Welcome to my Undertakinh

I'm Sam. 24, 6 Foot. Waist: 44" 227.4Lbs. Pup born in the mountains of Western North Carolina. A believer in Goldman Anarchism, a student of Wolf Medicine, and Holistic Medicine. This is more then just a fitblr. This is a blog dedicated to awakening my Universal Light. I aspire to inspire, motivate, and challenge others as they follow my journey. Photos, tips, lectures, exercises, continuous updates and more will be posted. NOTE: A use of anonymity will be applied due to the personal nature of certain topics

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Daily Inspiration

Keep your mind clear, clean, and focused.

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3.10.17: Pause I need time to myself off the grid and away from the day to day distractions to understand these changes within myself. I need time without an audience

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Power through an "off" day and keep seeing results!

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On days where you feel like giving in just remember that feeling and remember WHY you started. "Don't cry to quit! You already in pain, you already hurt! Get a reward from it!"

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Here’s a reminder to never lose who you are at your core as you strive to become everything you dream 😊

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Here is your daily reminder to remember to DRINK WATER 😉

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You are your first priority

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Jan. 27, 2017

Weight: 227.4Lbs Waist: 41"

Day 61 of 400: Small Change is still Change

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Wolf Medicine

If Wolf has entered the forest of your mind, it may be to teach you…

That all things in nature have order amid chaos and to accept your duties in life, whether they be leadership roles or otherwise, with humility and strength.

To bring better balance to the varied interests of self, family and community.

To hone your own speaking skills to effectively relate your feelings and ideas in a good way

When a lone wolf is seen the wild it symbolizes freedom. When seen in a pack it represents community. If wolf appears to you alone or in a pack it is asking you to acquire the same within your own life.

Wolf teaches to know who you are and to develop strength and confidence.

Wolf is associated with the lunar influences and energies that rule psychic perception. They teach us to respect our emotions and face the darkness within.

The wolf is ritualistic. It knows the importance of regular lunar howling ceremonies and daily social rituals designed to communicate needs and express feelings. The message of your wolf spirit may be to honor the forces of spirituality and connect with the life forces of Mother Earth.

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…”True freedom requires sacrifice and pain. Most human beings only think they want freedom. In truth, they yearn for the bondage of social order, rigid laws, materialism. The only freedom man really wants is the freedom to be comfortable.”… - John Teller

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The reason I Rise and Grind every morning is because I have become tired and utterly exhausted down to my soul. 

I’ve become tired merely surviving this life; I desire to run this life, to thrive inside this life.

I’ve become tired of scraping by inside the unending rat race and never making any kind of headway

I’ve become tired of looking in the mirror and hating my own reflection.

I’ve become tired of not being able to help my family and friends because I’m so consumed by my own darkness that all I do is bleed all over them.

I Have Become TIRED

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The truth is my crucible didn't change me. It scraped away all the things that I wasn't, and revealed the person I always was; the light and this is my journey begins. “Sickening, weakening don’t let another somber pariah consume your soul you need strengthening, toughening it takes an inner dark to rekindle the fire burning in you ignite the fire within you. When you think all is forsaken, listen to me now you need never feel broken again sometimes darkness can show you the light” - Disturbed

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Sooner or later, we all go through a crucible. Most believe there are two types of people who go into a crucible. Those who become stronger from the experience and survive or those who die. But there's a third type; those who learn to love the fire and revel in their crucible because it's easier to embrace the pain when it's all you know anymore. Admittedly I became the third type, surrendering to everything that was trying to kill me until all that was left was a child alone in the dark. Like most children alone in the dark I went towards the light. So I ran, I ran as fast as my body would take until couldn't run anymore and I felt better. Something happens when you run as fast as your body will carry you, a freedom of the soul drowns out all sound, the world passes you by at a heart's rate, field of vision funnels into the immediate and suddenly you can touch the universe and all it holds for you.

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“I keep so much pain inside myself. I grasp my anger and loneliness and hold it in my chest. It has changed me into something I never meant to be. It has transformed me in a person I do not recognise; but I don’t know how to let it go.“ For so long I never made a conscious decision to have my life become one thing or another, It just happened before my eyes. Each day’s event was a catalyst for the next and I couldn’t see it; by the time the I was aware of what was happening, the darkness became my everyday existence. I found myself lost in my own soul; a place where I felt my beliefs, hopes, and passions surrender to my demons. I trusted few, feared most. Death offered escape and exile. To be honest I didn’t know if leaving would cure or kill this poison in my soul or would it follow me into the next, so I lived. I lived because, in the end, the only way I could know what happened next this was to suffer under the weight of it; under this Crucible.