redemancy
🌙 staring. Johnny & Jaehyun x afab!Reader
🔮 preview. “Jaehyun can go dance with you-” Johnny agrees and your heart swells at his innocence, his complete lack of jealousy towards your best friend Jaehyun, who, you’re beginning to realize, may provide a legitimate threat that your previous lovers were picking up on.
tw/cw. Threesome, unprotected sex, dirty talk, oral, masturbation, 69-ing, face riding, soft dom!Johnny, blowjobs, pussy eating, multiple reader orgasms, deep throating, cumming on tits, cumplay, finger sucking, cum licking, breast worship, voyeurism, praise, power dynamics, double penetration, spit rosing/Eiffel tower, etc… I pet names: (hers) princess & baby.
👹 rating.18+ explicit I wc. 11.9k
🍭 aus. uni au, summer aesthetic, best friends to lovers, love triangle, angst, etc…
☀️ mlist + an. redemancy meaning: the act of loving someone who loves you, a love returned in full
“This is where your best friend lives?” Johnny asks, looking up at the expensive building, “Does she have roommates?”
Before you can answer, your eyes land on Jaehyun. He’s standing in front of his apartment, head dipped to look at his phone.
“There he is!” You point, and Johnny momentarily takes his eyes off of the road so he can follow your finger.
“He? Your best friend is a guy?” You can see Johnny taking in Jaehyun’s form in your peripheral vision. Your best friend looks gorgeous, as usual, his hair recently dyed a beautiful shade of rose gold pink. “Your best friend is that guy?” Johnny nearly crashes just looking at him.
“Yeah! That’s Jaehyun,” you answer.
Johnny’s not the first guy to react to Jaehyun this way. Many of the guys you’ve dated in the past have responded to your best friend in a similar manner; fear, jealousy... It’s not your fault your best friend is so beautiful.
Johnny parks the car and you’re quick to jump out, running towards Jaehyun, who turns, a smile lighting up his face, eyes scrunching with delight at the sight of you.
The two of you haven’t seen each other in a month. He’d gone on vacation with his family to New York, and you’ve missed his hugs.
You’d started dating Johnny right before Jaehyun left, and in the month that your best friend has been away, you and Johnny have become closer and closer.
Johnny’s met a few of your other friends - Ten and Mark - but he hasn’t met Jaehyun yet, and you’re excited to see if they get along. After all, you can’t have a boyfriend who doesn’t get along with Jaehyun.
You’ve had boyfriends before who couldn’t handle the close relationship you have with Jaehyun, and this unfortunate fact is one of the reasons you’ve kept Jaehyun more of a secret this time around. You hope Johnny likes you too much to let Jaehyun’s looks come between the two of you as they have in the past.
Some men just aren't strong enough to let their girlfriends be best friends with a guy who looks like a model, but you push that thought to the side.
Jaehyun scoops you up in his arms, lifting you off the ground and twirling you. He’s warm, and he smells like home, a smell you’ve missed this past month.
Johnny gets out of his car hesitantly, approaching you and Jaehyun. The two of you are a flurry of questions and answers, you’re pulling at Jaehyun’s hair, inspecting the colour, and Jaehyun is commenting on the cute new shirt you’re wearing.
It takes you a moment to notice Johnny, in the flurry of addressing Jaehyun, you’d almost forgotten about the new important man in your life. However, Johnny clearly doesn’t mind and smiles broadly when you immediately pull him to your side, wrapping your arms around him. “And this is Johnny!” you introduce. “Johnny, this is Jaehyun, my best friend.”
Jaehyun’s grin has dropped. His gaze turning harsh, judgmental, as he takes in Johnny’s form. “He’s tall,” Jaehyun notes. “You never told me he was tall.”
Jaehyun has always enjoyed being larger than the boys you bring around. Even though Jaehyun is an inch or two shorter than Johnny, his gaze is enough to intimidate anyone, even the Chicago native you’re currently clinging to.
“Be nice, Jaejae,” you scold, gently prodding Jaehyun’s shin with the toe of your shoe as you lace your fingers with Johnny’s.
“How long have you two been friends?” Johnny asks, evidently searching for a conversation starter. Johnny’s not normally an awkward guy, but this situation is tense, and you get the distinct feeling that he wants to resolve it.
“Since we were kids,” Jaehyun answers, his words short, his expression disinterested.
“We’ve had classes together since kindergarten,” you confirm. “Even though Jaehyun’s a business major, we coordinated electives to have classes together while in uni too.”
“Oh wow,” Johnny nods, and you ca see that his smile is somewhat forced.
Your phone dings and you look down. “Ten and Mark just left their place, we should go now and meet them at the club,” you announce, turning to beam up at Johnny, pressing a delicate kiss to his cheek. “Thanks again for offering to pick Jae up.”
Johnny had agreed to pick up your best friend to go clubbing and celebrate their return to town, he hadn’t known your best friend was Jaehyun.
The three of you head back to Johnny’s car, you and Jaehyun chatting while Johnny listens. In Johnny’s car, Jaehyun sits in the middle of the back seat so he can lean forward and continue talking with you. You attempt to let Johnny into the conversation, but with so much history with Jaehyun, it’s clear that a lot is lost on the man driving.
Johnny holds your hand most of the ride, thumb brushing your skin pleasantly, as if to tell you ‘It’s okay, I’m going to make this work.’
Soon, you arrive at the bar, and once you’re there it’s easy enough to find Ten and Mark. Ten has a table that pretty much has his name etched into it, and that’s made possible by the fact that he’s close friends with a bunch of the Chinese frat boys who work here.
Johnny and Jaehyun quickly offer to go get drinks, and the two of them disappear into the crowd, leaving you with Mark and Ten who are eager to gossip.
Sure, Mark and Ten have met Johnny a few times, but this is the first time he’s meeting Jaehyun... and that’s a big deal, something everyone understands.
“Jaehyun doesn’t seem to like Johnny,” Ten states bluntly, leaning in to talk to you.
“They just met, Jaehyun never likes any of my boyfriends.”
“So he’s your boyfriend now?” Ten smirks, kicking Mark under the table to encourage the Canadian to show some enthusiasm at this development.
“No,” you immediately wave your hand, “not officially, but you know what I mean. Jaehyun hates guys I go on dates with.”
“I wonder why.” Ten sips his drink and you roll your eyes at him.
“Don’t start with the whole ‘Jaehyun is in love with you’ thing,” you warn him.
“I’m just saying, it’s September, school is starting, summer is ending, it’s just like the time when-” Mark shoves Ten with his shoulder, drawing your attention to Johnny and Jaehyun who are back with drinks.
“Beer!” Johnny announces, setting a cup down in front of Ten. He doesn’t seem to have heard the end of Ten’s comment, but Jaehyun on the other hand... his gaze is hard for a moment, jaw clenching. Then, he seems to snap out of it, a smile once more appearing on his lips.
Jaehyun playfully grabs your arm and pulls you from the booth so he can slide in, dragging you after him. Johnny gets in on your other side and just like that, you’re sandwiched between two massive, gorgeous men.
