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Being able to tell between the difference

when someone is acting out of pain or malice

Being able to tell the difference between

when someone is acting out of malice

or their own pain that’s buried so far beneath

whatever that comes out on the surface

I remember the ways my mother suffered

I never could get to her and have it severed

It’s too late, she died with her pain

I live to undo mistakes but some things seem the same

I don’t understand why it keeps happening

I’ll never get out of the trauma I’m trapped in

But then you said I will and I am

No/Know I’ll never let go of your hand

when my hours go back down and the spring comes around, the grief is going to hit me like a ton of bricks.

i'll stress clean the oven spotless

Why do I feel like I did everything wrong,

and it’s all my fault she’s gone?

Everyone tells me it’s not,

but I can’t make the thoughts stop

Everyone tells me I am such a great mother

and that I gave her a life so wonderful

Everyone says she was so lucky

But truly, that would only be me

I wish she could’ve had a more grand exit

With a gorgeous sunset

Like the eyes inside her head

Her tiny toe beans in the grass so green

All she ever wanted, I hope she’s free

I hope she’s found some peace.

Far away from all and every pain

This cold and cruel world ever gave.

Far away from all and every pain

Her fragile body could not take.

I wish time could actually mend it

Her devastating absence

a void where she used to rest

The decibels of her purr, softness of fur,

I never wanted to let her go

never to let her go

She lost all desire to eat

and then her ability to walk.

Her loss of life has me

feeling at fault, I’m distraught.

I loved her so much

I swear I did. I would’ve done ANYTHING to keep her here. I would’ve fought forever and ever for her. Her precious, innocent baby body just couldn’t take it anymore. She was so strong, and so brave. She was always beautiful, always. She was always so adamant about getting exactly what she wanted. She is everything I wish I could be. Cute, correct and contagious. Her existence showed me how I can be SO capable of love and nurturing. No one will ever take away that love from me. I came home everyday to care for her, all through all the medications and trying to force her to eat. Even through her scratching me, rejecting me, hiding from me. All I really ever wanted was her to feel free again. For her to have her zoomies, for her to thrive like she used to. Her happiness created my own. It was just too much, the pain became too great. Still, I couldn’t let go of hope for her, because there was just no way this could get the best of her. She was too fierce, and my baby girl always gets what she wants. But the months went by and nothing ever got better. Everything only ever went worse. Cancer is an evil I’ve known that seems to manifest itself where I nurture my love. Devastation is what I am left with. Everyday I was hers and now I am left with an emptiness that is dug out that I can never ever fill back in.

I just want her to know I still love her 💔

#grieving my cat #I miss my cat #loss of a pet #loss of a companion #animals are love

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You held me hostage

how weak I was

I want to vomit

you are the cause

You abused me

endlessly

verbally

absurdly

All of your guilt is mine

But your life is the lie.

You never forgave me and I only consented upon the assumption of your honesty. You revoked my consent by lying about your forgiveness and your whole agenda was to use me. Of course you’re posting holding hands exactly like you did with me, because why would I expect you to have any change. Have fun repeating your mistakes.

I’m never gonna pretend like you did. Like you’re not breaking my consent of reading this.

I am so pleased with myself and who I’ve grown into. You’re just a liar and that’s all how I’ll remember you.

My dad called me stupid for talking to you

It hurt at first, but honestly it’s so true.

I need to write about how exhilarating online activism can be, like how hyped and wired I get

But a depression crash can happen

even though I know they’re all trolls and assholes, shit can take a toll

I’m glad I have all I need to do it again 😈

I’m so unfuckwithable and it makes me giggle when people clearly try to bother me.

How can people lie so horrendously to hurt someone else and be able to live with themselves

I guess that’s just the vortex I’m stuck in

Strawberry skies of 2025 greet the strawberry moon of June

Strawberry skies of June greet the strawberry moon 2025

My ex was so tragically mentally unsatisfactory for me that when we broke up, I literally started thriving so hard.

She’s mad I’m thriving and making friends so she serves a protection order against me 110% full of lies. So obvious how jealous she is of my freedom (because or else I would rather be fucking dead) and the ways I creatively express myself. Completely admits to cyberstalking me.

Instead of admitting I’m right, she cripples herself over the reality of being wrong, and doubles down on making more poor decisions that further drives the woman who would have loved her till the end of the world farther away forever.

What a tragedy of a person. So sad. She tried to hold me hostage, she tried to breach my limits, she tried to get me to physically defend myself from her. But she was just, so weak.

One day I’ll be okay.

All intuitive feelings and thoughts were correct about her, every single doubt i had in her was valid. My faith and trust in myself because of her is the strongest it’s ever been. I will never doubt myself and my own feelings and thoughts ever again. She is pathetic, and I am fantastic.