Funny thing, a lot of my changes have been really gradual other than my voice drop.
Hair-wise I am still waiting on my singular chin hair to become a collection of chin hairs. I noticed that starting about two weeks ago, my arm hair has slowly started to change. I have one really long, dark hair on my left forearm and the rest are mostly the same as always. Just lightish brown where they used to be whiteish blonde.
Also, my thighs are getting some hair finally. I have glorious patches of long, thick, dark hair that are exclusive to the backs of both thighs only.
Other than my belly getting hairier, that's about the only thing Ive noticed in the past several weeks.
I am praying to the gods of men for more facial hairs as always.
First of all, I’m going to be talking about the weird shit thats been happening in my pants. So, if you dont want to read about my junk, don’t. If you’re family, I’d advise against further reading because that’s real awkward.
One of the things most affected by the influx of androgens in my body (via testosterone injections) has been my...downstairs?
Eh, that’s a weird term.
I have yet to come up with a word to use that feels right. Like, dick sounds weird and not right. Anything referencing female anatomy is def not right so, I’ll stick to junk, I guess?
Right, so, my junk has been going through quite the makeover in just the past 4 months.
Things are growing, smells are different, feels are different, hair is spreading down my thighs, I understand having boners now. Thankfully, having unexpected boners is not as big (lol) of an issue when in public or in non-boner appropriate places.
Within the first week, I noticed growth in my junk. (If you’re lost, google “ftm growth”)
To me, I feel super great about that change. It makes me feel like one of the most female things about my body isn’t as much so now. I also began having the best orgasms of my life. I am unsure if I can attribute this directly to the higher hormone levels or a higher sense of comfort with myself, but H O L Y S H I T.
Although, I have had to re-figure out how to masturbate; It is as comical as it is fun.
But, mainly, I just want to talk about how fucking uncomfortable it is wearing underwear/pants some days.
My junk is extremely sensitive now.
To help explain it: Imagine taking the most sensitive body part in the world and making it larger and even more sensitive. Now, imagine the seams of boxers irritating the shit out of it for an entire day. You might think that it could be enjoyable, but I assure you that it is not at all pleasant.
I don’t know how cis men go about their lives without this issue.
Or maybe they do?
I know other people have to do adjustments throughout the day, but this is practically unavoidable no matter how I arrange my underwear or wear my pants.
I mean, If some irritation is all I have to complain about with all these changes, I’ll take it.
Plus, did I mention I’m having the best orgasms of my life?
While I expect my hairline to change and "masculinize", I was not prepared for how quickly my hair would start thinning at my temples. Though, I really should say temple because it's only happening on the left side. What to heck.
I had my 4th shot 3 days ago. So far, I have recruited 3 different friends to help give me my shot. As much as I want and need this injection, I cannot bring myself to self-administer them. Like, I should probably talk to my Endocrinologist about switching to Androgel or something, but that requires a lot of work and could end up costing me a lot more.
~The struggles of being a lazy, non wealthy twenty something in a first world country~
I am so incredibly grateful to be as privileged as I am with being able to start hormone therapy. And equally as grateful for having such an incredible support system. A lot of my friends are very excited for me and put up with a lot of ridiculous requests such as, " Look at all this fucking leg hair!" and " Hey, look at my lil baby hairs on my lip" or the always present " Does my voice sound lower? I think it sounds lower. Play that video with me speaking in it again"
Anyway, here is a 1.5ish month update on stuff
Some things I've recently noticed:
My hairline looks a little more squared off. Mostly only noticeable to me. But maybe only because I shaved my head.
Not as oily as I was the first month.
No more acne. Its like I'm back to status quo in that department
A few hairs on my chin have turned dark but have yet to thicken
My barely there mustache hairs are akin to a 12 year old Hispanic boy. Maybe that is where my 1/4 Mexican heritage has decided to show itself.
My appetite has slowed down significantly. I get full more quickly and stay full longer than before starting testosterone.
All of my muscles have become more intense. Without a work out routine, I've gained strength and muscle definition. Most noticeably in my arms and core.
I think I have officially escaped the awful demon hellfire that is menstruation for good.
Also, a weird thing - my tears are now, like, huge. I do not normally cry often, but when I did last I was really surprised to have these ridiculously big drops falling out of my face.
My voice cracks so damn often. Like, easily every two sentences I speak, the cracks will make an appearance.
Day before shot of t: 0 pull ups Day after shot of t: 5 pull ups Starting testosterone therapy did not, nor will, solve all my problems but it sure as shit makes me feel a whole lot better about my body.
A month ago I kept thinking about how long and dreadful the upcoming 4 weeks were going to be. Like, having to wait 31 increments of 24 hours to even have a slightly significant time on testosterone under my belt seemed like forever. I realized a couple days ago that I was coming up on one month and I had totally lost track of the days. Though, working 55 - 60 hour weeks will do that to me.
Intramuscular injections - 0.75 ml every 2 weeks
PHYSICAL CHANGES:
Weeks 1 & 2 (shot 1)
hot flashes
change in urine smell - more pee-y (?)
increase in appetite
increase in sex drive
increase in size and sensitivity of nether region junk
orgasms became more intense
facial skin oily
veins in hands and feet more prominent
very slight drop in voice
Weeks 2 & 3 (shot 2)
hair on upper lip darkened and thickened some
arm hair is slightly darker and longer
leg hair is longer and is starting to fill in on the upper shin/calves
fine, but dark happy trail hairs have joined the party
Hot flashes stopped
oily face still which brings a little acne (very little)
more downstairs junk growth
junk is randomly, uncomfortably sensitive
appetite has calmed down
sex drive is still higher than before
voice has deepened more - others have asked if I have a cold and when I laugh, it sounds completely foreign to me
Lots of voice cracking the 4th week
MENTAL CHANGES:
I noticed an immediate change in self confidence. I have never felt more sure in myself or as content after seeing changes in my body.
I do feel more evenly balanced mentally. I have never been one to have wild mood swings, but I feel like the highs and lows have been smoothed out. Now it is just an even goodness.
No extra aggression or anything like that
Felt weird a few days before my 2nd shot. I was late by two days but was feeling off for about two days before missing my scheduled day. Mostly, just unfocused and a little blue.
Starting hormone therapy has been the most self assuring thing I have ever done. Its only been a month and I have never been so certain that I was doing the right thing for myself.
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