“Did we miss anything?” Johnny asks, looking at you and your friends.
Ten dives into the bar gossip, leaning in and pointing out different bar tenders who are sleeping with certain waitresses and other employees. You drown out the conversation quickly, as you’ve heard these details way too many times before. Instead, you focus on the men beside you.
Jaehyun’s thigh is next to yours, his hand on your knee under the table, which isn’t too out of the ordinary, he’s always been a touchy best friend.
Johnny has an arm wrapped around you, keeping you tucked close to his side as he begins to talk with Ten about their majors. You’re happy that Ten seems to like Johnny more and more every time they meet, and Mark is laughing at everything the elder man says.
The only friend staying quiet is Jaehyun, who sits next to you with a bored-looking expression on his face.
He sips his beer.
Your mind wanders back to what Ten had said.
The season, the aesthetic of summer ending and school beginning.
You’d been in a very different position a year ago.
You’re suddenly very aware of Jaehyun next to you. You can feel your skin heating up, can feel the coil of anxiety in your tummy. “Johnny?” you grab his attention and the tall man dips his head to look down at you, waiting for you to say something. “Come dance with me?”
“You sure you want to dance right now?” he asks, looking at your nearly untouched drink.
“Yes, you don’t want to dance with me?” you frown.
“I do,” Johnny assures you, a warm smile on his face, “but Ten was just saying-”
“I’ll go with you,” comes Jaehyun’s smooth, steady voice.
“Jaehyun can go with you-” Johnny agrees and your heart swells at his innocence, his complete lack of jealousy towards Jaehyun, who, you’re beginning to realize, may provide a legitimate threat that your previous lovers were picking up on.
“No. I want you,” you tell Johnny sternly, not meaning for it to come out as harsh as it does. You know you’re leaving Jaehyun dejected as you slip into the crowd with Johnny, but you can’t look back.
Jaehyun watches you leave, holding onto your tall boy toy like a lifeline as you wade into the people on the dance floor. Then, when you’re out of sight, Jaehyun turns his angry gaze to Ten, “Stop trying to wingman me with her.”
Mark giggles, watching the two stubborn men size each other up.
“You need to tell her how you feel,” Ten says.
“No, I don’t.” Jaehyun glares back.
“Do you think she told Johnny about it?” Mark asks quietly.
“It.” Ten laughs, “Mark are you a kid? Just say what happened, ask the question properly.” He looks to Jaehyun. “Do you think she told Johnny about the time she graciously let you eat her out at the end of the summer, last year?”
“I don’t think she even told Johnny I was a dude.” Jaehyun falls back against the booth.
Mark and Ten both look at each other and grimace. “That’s not good.”
“I know,” Jaehyun groans.
“She really likes Johnny,” Ten says almost thoughtfully.
Jaehyun looks out at the crowd, it’s easy enough to find Johnny because he’s taller than the other people around. Johnny’s head is dipped down, his lips pressed against yours, one hand cupping your cheek.
Something inside Jaehyun ignites and his hands clench at his sides. He finishes his drink, then stands up, entering the crowd. He finds the prettiest girl he can, the prettiest girl other than you, and within ten minutes he has her pressed against the door in the bathroom, his hand between her legs.
It’s two AM when Jaehyun looks at his phone next. He’s standing on his terrace, the warm night air ruffling his hair. Inside his room, a gorgeous brunette is asleep in a tangle of sheets. Jaehyun’s eyes scan the text message you’d sent an hour ago, and he feels a twinge of guilt at having missed it.
Baby (1:02AM) : Let me know you made it home safe!
Jaehyun takes a deep breath, quickly typing back.
Your phone screen lights up the room, making you open your eyes from the restless half-slumber you’d been trying to use as a distraction.
Behind you, Johnny is asleep, one of his arms thrown over your torso.
You slide from bed slowly, moving so you can go stand outside on Johnny’s terrace. It’s a beautiful night and the moon looks gorgeous in the sky as you assess your phone.
JaeJae (2:06AM) : Got home safe, hope you did too
JaeJae (2:08AM) : Goodnight, sleep well princess : )
You call him before you can stop yourself, and he answers immediately, voice hushed.
“Hey,” you say.
“Hi. What are you doing still awake?” he asks softly.
“Couldn’t sleep without knowing you’d gotten home, you know?” You shrug, pulling Johnny’s hoodie tighter around your body. Three stories below, a cop car drives by, the siren cutting through the summer night air.
You hear your best friend smile on his end of the phone. “You outside?”
“Yeah, you?”
“Uh-huh.” A brief quiet, then, “the moon is nice.”
Your gaze lifts. “It is…” You open your mouth to say something else when you hear a female voice call out “Jae” in a whiney tone that has your skin turning cold.
“Fuck, I have to go.”
Your heart drops in your chest, but you try to sound positive when you say, “Yeah, it’s okay, you should sleep, I’ll see you soon?”
“We’ll do movie night tomorrow,” he suggests. “I’ll text you.”
“Okay, goodnight.”
“Night princess.” He hangs up and you let out a deep breath.
You stay outside for a few minutes longer, looking at the sky. When you head inside, returning under the covers, Johnny pulls you close, burying his face in your neck. “Where were you?” he asks.
“Outside,” you answer, breathing in as Johnny’s body warms you up, his lips pressing soft kisses to your skin. “Go back to sleep,” you whisper softly, turning in Johnny’s arms so you can run your fingers through his hair, looking at his beautiful face.
Johnny gives you a gentle, lazy smile, pouting out his lips for one last kiss before he adjusts against his pillow. Within moments he’s asleep again.
You stay awake for a while, thinking about the events of tonight. Jaehyun had disappeared when you’d come back from the dance floor. What was supposed to be a get-together for Jaehyun and Johnny to get comfortable with each other, had turned into something else. But part of you can’t blame Jaehyun for slipping away, not after you’d been so clear about rejecting his offer of dancing with you, insisting that Johnny be the one to join you amongst the waves of people.
With another huff, you close your eyes, falling asleep a short while later.
When you dream, you dream of dark, handsome eyes. The eyes are not attached to a body, instead, they float in a cloud of colors, some dark, some light. You feel warm, and even in your sleep, you can feel yourself smiling.
“Jae, why are you always single?” you had asked, cuddled close to your best friend.
Jaehyun laughed. “Cuz I’m ugly,” he responded simply, although you both knew this to be the opposite of the truth.
You smacked your best friend lightly, beaming up at him. “Don’t say that about yourself.” You paused, examining his face. “For real. Don’t you ever want to have a girlfriend?”
He’d had one in sixth grade for a week, but that had been the only time in his life he’d ever had an official ‘girlfriend’. You were heading into another year of university, and the summer had been full of fun activities. You’d both been single, and this had given you the freedom to spend every waking moment together, driving around, going to amusement parks, scouring old record shops-
Jaehyun shrugged. “Don’t need one.”
You rolled your eyes at him. “I know you can get laid whenever you want Jae, but I mean don’t you want the other stuff? Someone to come home to, someone to give pet names to, and love, and take home to meet your parents-”
As you listed things, Jaehyun wondered if you even realized that everything you mentioned were things he already had... with you.
