When you’re the girl that guys always love, but can’t fall in love with
Everyone’s been in that position. The beginning of something good, where you either can’t stop looking at each other in public events or find excuses to text one another. That initial butterfly chasing, curiosity brimming feeling that you can’t escape. So you don’t. Then you take the plunge. The ultimate first step to something more, whether that’s a first kiss or more, that person is crossing the boundary you made in order to separate the hopefuls from the hopeless. Then what? You have THE talk.
This isn’t a talk on life goals (necessarily), or your relationship history. It’s the talk of our generation. The “hey let’s keep it easy, I really can’t be in a relationship right now” or even, “I have just been hurt a lot, so let’s take it slow ok?” and it’s all absolutely reasonable.
If only your heart was a reasonable organ.
The problem is, you start to fantasize anyway. It’s nearly impossible not to. You start by thinking just a few months in advance, like asking him to be a date to a friend’s wedding. As things go well, you begin to think of the possibility of your own wedding.
He tells you how much you calm him down, bring a sunshine to his day or make his life better by being in it. You spend a lot of time together, but for you it doesn’t seem like enough. But you hold onto his words and learn patience. You bade your time, thinking that these words and feelings he shares are the foundation to something more. Yet, there is something off. He still holds you at arm’s length, even if you are clearly interested in more. He tells you he just needs his independence, or that he is still shell shocked from his last relationship. But what about you?
You are ready for something more than he offers. And you start to over analyze everything. Are his words true or are they excuses? Well, 9/10 they are always excuses. These men are what I like to call “warm ups”. They want to be in love, and they can easily see that you are loveable. Hell, they even tell you that at times. However, they are just not ready to take on someone at that caliber, whether they know why or not. And it’s not your fault.
I repeat. IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT.
So many girls out there need the reminder that they ARE those fascinating, wild, intelligent, and beautiful girls that those guys describe to them. They see what you are in the best light possible, because they aren’t looking for the flaws, or they’re just plain ignoring them. But as that woman, they also need to see that these are not the men they want to hold onto forever.
These men can give you what you want, but not what you need. And we have to be honest with ourselves; we kind of always knew that. There was always some excuse, or even just a nagging instinct that he is not giving you all that he could. And that, is the worst feeling of them all. But don’t forget, that you have just as much of a say in this as he does.
If you are unhappy, tell him. If he doesn’t react with care and compassion, then you shouldn’t waste your time anyway. If he does, but feels that he isn’t ready for what you’re looking for, then cordially part ways and wish another well, because if he can’t appreciate what you are now, he never will. It’s an instantaneous feeling, to fall in love. You don’t have a choice in the matter, so if you must control every angle, then that love is not everlasting. And that’s absolutely okay.
You will be loved, my dear. Girls like us always are, and the best part is that we will have that great love that everyone hopes for, because we’re already half way there.
So keep your head up and kiss your lovers on the cheek as you pass by.
*Original text by Danielle Deming. Reproduction or use without authorization is illegal*