DAILIES
Incredibly honored and honestly a bit speechless to be named among the 2019 NEA fellows in poetry. Speechless why? I looked back over the poems I sent them, which I'd forgotten I sent them, and they are all on no uncertain terms about ripping out the people in the halls of power by the roots. In some poems violently, in some poems historically. When the NEA asked for an excerpt from the submission, they told me they couldn't publish the first one I sent them because it contained the word fuck. When I sent them another excerpt, they called me on the phone, not unapologetically, to tell me that the work was just too prickly and incisive for them to hitch their wagon to it right now and publish it on their site. Which, honestly, I understand. The people in the halls of power want this organization dead. Imagine a job where the psychopaths ruling your country constantly were trying to delete you. All of this happened during the longest government shutdown in United States history, brought about by the same scourges whose reasons for existing I am writing poems in determination to destroy. The offices of the NEA were shut down and silent for 32 days, I wasn't able to say a word about this for three months. None of it feels real, which makes it all feel that much more real. It's made me think a lot about my mom, who still has the same "save the arts" pin that she kept among her bills when I was a kid. She was the first person who explained to me what the NEA is, why it matters, why we keep pushing and voting and protesting to keep it alive. I wrote about this a bit more in the author statement they asked me to send them, which I believe they're posting in a short time.