He watched your beautiful face with a smile, and finally, he shrugged again. “I just don’t like commitment.” It was true, you were the only thing in his life he’d ever been committed to, the only thing he needed. Anything else, he was ready to drop at a moment’s notice, and he enjoyed living that way.
You frowned at his words. “Is it really that easy for you to just turn feelings off? To sleep with people and just... not care about them afterward?”
“I don’t know if it’s like that.” He rubbed the back of his neck. “I care sometimes, I just don’t catch feels, there’s a difference. Sex can be just sex. If two people are horny, why not have some fun, you know?”
He’d watched the way you’d licked your lips at his words, and the sight turned him on more than he’d ever be able to tell you.
“So... if I was horny, and I asked you for sex, we could do that and it wouldn’t change our friendship at all?” you asked, clearly scared to meet his gaze. He could sense your fear of rejection, and it was a fear he wanted to quickly squash.
“Of course,” Jaehyun answered fluidly, his tone turning teasing. “Why, are you horny?”
“It's just, people have always said you have amazing tongue game, and well-”
“You want to know if it’s true because most guys you’ve slept with have sucked at oral.” Jaehyun finished your sentence for you, something he’d been doing since you were kids.
Mimicking his earlier action, you shrugged, and that was all it took to give Jaehyun permission. His fingers went under your chin, forcing you to look up at him, and then he kissed you for the first time.
He’d wondered for years what kissing you would be like, but he’d never dared to try, to worried about how it would affect your friendship. But you’d just confirmed that nothing would have to change, there wouldn’t be any messy feelings with this. He could kiss you now, and still have you in his life tomorrow.
You leaned into the kiss, and Jaehyun could sense that you felt you had something to prove- to prove to him that you were just as good as any of the sorority girls or Instagram models he’d fucked.
He pulled you onto his lap, hands anchoring your waist, forcing you to grind down against him. He could feel his cock throbbing for you already, if only you knew how crazy you make him. A small whine escaped your lips and Jaehyun smirked, eating it up. “Ready to see what all the fuss is about?”
The music is loud, but then again, Jaehyun’s always had the best speakers to complement his extensive record collection. You’re dancing in his kitchen, waiting for the popcorn to pop in the microwave.
Your hips are moving to the beat of the song, and you don’t realize that Jaehyun’s eyes are glued to you.
Ten was right about summer feelings, and Jaehyun’s chest is empty while he watches you.
Life with you has always been easy. So easy that he’s somehow taken it for granted.
Jaehyun wants to tell you everything. Wants to tell you that he had lied when he said he could control whether or not he caught feelings. Wants to tell you that his heart has been yours since that day you were five and scraped your knee on the playground, he’d been assigned to take you to the nurse and had held your hand the whole way there, even kissed your bandaged knee, announcing ‘all better’ to the world.
He wants to tell you what he should have told you the moment he’d made you cum on his tongue last August, that he loves you. That he wants you to be his.
But Jaehyun is terrified of you. Terrified that you only see him as a friend, that the sex proposition you’d given him nearly a year ago had been purely physical.
He thought he could live a life with you as his half-girlfriend, fulfilling all the girlfriend duties minus the sex, which he could get at any time from any girl he wanted. But now Jaehyun knows that this idea was stupid, because seeing you with guys- seeing you with Johnny, has made him realize he could lose you.
Jaehyun had originally invited you to go on vacation with his family for a month, but you’d chosen to stay because you’d already planned a weekend getaway with Johnny and the dates had clashed. Jaehyun had even offered to fly you to meet his family a week late, but you’d declined.
The whole month he’d been gone he’d been missing you, hoping he could come back and things would return to normal, only to return and find you clinging to Johnny and happier than ever.
Jaehyun’s heart clenches in his chest.
He’s been called selfish before, but never when it comes to you.
Looking at you dance in the kitchen, he wants to be selfish for the first time.
As the microwave dings, signaling your food is done, you turn to excitedly tell Jaehyun, only to be met with a solid body standing so close you nearly smack into his chest.
Jaehyun grabs your face with both his hands, and before you can say anything, he presses his lips to yours.
He tastes just like he did a year ago, and the emotions all come flooding back. The confusion, the heartache- but despite this, the happy feelings are there too. The love that you’ve tried so hard to bury is unearthed, and your mind goes blank. You lean into the kiss-
Your phone rings and you nearly jump out of Jaehyun’s grasp, recognizing Johnny’s special ringtone that the two of you had chosen one day while on a coffee date. American Boy by Estelle, a song Johnny ‘identifies with’.
Until now, the song has always made you happy.
But standing in Jaehyun’s kitchen, with both of you staring at your phone, instead of happiness, the emotion you feel is guilt.
You begin to reach for your phone but Jaehyun grabs your hand instead, urging you to look at him. “Don’t answer it,” he says, voice cracking a little. His eyes are serious and they search yours for a sign, for something to tell him how you’re feeling.
“Jae-”
You know he loves the nickname you have for him, and part of you regrets it the moment it leaves you, because you’re sure that it will give him hope. You close your mouth, not sure where to look, so you look at the ground.
“Tell me you love me,” His voice is soft, as soft as you’ve ever heard it.
“I do love you,” you sigh.
His hand is still holding yours, and he gives it a small squeeze. “Tell me you love me more than him.”
Your heart clenches in your chest and you can feel your skin heating up. You’re confused and guilty, and you feel as if he’s pressuring you, which is not a good combination.
Jaehyun’s fingers go under your chin, forcing you to look up at his beautiful dark eyes. He looks so perfect, and it’s always taken your breath away, but now, with an uncharacteristically vulnerable expression on his face, he’s ethereal.
“Tell me you’ll be mine,” Jaehyun whispers, “not his.”
Those last two words - not his - spark something inside of you and you tear your hand from Jaehyun’s grasp.
“I can’t believe you,” you spit, anger fuelling into your soul. “You always get like this, you’re so competitive. It feels like every time I’m with a guy, you get so upset that I’m giving my attention to someone else. You’ve had years, Jae. Years to tell me you love me and-” You choke a little on your words and laugh. “You know the funny part? You haven’t even said it. You’ve been trying to get me to tell you that I love you- not even just that, you want me to tell you I love you more than Johnny!”
“You know I love you.” Jaehyun looks crushed, a pained expression on his face, and you’re aware that you’ve never yelled at him like this.
“I was in love with you for years, Jae!” You feel tears begin to spill from your eyes and you will them to disappear. “But you never wanted commitment! You never wanted me!”
“I did! I do!” he insists. “I just never realized-”
“Never realized,” you scoff, repeating his words back to him. “You’re just mad Johnny’s getting my attention. How dare you! How dare you see how happy Johnny makes me and try to mess that up after you’ve had years to say something!” You grab your phone and go to the door, leaving your purse and your shoes, too eager to escape to care. You simply leave, and Jaehyun doesn’t follow.
