tw👾active:may2021

not pro Ana for others, be safe! probably older than you sw:198 cw:179 gw:160 ugw:150 backup account: rollingwaves99

[dark-paradise996]

I wish I had more control over myself. I can make a full plan for the day/week an I always mess it up. I always over eat an dont work out enough 😒

[dark-paradise996]

I can't even look at myself unless I'm body checking 💀

[dark-paradise996]

Man a great feeling is when you put a shirt on an it doesn't touch your stomach when it used to be stuck to it

[dark-paradise996]

I'm 16 hours into my fast, hopefully will get all the way to 20 hours, I need coffee

[dark-paradise996]

Does anyone else feel like they want to throw up after they eat? Even when I want to eat an I eat a healthy meal I have the weird feeling like I want to throw it up 😬

[dark-paradise996]

Just wait until I'm skinny. I'm going to be hot af

[dark-paradise996]

Does anyone else wonder how things will be different when you lose weight? I always think of how people will be nice to me because I got pretty and how ill actually have friends and a sense of style

[dark-paradise996]

I'm not losing weight :( I seriously hurt my back so I'm trying my best to heal it but because of that I can't workout. I just need to remember that I don't want to make my back worse and everything will be back to normal once I'm better

[dark-paradise996]

First day of doing 12330. On a treadmill, 12 incline, 3.0 speed for 30 minutes. I only had time to do 20 minutes because I have terrible time management but I got through it, really got my heart rate up. Hopefully will see some changes from doing this for a while

[dark-paradise996]

Anyone else just sit on the floor and cry?

[dark-paradise996]

I'm going to start the 12330 challenge soon. It's getting on a treadmill and having the incline at 12, the speed at 3 and you do it for 30 minutes. I hate cardio so ill update how it goes

[dark-paradise996]

I always seem to struggle between wanting to be fit and strong with muscles or skinny and lean and fragile 😔 i just dont want to look like this anymore

[dark-paradise996]

I feel like I'm falling apart

[dark-paradise996]

Whats everyone's goals for this year? I've decided instead of my usual focusing on my ugw i will reach small goals so it won't seem so hard, 5 or 10 lbs at a time. Right now my goal is to lose 10 lbs by the first of march

[dark-paradise996]

I really thought I was losing weight, it felt like I was but in reality I gained 3 lbs. Fml 💀

[dark-paradise996]

Dear Santa,

All I want for Christmas is to reach my goal weight and to be happy with myself.

Thanks 💜

[dark-paradise996]

PSA!

Don't stare at people at the gym! Just had to complain about a creepy old man constantly looking at me an 2 other girls at the gym. I'm already Insecure enough so I don't need a creepy mad watching me work out! 😡