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what does it mean when a boy tells a girl that he likes her character and that she is a cool girl ?

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btw, FUCK PHYSICS

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so, hear me out i had a friend. i mean we are still friends. but we were sooooo soo close. like she was my soul mate sortof friends. we are related by family. we have met each other before and all but we had this urge to spend a day alone. so we did. we did. we talked a lot walked alot. yeh had solid fun. but after she left i didnt want to see her again. i felt no pain. i didnt want her anymore. i never texted her for a solid month. neither did she. was that day enough for the two of us? isnt there any more of us ? wtf just happened? im concluding that we no more have anything for each other. i didnt even try to reach out. wtfffff

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yesssss

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got chemistry exam today. hope i dont fuck myself. this is the first exam of the academic year.

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why wont you look into my eyes, girl?

what is wrong with you?

are you afraid that i might get lost in those depthless blues?

dont worry

i wont ,

cause your eyes aint blue they are brown

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should i talk to her or should i ignore her?

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“Trust yourself. You’ve survived a lot, and you’ll survive whatever is coming.”

— Unknown

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i needed this today. i just lost my school council election

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My Many Loves

The first person I fell in love with was named Mason, we were in elementary school and he was cute and we were friends. He had blue hair. I want my hair to be blue.

The second person I fell in love with was named Jake, he made me laugh and feel good about myself. He was kind. I wrote a story with him once. I love to write.

The third person I fell in love with was named Leah, she was the first real one. At the time she was a safe space and was the only place I could sleep. She let me rest on her. I don’t do that much anymore.

The fourth person I fell in love with was named Viv. She was a senior when I was a freshman. She was cool and loved everything spooky. I love horror movies.

The fifth and sixth people I fell in love with were named Will and Mary, they were the ones who made me laugh and cry all throughout my weeks away from home. While I may talk a lot more about one than the other, I truly love them both the same. They live far away from me. I want to travel the world

The seventh person I fell in love with was my best friend. It wasn’t the same type of love as the others but just as strong. While the others one day left he always stuck around. He is my safe space, my hairdresser, horror watcher, world traveler, and co-author of life

Love has come for me in many forms but no matter the type it has repeatedly changed me. While I may not have anything physical for all my loves I will always have the impact they have had on me.

Find your loves <3

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loved this one

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As a bi person, reading any sort of queer romance hurts my heart so fucking much. The awakening, coming out, realisations, love declaration, happily ever after fills me with so much longing. And to know, I won't be able to get this ever, it is like knowing I am doomed for life.

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true !

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What is wrong ?

so today there was this seminar and this girl with whom im having this trouble was sitting just behind me . our school election is tomorrow. im a candidate hence i asked her if she would vote for me . thats first thing i have talked to her in a week. bruh she stared into oblivion. fuck fuck fuck. she stared into fucking oblivion like nothing happened. as the person who was taking the seminar was standing behind us , obviously sitting in the front seat i had to turn back and obviously i will have to look at her cause she is just behind me. and this girl wont give me eye contact. she lowers her eyes whenever she has to look in my direction. this is ghosting is too much. at times i want to shake her ask her to look into my eyes and i want to ask her what the hell is wrong with her

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School Election

guess what? today was our day for campaigning officially as candidates. i volunteered first to do my speech so that i give a good impression but for fucking god's sake i forgot to say my name and when i said thank you the principal was like,"hey child you didnt say the name ". thats the most awkard thing i could go through today. ah fuck. many thought it was part of the script but hell no . no no no. i thought i did say my name. but surprising myself i handled the situation pretty well

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Something happened. I told my new friend that I'm bisexual. She was fine with it. She told me that she was excited about the fact that she got a bisexual friend and stuff. Later she told me the next day that she told the info to her mother and room mate. That was the last time we talked peacefully. Then she went back to hostel mid day. The next morning she flinched when i touched her shoulders. During practicals i asked her if i had done something wrong. and she told that she is straight and that she thinks that i have feelings for her so she want some distance. for the past few days she is a bit aloof from others. did i fuck up?

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why am i so dumb?

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fuck me, i spend 45 minutes searching for a drawing piece to draw and still got nothing ...........oh fuck