It isn't until he sits down on the couch minutes later that he realizes something. “I was in love with you for years, Jae!” you’d said. Was. As in, past tense.
As in, no longer.
Jaehyun pulls a pillow to his chest, the one you always cuddle with when you watch movies. It still smells like you. Jaehyun buries his face in your scent, and for the first time in a long time, he allows himself to cry.
Johnny’s chest is warm and secure. His arms hold you tightly as you cry, one of his hands petting the back of your head gently as you get rid of all the negativity balled up inside of you with tears that seem to last forever.
When you finally stop crying, Johnny sets you down on the couch, wrapping you in blankets and getting you tissues. He doesn’t ask what’s wrong, he’s always very good at knowing the right time to be quiet and give you space. You’re sure he knows you’ll tell him what’s wrong when you’re able to.
As you begin to calm down, Johnny makes you your favorite tea, bringing it to you in a mug with your first initial on it, he’s bought it for his apartment two weeks into dating to show you that you always have a place, and a cup, in his apartment.
Your phone rings and Johnny looks at it. “It’s Mark,” he tells you. “Should I answer?”
You shake your head and Johnny sets your phone down.
A few seconds later it rings again. “It’s Ten,” Johnny says softly.
“Just turn it off,” you frown, and Johnny does as he’s told, watching you sip your tea.
“Can I get you anything else, baby?” he asks.
You shake your head, staying quiet.
“Baby, if you don’t tell me what happened soon, I’m going to have to go out and start fighting people in the street. Whoever made my girlfriend cry is gonna-”
“Girlfriend?” You perk up a little and Johnny laughs.
He reaches out and pinches your chin lightly. “Knew that would make you smile,” he beams, “and yeah, I mean... unless you don’t want to be, unless it’s too soon.”
You set your tea down and nearly tackle Johnny onto the couch, making him laugh into the kiss that you eagerly press to his lips.
“Wow, baby, if I knew it was this easy to make you happy I would have asked you to be my girlfriend ages ago,” Johnny says when you finally stop kissing him.
You laugh at the notion. “No, ages ago would have been too soon.”
You’re laying on top of him on the couch, your legs on either side of his waist. You look down at his beautiful face and infectious smile. He’s so sweet, so soft, so exactly what you need. His hands rub your back soothingly and you know you love him.
You’d loved him since date number two, when he’d seen a little girl crying at the bottom of a tree and proceeded to climb the tree to rescue a kitten, who had clung to him so tight it had cut his arm, but Johnny hadn’t minded. The little girl’s mother had offered to pay Johnny for his heroic deed but he’d objected, instead accepting a pretty flower the little girl had offered, which he had then given to you.
Johnny is perfect... so why do you still feel confused and conflicted about Jaehyun?
“Something happened with Jaehyun,” you say, looking into Johnny’s eyes as he strokes your face.
“Uh oh, you’re calling him by his full name, he must have really messed up.” Johnny is always so good at remembering everything you tell him, good at picking up on your verbal cues, sometimes even before you do. “What happened?” His thumb brushes under your eye soothingly, ready to wipe away any tear that escapes.
“He... it was very weird,” you confess. “I think he tried to tell me he loved me, but he did it in a really weird way, and it made me really upset.”
“When you say ‘he tried to tell me he loved me’ you mean... like, love as in, I’m in love with you. Not just friend love?” Johnny clarifies.
“I think so. He tried to make me tell him I love him more than I love you.”
“Aw, baby, you love me?” Johnny’s expression softens and despite the negative emotions you’re feeling, you still beam at him.
“Yeah, and I’m your girlfriend now, so I’m allowed to say it,” you tease, leaning in to press a soft kiss to his lips.
“I love you too, baby.” He kisses you back, only breaking the kiss to let you continue your story. “Then what happened?”
“He wanted me to dump you,” you tell him, quickly continuing with, “and that’s crazy, of course. Jaehyun’s always like this. Whenever I’m seeing a guy, he gets so territorial.”
“You two have been friends for a long time,” Johnny points out.
“Aren’t you mad he tried to break us up?” you ask, shocked at your boyfriend's calm demeanor.
Johnny shakes his head. “I understand where he’s coming from. I’m not sure you being taken would have stopped me from trying to get you to be mine either.”
You think about his words. “I’m just-” You take a deep breath, not sure how to even say how you’re feeling.
Luckily, you don’t have to. Johnny can read you, and somehow he takes your emotions and puts them into words for you. “You’re confused because this is the first time he’s told you about his feelings and you’ve been in love with him before, but you’re with me now, so it’s not easy to know what to do with the feelings this must have brought up.”
You smile sadly at Johnny. “How do you know me so well?”
“I just do.” He kisses your nose. “I can see why you’d be conflicted about that.”
“You can?”
“Of course.”
“I’m sorry, I know this puts you in a weird position-”
“it doesn’t,” Johnny assures you. “You have feelings for Jaehyun that have been there a long time, that doesn’t make your feelings for me any less real, you know?”
“Johnny, you’re perfect.”
“So I’ve been told,” he laughs. “I’m glad you talked to me about this, communication is really important.”
“I’m glad too, but I have to tell you something else... He kissed me, just for a moment, and it was so shocking-”
“Did you kiss him back?” This is the first time Johnny frowns.
“I don’t think so, it happened so fast and then my phone rang. But I yelled at him and left right after, then you came and picked me up, and now here we are,” you explain.
Johnny is quiet for a moment, then he looks over at your phone. “So this is why Ten and Mark won’t stop calling.”
“It’s fine, I can talk to them tomorrow,” you brush it off.
“I think you should call them back,” Johnny says. “Your friends are important, and this is something they know more about than I do. It might help for you to talk to them. You can go on the balcony if you want, I’ll go to my room and work on some stuff with headphones to give you privacy.”
“Are you sure?” you ask.
“Yeah, and when you’re done, come to bed and we’ll cuddle and watch a Disney movie or something to make you feel better okay?”
“Johnny?”
“Yeah, princess?”
“I do really love you.”
“And I really love you too.” Johnny beams at you, then he grabs your phone, handing it to you. “Now go call your friends and take however long you need to clear your head and sort this out, I’ll be here for you when you’re done.”
You press one more kiss to his soft lips before getting up and going to the terrace. You call Ten first, but he’s quick to add Mark to the line, and soon, you’re telling them everything that happened.
“I can’t believe Jae finally manned up and told you,” Mark says when your story is done.
“I can’t believe he tried to make you tell him you love him more than Johnny,” Ten muses. “That dude is fucked in the head sometimes.”
You let out a deep sigh, not wanting to verbally agree with the statement, but what Ten has said is true. Jaehyun has never been great with handling emotions, and tonight’s actions are just one reflection of that fact.
“So what now?” Mark asks. “I mean- Jae was messaging me as soon as you left, which is why we called, but I told him to just give you space.”
You take a deep breath, looking out at the streets below. “Space is a good idea.”
“I mean… you’re with Johnny now, officially, and you just said you love each other,” Ten points out. “Looks like Jae seriously missed the boat.”
“I’m still shocked Johnny’s not mad,” Mark chuckles anxiously.
