Thoughts from a Gemini

[darealist87]

Dear Future Wife...

Dear Future Wife,

I want you to know that I love you. Yet we haven't met (or maybe we have), but I want you to know something....

I don't have it all right now, I actually don't have much of anything right now. I'm going through the roughest part I have ever had in my life. Sometimes I don't even know how I'm going to make it to the next day. This though is only temporary. I'm using this time to reevaluate my life and actually take this time to grow. I want you to know that if you are willing to accept my flaws and down falls right now; I still will give you the world you deserve. Even if I don't have what you want, I will do what I have to making sure you get that. I want you to be my bestfriend, I want you to know everything about me, I don't want to hind any secrets from you. I will keep you warm when you are cold, protect you when you feel worried, I will provide when we are in need. I want you to not have to worry when things look bleak. I don't want to be your superior but your partner. I don't believe in giving up or calling it quits. Whatever life throws at us, we will tackle it together. You won't ever have to worry about my loyalty because I will screams from the mountain top that I'm yours. I want to be the father to our kids that shows our son how to be a man and show our daughter how a Queen should be treated.

Will everything be perfect, of course not. But that too shall pass and we will grow even stronger through any disagreement we may have. I want to grow old with you with, watch as your beauty grows over time like a fine wine. I will let you know how beautiful you are every single day. Show you how much I love you everyday. Ask you how your day was, when you have beef with someone at work, I will indulge as if I know who you are talking about lol. I want you to be my reason for waking up and the reason you smile everyday. I don't ever want you to feel as if you need attention or affection from another man.

I love you from the bottom of my heart...

Sincerely,

Your Future Husband

[darealist87]

Emotional Struggle...

Those who know me, know I keep a smile on my face. I'm a happy guy, I spread my positive energy to those in need of an uplifting. I hate seeing people down forreal.

Then there's me though... Who is here for that person who uplift other's? Who is here for that person who is naturally happy but has those down moments? Shit is fucking rough and no one knows an individual's own emotional struggle.

I go through a fight deeper than the surface. Trying to hold things together emotionally is one of the hardest things a person can do. If I was such a man of God, I would have cracked already. I'm not the type to post too personal things about me on social media, but there at times. There are times I feel completely alone and need to just get it out. I need to tell someone not necessarily looking for a response.

I was taught to never use this word but I HATE having absolutely nothing to do the most. Not because I'm use to be out, not because I'm an extrovert... but because my mind goes 1000 all at once. I'm not 100% happy in this moment of my life. There are days I be like "Fuck It!" tbh. I try to subside those emotions but I have to realize I'm human.

Between my health, finances, my emotions towards a certain person (smh), just everything. I'm just ready for what God has for me and I can just ask him to help me. I honestly believe I am dealing with depression but I can't let this beat me either.

[darealist87]

Pass What the Eyes Can See...

They say BEAUTY is in the eye of the beholder. Something that we may see and be able to observe. Otherwise, BEAUTY has no presence to be held. BEAUTY is deeper than what can be seen by the naked eye. To understand, to grasp, to... APPRECIATE the true value of BEAUTY. A man can see a woman with makeup on point, a voluptuous hour glass figure, nails & hair done and categories that which is BEAUTY into BADD. A woman can observe a clean cut, we'll trimmed beard, perfect physique, dressed to the T and turn BEAUTY into FINE. We as humans subject ourselves to the outside but to never to APPRECIATE the true definition of BEAUTY. BEAUTY IS deeper than words may be able to describe or eyes can see. The emotions that are attached when truly APPRECIATING the BEAUTY of this world. Especially when living in such a cruel & twisted place... Using such a blessing to be that light through the darkest of moments. Something as simple as closing one's eyes and taking a deep breath. We take out sight for granted yet often times the blind can see the BEAUTY better than we ourselves. I myself, I feel that given the gift of being artistic, I see the value of things better than most. I dig deeper within that... CREATION than what is on the surface. So easy to pinpoint the perfections but to APPRECIATE the FLAWS... That in which helps to build character, strength, a story to be told. A BEAUTY that brings purpose into one's life. A BEAUTY that gives someone that extra push to give it another day. A BEAUTY that each individual see differently through the years. Begin looking pass what the naked eye can see; because sometimes it will open your physical eyes to a world you never knew existed. Giving a new experience and outlook on what you thought was... BEAUTY.

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[half-black-phillip]

I’m so mad because this worked

[britney2007spears]

help me roger

[telanu]

Reblogging myself because

Originally posted by gifs-for-the-masses

[luthienebonyx]

Reblogging myself because… what was that? Five minutes?

O_O

[riskpig]

………my friend has made me curious

[maryburgers]

help me roger

[maryburgers]

Update: after I reblogged this someone messaged me offering me tickets to the sold out Hausu screening with a Q&A and autograph session with the director

[zombbeans]

These never work for me, but here’s to trying.

[strangenewclassrooms]

I don’t believe in these things

But last time I reblogged one ten/fifteen minutes later I got a call offering me a job

But I reblogged it because I was waiting on hearing back from the job. So there you go.

Roger is cute.

[sugared-violets]

Eh Roger is cute I might as well

[secondlina]

That fish is so happy it makes me happy.

[mrcincity-deactivated20161102]

Reblogging!

