thoughts of the broken

i want to be the one to save you // two thoughts a day // send me your thoughts and i will post them for you

[dark-inside-th0ughts]

thought #24

sometimes i feel like i bother people by being sad. like a place a burden on their shoulders. when im really depressed i act impulsively and snap at people. i dont want to be a buzzkill but i can’t help it mostly. i feel guilty for adding negativity to their lives but it consumes me sometimes. i dont want to tell them how i truly feel, make them sad or pity me. i just keep it to myself but it still shows. how sad i am i mean.

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thought #23

three months ago, the guy I love told me he had problems but I didn’t want to push him to tell me so I let it slide. (he doesn’t know I love him or anything like that) earlier, me and my friend were talking and she asked me if I wanted to know. I told her not to tell me because it might be too personal and he might end up hating her but she insisted so I said yes because maybe, just maybe I could help him.

What she told me shocked me though.

His mom had an affair with another man. He knows about it but he couldn’t bring himself to tell his dad because he’s scared he might destroy his family.

He started doing drugs, drinking, smoking. He felt like giving up and he almost gave up his life because he was so lost.

My friend then laughed and asked if I loved him any less because of what she said. I shook my head and tears started to fall from my eyes.

How could I love someone any less for feeling the way I feel everyday? He keeps me alive, without him I won’t survive.

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thought #22

My so called father took my children's innocence but really never paid. I think about the pain that I would like to inflict upon him. I've been thinking about it for too long that it eats at my soul and controls who I am.

[anon-central-hmmm]

Because I don’t think you even really care

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just message me(send me an ask) !:)

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thought #21

What's the point of having everything you've ever wanted if you have no one

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thought #20

I know it’s been a long time since I posted on here but I dont know what to do. everybody acts like they’re there for me but i can feel it I my gut that they all hate me. I’m the most annoying inconsiderate person you’ll ever meet and I can see why they all hate me. I dont know what I feel right now my heart is so painful I can barely breathe I’m shaking I dont know what to do. I dont really have my life together and I’m probably not gunna get through freshman year and the person I love has problems of his own and I want to help him but I can’t. I feel so useless like I’m just sitting here waiting for my name to be called and waiting to have a purpose in this world that I risk my entire future on it. I’m so stupid and I dont know what I can do about it everyone seems to be mad at me right now even if they pretend that they aren’t

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thought #19

i sometimes feel like I couldn't tell people my problems because I'm scared they might use it against me. I trust the wrong people and that's a big problem

[dark-inside-th0ughts]

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hey guys it's J. I just wanted all of you to know that my messages are still open if you want to send me your thoughts. I will gladly post them anonymously for you. thank you to all the people who sent me their thoughts and I appreciate it a lot. all the love, J

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thought #18

depression and anxiety isn't about the basic problems like you getting bullied by people you dislike, family problems, etc. people should be open to what people with depression has to say and not label it as a person who wants attention or a person who can't take a joke because that's not always the case

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thought #17

so my friend, she has depression too and when I told her about mine, she said it wasn’t a big deal because it was only major depression i mean, excuse me it doesn’t mean if it’s “just major depression” that you're gunna make me feel bad about it.

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thought #16

i dont like it when a teacher asks “so whos good at drawing/singing/dancing/english in this class? for an extracurricular activity/something school related”

i have terribly low self confidence and then they scream my name

im supposed to take it as a compliment i mean i do but it scares me the responsibility of making something and have it live up to their expectations

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thought #15

my friend sent me this message and it's the best one I've received in days not bc of her compliment to me but bc of the eye opener at the beginning and I just realized this now: I just realized that you are the one giving us advice, but when you're the one with a problem you dont know how to handle it. just don't take them seriously they just failed to see the truly amazing person I know you are

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thought #14

in these days I realized when its coming from people you truly care about, its 1, 000, 000 times worse than it already is.