“Yeah, he’s taking this really well, all things considered,” Ten agrees. “Although… you didn’t tell him about the time Jaehyun ate you out.”
“I was going to-” you admit. “But it was already so much on his plate to begin with…”
Your friends stay quiet, giving you space to process everything.
“You’ve had a long night,” Mark says finally. “Maybe you should sleep on it.”
“Sleep on what?” you laugh, annoyance flooding through you at the whole situation.
“I guess- I just thought…” You hear Mark swallow thickly. “I thought maybe this would change things.”
“It changes nothing,” you state, but you’re sure you all know how big of a lie that is.
Jaehyun admitting he has feelings for you changes everything- perhaps the only thing it doesn’t change is how you feel for Johnny.
“Sleep on it,” Ten agrees. “If you need anything, let us know.”
“You should really eat something,” Johnny says, carefully settling down onto the couch next to you. He has a bowl of fried rice in his hands, and he holds it out.
“I don’t feel like it,” you frown. “My stomach is in knots.”
He simply looks at you for a moment, then he reaches over to place the food on the coffee table. Once he’s relaxed again, body angled toward yours, he gently takes your hand. “What can I do to make this better?”
“You’re already doing more than enough,” you admit. “Part of me feels like I don’t deserve it.”
“Of course you deserve it,” Johnny insists.
“Yeah, but we’re still so new… most guys I’ve dated met Jaehyun and dumped me pretty soon after, I’m used to it by now.”
“Sounds like you’ve been dating insecure pieces of shit.”
You can’t help but chuckle at his words, and you nod in agreement. “I guess that’s probably true.” You take a deep breath. “I have something else to tell you.”
“Okay.” Johnny gives you the space to collect your thoughts.
“Last summer, Jaehyun and I…” you release a pent-up sigh. “Gosh, this feels so vulgar to even admit- he uh… he ate me out.” Part of you doesn’t want to look at Johnny, but another side of you needs to see his reaction, so you take a peek at your new boyfriend.
He lets out a surprised laugh. “Okay?”
“Is it okay?” you press.
“Yeah? Honestly, I was expecting you to say the two of you had fucked before, so hearing he only ate you out is kind of… underwhelming? But in a good way.” He strokes your hand gently.
“You’re taking this whole thing really well,” you tell him, unable to help the smile that works its way onto your face.
“I mean, you’re hot, he’s hot- and this whole eating out thing was last year, I’d be an asshole to hold it against you.”
“Yes, it was last year, but then he kissed me last night, so that’s more recent, and I just wanted to come clean with you on everything.”
“I appreciate that.” Johnny offers you a smile. “Come here.” He pulls you into a hug, and your entire body relaxes in his embrace. He holds you until you move away, and when you settle back against the couch, his hand finds yours again, giving it a reassuring squeeze. “So what are you thinking about this whole thing now?”
“I mean… I’m with you. Jaehyun had his chance, and he never took it. I’m frustrated that it took him seeing me happy to finally admit his feelings, but that doesn’t change how I feel about you.”
Johnny nods, and you can see the cogs of his mind working away behind his chocolate-brown eyes.
“You look like you want to say something,” you muse after a few moments of silence.
“I’m just thinking,” Johnny tells you, and now it’s your turn to give him space to process. “Listen, you’re right about things being new between the two of us.” You can tell Johnny is choosing his words very carefully. “If we were a few months further along with this, I wouldn’t be suggesting what I’m about to say to you, but I think we’re at a place where what I’m going to offer is doable because we don’t have a steady rhythm yet.”
Your heart lurches into your throat and you hang onto his next words.
“As I said last night, you and Jaehyun have history. I can tell that you’re torn, and I appreciate your loyalty to me even though we’ve only been dating a short while,” Johnny states. “However, even with all of that said, I don’t want to be the reason you don’t explore something with him, something that’s clearly been building for years. And unlike all those other insecure assholes you’ve dated, I’m really not the jealous type.”
You blink at Johnny, doing your best to register the unsaid connotation of what he’s suggesting.
“So…” Johnny swallows thickly, “as long as what we have doesn’t change too much, as long as we still spend a lot of time together, I wouldn’t be opposed to sharing you with him, if that’s something you’d be interested in.”
You stare at him blankly. “Sharing.”
“Yeah, sharing,” Johnny laughs. “I mean, he’s your best friend, so if this whole shit show hadn’t happened, I would have been sharing you a lot anyways.”
“How are you so chill with all of this?”
Johnny simply shrugs. “I guess I’ve never been one to feel that restricted by cultural expectations. Some people have more than enough love to share it, and it’s clear that there’s room for two people in your heart. I’m just the lucky son of a bitch that gets the chance to have part of you, despite your long history with Jaehyun.”
There’s nothing you can really say as you look at the man who’s already turned your life upside down. All you can do is whisper an honest, “I love you,” before pressing your lips to his.
Johnny kisses you back, one hand moving to cup your face as he lays you down onto the couch.
You get lost in him, your tumultuous thoughts about Jaehyun dissipating as Johnny takes over.
Jaehyun nearly jumps out of bed when his phone rings and your contact appears on the screen. He almost drops his phone in his haste to answer, his fingers becoming almost butter-like with anxiety. Still, he manages to hit the accept button, and his heart hammers in his chest when he says a meager, “Hello?”
It’s silence on the other end, and Jaehyun has to double-check the call didn’t drop. Then, “Hi.”
He doesn’t even know what to say to you. He has so many things that want to come out, a flurry of thoughts and feelings- but he decides on the safe option, which is a quick, “I’m sorry.”
Silence.
“I’m uh- I shouldn’t have kissed you. Shouldn’t have told you to tell me you love me more than your boyfriend. That was uh…” he remembers what Mark told him, “wrong. It was wrong for me to do that.”
“It was,” you agree, and the words hurt him. Jaehyun maybe partly expected you to say it was all okay, to absolve him of the guilt he’s feeling, but no- this is a burden he’s going to have to carry from now on. “I’m still not happy about it.” God, another cut to his heart. “Saying that, however, I have a proposition for you.”
“A proposition?” Confusion sets in.
“I want you to talk to Johnny.”
“Johnny?” Jaehyun is shocked. “For what? Is he going to kick my ass or something?”
He can hear a hint of a smile on your lips when you assure him, “He’s not going to kick your ass.”
“Are you a hundred percent sure? Because that guy is bigger than me and we both know I rely on my face to survive.”
“I’m sure,” you sigh. “I’m going to give him your number, just wanted to let you know.”
Jaehyun fiddles with the sleeve of his hoodie. “We’re still friends right?”
“Yes, Jae, we’re still friends. I’m just… processing all of this.”
Yet again, Jaehyun pulls up a saying from one of your close mutuals, going for one of Ten’s classic, “Valid,” statements.
“Anyways, I should go, but yeah, Johnny will text you.”
“Okay, goodnight.”
You hang up the phone and Jaehyun lets out a deep breath, collapsing back onto his bed. He’s happy you called and touched base, but he has no idea what to expect from your new boyfriend.
