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And what if i never know the warmth of another persons arms again

The love behind taking care of you when youre sick

Someone who sticks up for me

How would i ever find that with the world on fire the way it is

How do we even meet people these days

Dating apps perpetuate hookup culture

The only place to meet people in real life is the bar

And so what if my body withers away without anything to show for my life

When the worms are eating me all they will taste is the love i had for others

Who needs money or fancy things when you are rich in love

Just fucking jump already

Why am i so scared of failure

As tho if i take the leap and im not immediately good at whatever it is ill go falling into the abyss

As if perfection doesnt take any work

Sitting there looking around comparing my work to my peers around me with a weight on my chest

As if life isnt innately subjective as is art or anything creative im trying to accomplish

As if theres some guide im reading from, some rule book i have to follow and if i dont the sky will fall

But there is no rule book

Theres no guide to life

I can do absolutely whatever i put my mind too

If i just stop letting fear dig his fingers into the depths of my soul

But how do i get him to release his grasp when he is my closest lifelong friend.

You are not damaged just because you feel unstable

You are not unlovable just because someone told you so

You are not less than anyone because of the way you look

You are worthy of love

You deserve respect

You deserve kindness and compassion

You deserve to be treated as an equal

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theunfortunate-author

my daily affirmation as an author

“Im not gonna make it”

Those where your last words

Pleading with me to tell the 911 operators to come faster

Those words still ring in my ears 3 years later

I sat in the driveway waiting for the ambulance to leave for what felt like an eternity

But really was only 20 minutes, still 20 minutes too long

They told me around 2am that you had lost oxygen to your brain for too long

I had my college class the next day

All i could hear was your voice telling me

“Life stops for no one, time stops for no one”

So i went

With swollen beat red eyes that still had tears leaking from them that i was incapable of stopping

Messy, disheveled, and out of dresscode attire

But i showed up for my responsibilities

Later that term i was used as an example of resilience to the class

Because despite you passing the week prior i showed up and did my presentation

Of course it always fills me with pride when told how strong i am because of how much ive been through

But something about resilience leaves a sour taste in my mouth now

As if it’s something thats done to me

A poison slipped into my chalace by any allie ive ever cared for or allowed in

But i was resilient

Because thats what you wouldve wanted

But what i wouldve wanted was for you to have made it

They said you where sick longer then you said

I try not to be angry but its so damn hard when you took you from me

You made me watch you go

Forever to be haunted by

“Im not gonna make it”

And a symbol of resilience.

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And ill think of you

On silly little holidays like st patricks day

Because im missing your corned beef and cabbage

Or on a Tuesday

When im fighting with my mom and id normally call

Driving down the road you taught me on

And tears will well in my eyes every time

Sometimes happy tears, remembering the good

Sometimes those of grief and sorrow

And ill think of you

When i enroll my daughter into school

And when i walk across the stage in a cap and gown myself

Knowing you two where there

Just simply a picture frame stealing a chair

I know those things seem so juvenile to others

But i was thinking of you

And ill think of you during every success

Because you should be here to celebrate

And ill think of you for every shortcoming

Because you should be here to be my safe spaces

Its been 13 years for one of you

3 for the other

Something with our family and their odd numbers

Like him leaving us 3/13/13

Or you 5/5/23

Or your father, his date was a series of threes as well

I dont recall those as clearly unfortunately

But both of you on the others birthday

That fact brings some peace

All that pain, atleast you two where together

Meant to be that way

Fated even

Almost justifying the fact that the universe stole you from me

Maybe one day ill be just as lucky

Until then ill think of you

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Well atleast i got a few good poems out of this one, everything is fleeting after all

