even if it doesn’t even remotely grasp the true aspect of the emotional rollercoaster that I’ve been riding on for the past year. 

[dangggkayla]

There’s a certain type of sadness that I can’t put into words because there are just too many factors to it. It makes sense in my head but whenever I try to compile my thoughts into words I end up with a hodgepodge of stuff that no one will ever be able to understand. And it sucks, because I know I only have my own will to help me get through this. 

[princvsx]

[dangggkayla]

Told myself I wouldn't shed a tear for you but here I am flooding myself in tears

[c-isnenegro]

[write20xx]

I’m ashamed of myself because I know I should be better and I have no idea how to get there.

Unknown (via stevenbong)

[ofpineapplesandpeaches]

You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place. Like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again.

Azar Nafisi (via ofpineapplesandpeaches)

[belle-iahel]

[larcarioca]

[nycbambi]