Johnny is waiting at the cafe when Jaehyun arrives. He’d taken the liberty of getting Jaehyun’s coffee order from you before he’d left his apartment, so when the pretty man walks in, there’s no time wasted with him standing in line.
Offering a smile, Johnny waves your best friend over, pushing the cup toward Jaehyun’s side of the table.
Jaehyun stands there for a moment, looking down at the coffee and then up at Johnny. “This is weird,” he says finally.
“It’s about to get weirder,” Johnny jokes. “Sit down.”
With a sigh, Jaehyun does as he’s told, his eyes averted.
Johnny is used to guys being scared of him due to his size alone, and more than almost anyone, Jaehyun has a reason to be on edge. After only meeting once, there’s no way for Jaehyun to know Johnny is a gentle giant, and the elder man is quick to attempt to rectify this. “I’m not here to fight,” he says softly.
“I’d understand if you were,” Jaehyun sighs. “I kissed your girlfriend and tried to break the two of you up.”
Johnny can only laugh. “I’m not the jealous type.”
“That makes one of us.”
“At least you can admit to that,” Johnny notes. “That’s a good start. I can understand why you’d be jealous, I mean, I’m dating your best friend, and from what Mark and Ten tell me, you’ve been into her for a long time.”
Jaehyun simply shrugs, looking down at his untouched coffee.
“Look, I didn’t come here for an apology,” Johnny says.
“You didn’t?”
“No, y/n’s the one you need to apologize to, she’s the one you need to smooth things over with. The whole kiss situation was very… confusing for her, and I’m sure you can understand why.”
“I guess.” Jaehyun reaches up and rubs the back of his neck.
“She cares about you,” Johnny states, and for the first time since sitting down, Jaehyun meets his gaze. “You two have a bond that goes back for years. You’re an important part of her life, and she doesn’t want to lose that.”
“That’s nice to hear and everything, but shouldn’t she be the one telling me this?” Jaehyun asks.
“I’m sure once things settle over, she will, but first, we have to discuss a few things.”
“I’m listening.”
“I’d like to think that you being semi-combative right now has more to do with the whole kiss thing than you not liking me,” Johnny admits with a laugh. “Because if you don’t like me, what I’m about to suggest is never going to work out.”
Jaehyun simply looks Johnny up and down, remaining silent.
“It’s obvious y/n cares about you,” Johnny states. “She cares about me too. And I know she has room for both of us, if we can get along.”
“Of course she has room for both of us, I’m her best friend.”
“I mean… she has room for both of us as more than friends.”
“Huh?”
Johnny finds it almost comical how confused Jaehyun looks. “What I’m saying is- even if the kiss never happened, I’d be sharing her with you. But the kiss did happen, and it’s clear you want something more- she and I are still very new in our relationship, and with newness comes… flexibility.”
“Flexibility,” Jaehyun repeats, and there’s not a hint of two working brain cells behind those pretty eyes of his.
Johnny can’t help but let out a chuckle. He reaches for his coffee, leaning back against his chair. “Yeah, flexibility.” He sips on his drink while Jaehyun takes time to process.
“So you’re saying…” Jaehyun looks to Johnny to finish the sentence, but Johnny doesn’t want to give him that satisfaction. He wants to see Jaehyun work it out himself. “You’re saying… you’re… flexible… about… sharing… your girlfriend.”
“Uh huh.”
“And… what did… uh, what did she say about all of this?”
Johnny shrugs. “She’s open to it. Like I said, she’s still a little upset about how this whole thing happened, but you two have history, if you apologize enough, she’ll work through it.”
“And you’re… completely chill about all of this?” Jaehyun asks.
“I suggested it.”
“You did?”
“It’s a two birds, one stone kind of problem, don’t you think?”
Jaehyun cocks his head to the side. “Are we the birds?”
Johnny can only smile. “Sure.”
“So… now what?”
“Now, we try to be friends, you fix things with y/n, and we see what happens.”
“What do you get out of all of this?” Jaehyun asks, and there’s a hint of suspicion in his eyes. “You know I’m straight, right?”
Johnny nearly chokes on his coffee. “Dude. We’re both straight.”
“Okay, I was just checking.”
“Look- I care about y/n, she cares about you. I’d rather do this and keep her, than have your history impact my future. Also… I mean, in this day and age of adult content, I think a lot of us have… watcher tendencies, wouldn’t you say?”
“I’m a doer, not a watcher,” Jaehyun insists.
“You don’t watch any porn?”
“I never said that.”
Jaehyun is lucky he’s pretty.
You’re watching a show when your phone rings. Johnny is passed out behind you, and you’re quick to answer the call so the sound doesn’t wake him. “One sec,” you whisper to Jaehyun on the other end of the line, checking over your shoulder. Johnny is still asleep and as you gently wiggle from his grasp, he stirs slightly but repositions and continues his gentle snores.
You go out onto the terrace, bringing your phone to your ear. “Hi.”
“Hi,” he responds.
“So… how’s it going?” you ask.
Jaehyun lets out a sigh. “Weird day.”
“Yeah, Johnny told me all about it.”
“I guess that’s not a shock,” Jaehyun admits. “What did he say?”
“He told me about your talk.” You swallow thickly. “Said… said you were open to his suggestion.”
“The whole sharing thing,” your best friend clarifies.
“Yeah.”
“What do you think about it?” he asks.
You choose your words carefully. “I think it’s an interesting idea.”
“Yeah?”
“I mean… you and I do have a history.”
“We do,” he agrees.
“I just… you don’t date, Jaehyun. I’m still mad at you that you waited so long to make a move. I’m mad that when you kissed me, you still tried to make me tell you I love you, and you didn’t confess many of your own feelings.”
You hear him swallow thickly. “I’m sorry about that. I didn’t do any of it correctly.”
“So how would you have done it? Correctly, I mean.”
“I should have told you how I felt a long time ago,” he admits. “It shouldn’t have taken you finding someone like Johnny to make me snap.”
“No, it shouldn’t have. You’re lucky he’s such a wonderful guy that he didn’t come knock your teeth in.”
“I am lucky,” Jaehyun says softly. There’s a beat of silence then, “That night, you said you were in love with me for years… it felt very past tense.”
“And? Is there a question there?”
“I guess… I’m just… You don’t love me anymore?”
“It’s complicated.”
“But you want to try this whole threesome thing,” he points out. “So… that must mean there’s still feelings.”
“It’s not just a threesome thing,” you point out. “Johnny’s suggesting an actual sort-of-open sort-of-closed relationship where I can date both of you.”
“Right, yeah.”
“How do you feel about that?”
“Good?”
You can’t help but laugh. “Talk to me, Jae.”
“I just… Won’t it be weird if you’re dating two guys?”
You think about it for a moment. “Maybe. But, even if I was just dating Johnny and you were my best friend- we’ve acted like a couple for a long time, don’t you think?”
“I guess.”
“Maybe this is a good test to see if you can actually do commitment,” you suggest.
“Maybe.”
“That doesn’t sound promising.”