Anger burns in my chest as if incinerating it from the inside out

Grief makes my stomach turn like im going to be physically ill

Sadness is some amalgamation of the two

Embarrassment sears my face and straightens my spine with pins and needles

Happiness sends so much electricity through my body my eyes well with tears

Excitement leaves me so giddy and euphoric im often described as squirrelly

Peace leaves me on edge with the hairs on the back of my neck standing up

Most of the time i absolutely despise feeling everything as intensely as i do

Until im happy

And then its all worth the pain

Maybe peace can feel that way too

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pantserspen

Words that Paint

If you write the a story, you only have to say one word 'castle' and you can see the towers and the woods and the village below... but in a play it's... it all depends on other people—Briony Tallis~Atonement

Words that don't need descriptions:

Emotional

furious, giddy, bitter, hollow, defeated, smug, frantic, exhausted, wary, restless, confident, stubborn, timid, reckless, withdrawn, tight-lipped, icy, warmhearted, guarded, bold

Atmosphere & Moods

eerie, bleak, vibrant, desolate, cozy, chaotic, tranquil, dim, hazy, crisp, humid, bustling, silent, radiant, suffocating, shimmering

Sensory Words

icy, gritty, velvety, sticky, metallic, bitter, smoky, silky, jaggid, smooth, musky, sour, fragrant, sharp, throbbing

Movement

stomped, staggered, slumped, glided, lunged, trembled, tiptoed, bolted, fidgeted, recoiled, clenched, shuddered, froze, loitered

Appearance

breathtaking, stiking, elegant, radiant, luminous, rugged, delicate, haunting, graceful, exquisite, polished, weathered, imposing

syllabish

Words to use instead of 'Interesting'

fascinating

intriguing

captivating: capable of attracting and holding interest; charming

engaging: charming and attractive

compelling: evoking interest in an irresistible way

absorbing: especially interesting; engrossing

enchanting: delightfully charming or attractive

riveting: completely engrossing; compelling

stimulating: arousing interest or enthusiasm

thought-provoking: stimulating careful consideration

mesmerizing: capturing one's complete attention as if by magic

remarkable: worthy of attention; striking

noteworthy: significant and/or unusual

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more words to describe your character's feelings

Doubt

begrudge, controvert, despair, disapprove, disbelieve, discountenance, dissent, fume, hesitate, lovelorn, mind, mistrust, objection, oppugn, question, reject, repudiate, rue, scruple, skepticism, suspect, wonder

Elated

affect, alleviate, appeal, appeasement, arrest, attract, awe, bedazzle, bemuse, brighten, charm, defuse, divert, elevate, enamor, encourage, endear, enliven, enthrall, enticement, excite, fascinate, fortify, galvanize, gladden, gratify, hearten, inflame, inspire, interest, invigorate, lighten, matter, perk up, prod, rally, reassure, rouse, satisfy, strike, tantalize, temper, tickle, touch, wake/waken, whet

Fear

apprehension, dismay, horror, panic, terror, trepidation

Hate

abhor, abominate, aggression, anger, antagonism, atrocity, bad blood, blow up, burn, deplore, detest, disdain, disinclination, disrespect, dissent, enmity, execrate, frown, fury, horror, incivility, inhumanity, lament/lamentation, loathe, malice, odium, outrage, pique, rancor, resent, revulsion, seethe, spite, umbrage, venom, wrath

Love

acceptance, admiration, adoration, adulation, affection, amour, appreciate, approval, attention, bask, bewitched, canonize, charity, consideration, constancy, delight in, dig, discrimination, dote on/dote upon, enamored, enjoy, esteem, exult, fall for, fascinated, favor, flame, fond, get a kick out of, gratitude, idolize, leaning, like, mad, mercy, passion, predilection, prize, rapture, respect, revere/reverence, savor, taste, thrill, treasure, venerate, zeal

Of concern

afraid, alarm, anxiety, apprehension, concern, craze, dismay, distraction, distress, encumbrance, feeling, foreboding, guilt, hang up, horror, jitters, jumpy, misgiving, obsession, one-track mind, passion, petrified, puzzled, question, suspicion, terror, trouble, weight, wonder, worry

Surprise

alarm, appall, astound, backfire, bedazzle, bewilder, confound, dazzle, dumbfound, electrify, frighten, overwhelm, petrify, shock, startle, stun, stupefy, terrify

NOTE

The above are concepts classified according to subject and usage. It not only helps writers and thinkers to organize their ideas but leads them from those very ideas to the words that can best express them.

