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Too many thoughts

I have way too many thoughts and ideas running through my head right now. I want to go back to school but I dont have the gpa for grad school. I want to work but I cant seem to find a job.

So, here I sit, not knowing what to do or who to talk to and I’m confused. I’m looking at jobs in Rhode Island, Massachusetts, and Connecticut, but I’m also looking at schools to maybe just start completely over at and get another bachelors. I hate this and I hate even more that I feel like I have no one to talk to about it cause everyone will just laugh at me and tell me I’m stupid for thinking it’s even possible.

This sucks.

#EndRant

Whoa.. It’s been a while.

I havnt been on tumblr in a real long time but for some reason today I decided to log in. And the minute I did I got this intense sense to write and spill all of my secrets and life happenings. But I’m not going to. Instead, I’m going to start a new blog.

I’ve decided to do this for a few different reasons. 1. I need somewhere to do exactly what I just said... spill my guts. 2. I have severe anxiety that not a lot of people know about it. But that’s going to change. I dont care if 500 people read my new blog or just 1 person does. I’ll still be letting people in to a huge part of my life and an even bigger daily struggle. Hell, I honestly dont care if no one reads it, at least then I’ll still be getting a healthy release of emotion; which I very clearly need.

So, with that said, I’ll be starting this new blog soon. I’m pretty terrible at keeping up with things like this so we’ll see how long it actually lasts. But at least I gave it a shot, right? :)

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weird things anxiety causes you to do:

go 40 minutes without blowing your nose when you have a cold so you don’t have to loudly blow it in front of a group of people

use extremely dull pencils because you don’t want to sharpen them because that is also loud

not order what you actually want to eat because people might think it’s strange

not wear the clothes you want to wear

wear the clothes you want to wear and then spend the whole day worrying that everyone is judging you

put down every accomplishment you have ever made for fear of being looked at as different

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Turn Ons:

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Intimacy. Hold my waist. Stroke my neck. Kiss my forehead. Hold my hand.

Maturity. Patience is amazing. A prize will come to you when the time is right. Its called falling in love. Waiting is hard. But worth it.

Honesty. I don’t care what you’ve done. I care about what you will do in the future. Be honest with me, I’ll be honest with you.

Care. Because not many people give a crap about anything anymore.

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I’m so ready for the season to change

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I wish I had the balls to smoke in my room at my moms house. Cause all i want to do right now is sleep but I cant, and if I smoke I'll be able to cause it'll put me to sleep.

Ughhhh.

I just...

I don't even know where to start. Everything has been such a whirlwind lately and I'm not sure if that's good or bad. What I do know is that I'm incredibly anxious which leads to me panicking and I'm not a fan.