“I guess I’m just worried about how it will be with Johnny.”
“You mean how jealous you’ll get.”
“It was hard to see him with you.”
“And yet, he’s open to seeing us be happy. Why do you think it’s so hard for you to watch me be happy with someone else?”
“Because I want to be the main source of your happiness, I guess.”
Why is that kind of sad? Why do you find yourself frowning?
“Look, we can give it a try, have a little date, and see how things feel.”
“A date,” he repeats, and you can hear the smile in his words. “That sounds nice.”
“Maybe you could come over to Johnny’s place and we can get takeout and watch a movie or something.”
“Right, Johnny will be there.”
“Of course he’ll be there.” Maybe this isn’t such a good idea.
“Sorry, I was just- I don’t know, I thought maybe it would be a separate dates situation.”
“It’s a triangle, not a ‘V’ where I do separate things with you both.”
“But you’re with him alone right now.”
“Cuz he’s my boyfriend?” Jaehyun’s starting to annoy you now. “Jaehyun, we’re inviting you into this, into our relationship, of course I’m going to spend more time alone with him than with you.”
You’ve never been one to fight with Jaehyun, but after that kiss- well, he’s getting on your nerves more and more, and you’re worried about what the outcome of this little experiment will be.
“Right, sorry, I’m still not thinking straight,” Jaehyun apologizes.
“If you don’t want to do this-”
“I do,” he insists. “I want- I want you, and if that means I have to jump through these hoops, then, I guess I’ll jump through these hoops.”
“I’m not sure this will be a great fit,” you admit. “You’re just so possessive, Jae, you always have been.”
“I’m working on it, I promise.”
You let out a deep breath. “It’s late. We can talk tomorrow.”
“Okay. Goodnight.”
“Goodnight.”
It’s odd to have Jaehyun coming into Johnny’s apartment, and you find yourself clinging to your boyfriend while he gives your best friend a small tour. Jaehyun is cordial, his gaze slipping to you more frequently than not, and you do your best to see the possibility of this whole situation working out.
You’re still confused about your feelings, but it’s kind of nice to have an open space to explore them like this. Johnny truly is the best person you’ve ever met- he’s so understanding, and you don’t want to hurt him in any way, shape, or form.
It’s difficult to wrap your head around the fact that he’s cool with the idea of sharing. Too many social norms and expectations create an anxiety that’s swirling in your gut as the takeout arrives and the three of you settle in the living room.
“What sort of movies do you watch, Jaehyun?” Johnny asks, already scrolling through Netflix.
“Rom-coms and horror mostly.”
“Those are pretty different genres,” your boyfriend laughs. “What do you think, baby? Romance, or horror?”
You’re not particularly in the mood for watching a rom-com with Jaehyun, besides, you’ve seen so many of them with him already. “Let’s do a scary movie,” you decide.
“Works for me,” Johnny nods, switching to the horror section.
The three of you eat your takeout while discussing movies, and you end up settling on some ghost horror film none of you have seen before. You immediately settle in with Johnny, becoming his small spoon out of habit. Jaehyun, meanwhile, shifts awkwardly at the end of the couch.
You try not to think too much about Jaehyun, and the cheap scares in the film are enough to distract you. At your back, Johnny’s soft snores tell you he’s fallen asleep, but his warm arms keep you close.
“This feels weird,” Jaehyun says after a while.
“What does?” you sigh.
“I fucked up, and you’re still mad at me.”
“Part of me thought you were going to say it’s weird seeing me with Johnny,” you admit.
“Shockingly enough, I’m getting used to seeing you as a couple. Told you I’d work on my jealousy, didn’t I?”
You can’t help but laugh. “I guess maybe things are a little tense still, but that will go away with time.”
“Will it?”
“Yeah?”
Jaehyun shifts on the couch. “I am sorry. You know I’m sorry.”
“I know,” you nod.
Jaehyun doesn’t say anything else, but this small interaction has helped. When the movie finishes, you and Johnny walk Jaehyun to the door. He gives you a lingering hug goodbye before you go to bed with Johnny, happy with how the ‘date’ had gone.
***
Things are getting more normal, and you find yourself at a club with Jaehyun, Johnny, Mark and Ten, like you had that first night you’d introduced your boyfriend to your best friend.
Ten is obvious with his side eye, the way he looks both men up and down, whereas Mark has the decency to be more incognito about things, although, you can tell he’s just as confused as Ten is.
When Johnny and Jaehyun head to the bar to get drinks for your table, they’re not five feet away when Ten practically launches at you. “What’s the tea?”
You can only laugh, taking a sip of your nearly empty rum and coke.
“So has the whole sharing thing happened yet?” Mark asks, ears turning pink at his own question.
“We would have heard if it had,” Ten retorts with a quick eye roll. “She’s waiting, making Jaejae sweat.”
“I’m just getting comfy with him again,” you admit. “There’s always a chance this whole idea won’t work out, and I want to be sure he’s not going to be jealous like he always is if something doesn’t go the way he wants it.”
Ten looks you up and down. “Girl, good luck.”
“Don’t say it like that,” you laugh.
“As soon as Jaejae gets in your pants he’s going to be a stage five clinger and we all know it,” Ten insists.
You can only shake your head, your gaze shifting to Johnny and Jaehyun who are wading back through the crowd with drinks in their hands.
This conversation is put on the back burner, but it remains present in your mind.
After the club, you end up at Johnny’s apartment with Jaehyun in tow. Your skin is tingling with ‘what ifs,’ your heart nearly thundering out of your rib cage.
It’s clear from the way Jaehyun’s moving, precise, and a little apprehensive, that a threesome is in his thoughts as well.
Johnny, however, feels as calm and collected as ever. “More drinks?” he suggests, heading to his fridge to pull out three beers. “Jae, catch.”
Your best friend easily catches the beer, quickly cracking it open and bringing it to his lips. You watch his shoulders relax a little, and you release your own deep breath.
“So,” Johnny says, dragging you to his side. “We’ve been hanging out for two weeks, how are we feeling?”
God, he’s so direct. You love it and you hate it at the same time.
Your eyes shift to Jaehyun, and he meets your gaze. “I mean, it’s up to you two.”
“I’m down,” Johnny responds smoothly. “How are you feeling, baby?”
“Can we start slow?” you ask, heart still racing in your chest.
“Slow how?” Johnny prompts, pressing a kiss to your shoulder.
“Like… oral things? Between me and him, I mean.” Your skin flushes and you hope Jaehyun doesn’t take this the wrong way- hope it’s not a sign of favouritism rather than the truth of the fact which is; you’re more comfortable with Johnny, despite your history with Jaehyun.
“Just oral works,” Johnny assures you. “Right, Jae?”
“Yeah, whatever you’re comfortable with,” Jaehyun nods.
“Come on, baby, let’s go to the bedroom.” Johnny takes your hand, guiding you to his room. It’s such a familiar space- and it feels odd to have Jaehyun in it. Jaehyun stops at the threshold, watching you and Johnny.
Your boyfriend downs his beer, setting the empty can onto the bedside table before grabbing you with both hands. His lips are hot against yours, his skilled tongue tasting your own while you let out a small moan.