It was, in part, created to turn an idea into a specific word. By linking together the main entries that share similar concepts, the index makes possible creative semantic connections between words in our language, stimulating thought and broadening vocabulary.

Source ⚜ Writing Basics & Refreshers ⚜ On Vocabulary Definitions of Emotions in Psychology ⚜ More Word Alternatives for Emotions

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words for when your characters ______

Agree

accede, acceptance, accord, acknowledgment, acquiescence, align, avowal, bear, cohere, compromise, consent, contract, draft, enlist, give in/give up, go along/go along with, grant, negotiate, unanimous, yield

Deny

abjure, abuse, affront, attack, backstab, bad-mouth, belie, blacken, blemish, confront, curse, darn, defamation, defile, demur, denigrate, detract, dig, disclaim, discountenance, disgrace, disown, disparagement, downplay, explode, flout, fulminate, gainsay, gird, invective, jeer, lament, lecture, malign, minimize, mouth, needle, oppose, protest, put down, put-down, rebuff, refute, remonstrate, renunciation, run down, satirize, scold, show up, sit-in, slander, smear, snap, snub, squeal, sully, swearing, taunt, tirade, turn, underestimate, vituperation, write off, yammer

Explain

account for, admit, apprise, cite, clarify, come clean, concede, confirm, corroborate, defense, demonstrate, dilate, elucidate, enlighten, evidence, expand, explicate, gloss, illustrate, itemize, let on, palliate, plea, prove, recite, simplify, speak out/speak up, spell out, translator, warrant

Fabricate

aspersion, belie, disprove, profane

Inform

acknowledge, address, advertise, allow, allusion, apprise, bare, betrayal, blab, breathe, briefing, broadcast, chronicle, clue, come out with, confession, convey, debunk, define, detail, dictate, divulge, expose, feature, furnish, give, gossip, hint, intimate, issue, lecture, newscaster, orate, out of the closet, pass, post, proclaim, promulgate, publication, publish, release, reveal, show up, speak, spill, squeal, talk, tip, uncover, unveil, weatherperson, whisper

Instruct

bar, educate, prescribe

Persuade

advance, argument, bend, budge, carry, coerce, convince, discourage, draw, drum up, elicit, entice, forward, goad, hammer away/hammer into, induce, influence, invite, lobby, motivate, negotiation, pitch, prevail upon/prevail on, prompt, reason, spur, sway, urge, win/win over

Promise

assurance, avow, commitment, ensure, go back/go back on, oath, portend, vouch, warrant, word

Suggest

advice, advocate, ask, come up with, connote, drum into, exhort, fish for, get at, guide, imply, insinuate, moralize, move, nomination, pontificate, preach, propose, recommend, urge

Praise

accent, acclamation, accredit, adulation, apotheosis, applause, benediction, bless, champion, citation, commend, compliment, congratulations, credit, dedicate, deify, elevate, endorse, eulogize, exalt, extol, flatter, flattery, glorify, homage, laud, lionize, obsequy, plaudits, puff, salute, thanks, tribute, worship

Warn

admonish, alert, caution, caveat, defy, enjoin, exhortation, foreboding, foretell, page, remind, warning

NOTE

Source ⚜ Writing Basics & Refreshers ⚜ On Vocabulary

When im anxious, the rhythm of my heart matches your stomps

A sound i could still recognize to this day

When i doubt myself, yours is the voice i hear

Telling me to be quiet, or I’m not good enough

Im too dramatic, too emotional, i need help

Comparing me to my father and his rage

As if being related to him is some biological curse to be just as volatile

A constant inability to control myself and my outbursts