[letsdreamunstabled]

Yep

[blackartvoid]

White people kill themselves when they’ve lost their jobs, they kill numerous people in school shootings because they weren’t accepted by the masses. Imagine what horrible and macabre acts white people would commit if they actually had to live with and experience racism, oppression, police brutality, hate, gentrification, and genocide.

[thefandomdropout]

I shudder to think about this.

[dbarefootlawyer]

Pray they never have to experience what many of them have perpetrated onto others.

[darealist87]

Motivation to Lose...

Being 300+ lbs is a hassle forreal. Many people say they can’t tell I’m that big though by the way I move. I just tell them I’m not “lazy fat”. My biggest problem is procrastination and it really kicks my butt.

I stop smoking, I make sure I stay active majority of the week, need to work on eating regiment…

I must say though, I seen something that may be that motivation. A dude that I am subscribed to on YouTube has a ch. that is strickly for his fitness. The catch is, he doesn’t like to work out, which is actually more than half of America.

Well, he has the idea to have us (subscribers) working out with him. Connecting social media and fitness in a way that will get everyone (including himself going). I feel like this is one of the best ideas I have seen/heard in a long time.

Between the ch. and my dad wanting to be workout partners, I feel it is possible. I want to be back at 250-260. Realistic goal but a lot of work behind it. I need to be focused and determined to continue, even when I’m not feeling it.

I think I’m going to start my journey via social networking. Not sure which site but very soon.

[darealist87]

My Frustration...

Being in a relationship is never easy, no relationship should. That is what makes a relationship worth being in. A person base the strength of their relationship by what the couple can with stand and willing to fight for.

Now I myself know that I am FAR from perfect. I have my flaws and I know that they need to be worked on. But at the same time, I know I am a good boyfriend. I’m not out running around, I work to keep a roof over our heads, I do things that i don’t want to do because of sacrafice.

I honestly don’t understand why you complain so much, for what?!?! I don’t call you out of your name, I don’t yell at you but that doesn’t seem to be enough. You are a hyprocrite and you don’t even realize it but I don’t bash you for that. Your attitude is terrible but let me not dare say anything.

You say I look for a pity party but yet no one knows what I am talking about. You air out our dirty laundry, but no it is always me. You are the one that cries every time something goes bad with us. You are the one that looks to top my “Problems” with a “Bigger” one of your own.

Yet I stay by your side, I console you when you are in your feelings. When I ask for you to ride with me somewhere you are always lazy and “Don’t feel like going…”. When I try to make excuse for us to do something, you never feel like it… But God forbid that I tell you that I don’t feel like doing something you want to do.

You complain about me playing my game too much, but you have a game in the other room. Instead of complaining, insist that we play together. You take over MY tv with a bunch of shit I don’t watch but I don’t day a word about it. I allow you to watch for as long as you want, even when I want to play or watch something. I will even sit there and watching whatever it is with you.

I am the one who cleans the apartment 9/10 times. I don’t complain if you don’t help, I don’t hassle you to do this or do that. Yet you are down my throat about every little thing. Every time I go out and know I might be grabbing some food, not once do I come in with food for you if I know you are home. You always stop somewhere with your mother and get something but don’t bring me anything. It’s not all the time but it is enough.

You complain about me using the bathroom all the time, telling eberyone and their mother… But God forbid i post a tweet with your nickname in it and is just a joke. I am sorry I had colon cancer and my bladder is not as strong as most. Complain about the smell like you smell like fresh roses in a garden.

I hold in so much and you don’t even know it because of how sensitive you are. I don’t hold that against you, i sympathize with you and bite my tongue or watch how I say things. You come out your mouth sideways and best believe if this was the old Q, feelings would have been hurt.

Shit gets old and no matter how much you love someone, it doesn’t always help. I try but sometimes that’s just not good enough. Misery loves company and sometimes you seem as if you two are friends. You use to tell me to stay positive. When negative, bad things will happen. When positive, only good things will come to you.

I’m sorry that I have trouble communicating. I’m sorry I can’t talk to you like Royal & yourself. Sorry that I treat you better than any other guy you been with. I’m sorry I like to tell people about my girl on SN at times…

Just know that I love you and not going anywhere

[darealist87]

#TheEndBeginsAgain #TheWalkingDead #Season4

[darealist87]

#TheWalkingDead #Season4

[darealist87]

[darealist87]

[darealist87]

This is how niggas be acting, no real loyalty anymore. Say what you want but most of you niggas I know never spoke #TeamHeat a day of y'all life's.

[darealist87]

I was wondering the day when this would come.

[darealist87]

Whether tired, sick, annoyed, frustrated, ill-willed, or even troubled... Just remember, God woke you up for another day. If nothing else gives you joy today, that should be enough because so many did not. He has a plan for you yet whether you know what it is or not. Have a Blessed Day Everyone.

[darealist87]

Being a fan of the game Monopoly, I found this article/blog to be very insightful. 

[darealist87]

Pacers Radio Announcer Calls Heat Fans 'Losers,' Says Miami Doesn't Deserve Team | Bleacher Report

Pacers Radio Announcer Calls Heat Fans 'Losers,' Says Miami Doesn't Deserve Team | Bleacher Report (via http://ble.ac/teamstream-) http://bleacherreport.com/articles/1652154-pacers-radio-announcer-calls-heat-fans-losers-says-miami-doesnt-deserve-team?utm_source=teamstream&utm_medium=referral&utm_campaign=tsandroid

[darealist87]

#Repost Memorial Day #TheWalkingDead Style