You can feel Jaehyun’s eyes on you, and it’s an interesting sensation.
“Do you two want to explore each other a little?” Johnny asks.
You nod, turning to look at Jaehyun. He’s hesitant to approach you, but when he does, you step forward, allowing him to grab your hips and pull you closer.
Neither of you say anything, you’re too lost in his eyes as he slowly closes the distance between your lips.
It’s a soft kiss, one you hadn’t quite expected. Your arms wrap around the back of his neck, urging him to come closer, to deepen things. Jaehyun rewards you by teasing his tongue past your lips, and you gladly accept him.
You cup his cheek and his hand slides down to the small of your back, guiding you to the bed. He carefully helps you onto it, climbing on top of you.
“You good?” Jaehyun asks.
“Let’s do this,” you nod.
“Just oral, right?” he clarifies, pressing his lips to your throat.
“Maybe sixty-nine? And then… maybe… well, this is a threesome, so… spit roasting with you in my mouth?”
“You’ve got this all figured out,” Jaehyun says softly. “Whatever you want.”
You grab at his shirt, looking up at him as you begin to unbutton it.
After a moment of shaky fingers, Jaehyun sits up, undoing the fabric so it can fall to the side of the bed.
You’ve always known Jaehyun’s ripped, but seeing it this close is something different. Despite all the history, despite the butchered kiss a few weeks ago- your body tingles at the notion of getting a taste of your best friend.
“You next,” Jaehyun whispers, grabbing at the hem of your shirt. You allow him to tug it off of you, and soon, you’re both getting out of your pants too.
Jaehyun kisses you when you’re both stripped down to underwear, and he grinds against your core so you can feel how hard he already is.
You moan from the sensation, your pussy throbbing with excitement.
“Here,” Jaehyun rolls the both of you so you’re now on top. “You should be in control, I’ll follow your lead.”
You look down at him for a second, then you turn your head to find Johnny. He’s standing by the wall, hands in his pockets. He’s not touching himself, but you can see the outline of his cock in his pants. He flashes you a wink that acts as a go-ahead, and you muster your courage to adjust on top of Jaehyun, getting into the sixty-nine position.
You both still have underwear on, and you start by teasing Jaehyun through his breifs.
He releases a groan, and you can feel his breath on your panty clad pussy, a shiver running through you at the stimulus.
“Lift your hips, Jaejae, I wanna take these off.” You gently tug at the band of his briefs, letting them snap back to his skin. Jaehyun lets out a soft moan, following through and lifting his hips so you can tug the fabric down to his knees, exposing his hard cock.
He’s not as big as Johnny, but Jaehyun’s cock is as pretty as the rest of him. You can’t help but lick it from balls to tip, and Jaehyun shivers below you. He tugs your panties to the side, grabbing your hips to pull your pussy down onto his face.
So that’s how it’s going to be.
You go for it, and he does too. A mutual pleasure session.
You sink your mouth onto Jaehyun’s cock, licking at it with your tongue and taking as much as you can before beginning to bob your head up and down.
Jaehyun pulls your clit between your lips in response, flicking at it and making you groan around his cock.
You begin to suck him off faster, urging him to do the same to your core. His tongue glides between your pussy lips, and he moans desperately.
You wonder what you taste like. Wonder if he’s missed the taste of you for a year, wonder if he’s dreamt about this-
Jaehyun laps at your pussy like a man starved, and you can tell the sounds of enjoyment escaping him are mostly related to the eating of your pussy moreso than the blow job you’re giving him. The thought turns you on even more, and you grind down against his face, urging him to make you cum.
You can already taste your orgasm- it feels so natural to be cumming like this, Jaehyun’s cock burried in your mouth and his tongue deep in your pussy between your thighs-
A gentle hand pulls you off of Jaehyun, and you look up to find Johnny staring down at you. “Close, baby?” he asks, pinching your chin softly.
“Yeah,” you nod, licking your lips. “So close-”
“Cum on his tongue, and then we can share you properly. As pretty as the sounds you’re making are, we both know you like to be filled with something bigger than a tongue.”
Your toes curl at the thought of Johnny fucking you with his thick cock, and you take gasped breaths, your skin tingling as Jaehyun works you closer and closer-
You begin to stroke him off, all while staring up at Johnny and grinding against Jaehyun’s face.
“I’m there- I’m there- fuck-” you cry desperately as Jaehyun pulls your clit into his mouth, sucking you like his life depends on it and throwing you over the edge.
Your orgasm surges through you-
“Don’t close your eyes,” Johnny warns. “Look at me.”
Somehow his words make the sensation even more extreme, your pussy throbbing desperately around nothing while you stare up at your boyfriend.
While you cum, Johnny pulls out his cock, and without a moment’s hesitation you put it in your mouth. Now you’re cumming, riding Jaehyun’s face, stroking him off, and blowing Johnny all at the same time-
This is what a threesome should be, you realize, and you’re desperate for what comes next.
“Get it all lubed up,” Johnny praises you, petting your head. “When you’re done cumming, let us know.”
You’re still riding the aftershocks of your orgasm, and after a minute you pull off of Johnny’s cock to nod at him. “I’m ready for more.”
“Good girl,” he grins. “You know what to do.”
You climb off of Jaehyun, turning to present your ass to Johnny.
“While Jaehyun gets into position, I think we should both get naked,” Johnny announces, “it’s only fair.
You slip out of your panties, your bra following quickly afterward, and soon, all three of you are naked to each other’s eyes. You’re on your hands and knees, looking up at Jaehyun while Johnny pulls your ass cheeks apart, teasing his cock through your wet folds.
“Do you want me to fuck your face?” Jaehyun asks, smirking down at you.
It’s clear that eating you out gave him some confidence. Gone is the hesitancy, and in it’s place is this suave man, the man you’ve always known, the best friend who picks up chicks everywhere he goes.
“Fuck my face,” you tell him, leaning forward to capture his cock in your mouth.
“No cumming down her throat though,” Johnny warns.
“Then where am I supposed to cum?” Jaehyun asks, thrusts already faltering as he stares at your boyfriend.
“Her tits? Your own chest? Just not her mouth or face,” Johnny responds.
“Whatever you say,” Jaehyun sighs, quickly finding a rhythm.
Johnny pushes his own cock into your pussy, forcing you forward on Jaehyun, whose cock hits the back of your throat.
You gag slightly, but oddly enough, it’s not the worst sensation in the world. “Think she likes choking,” Johnny muses. “Your pussy just got so tight for me, baby. Do you like that?”
You let out a sound of affirmation, trying to take more of Jaehyun in your mouth as the two men begin a push pull of thrusts. You feel like a ragdoll, but there’s something so freeing about it-
“See? Threesomes are fun,” Johnny notes, causing Jaehyun to chuckle and you to moan loudly while your throat and pussy get used simultaneously.
“She’s good at sucking dick,” Jaehyun says wistfully, fucking your face harder.
“She’s good at most things, don’t know if you realized this, but your best friend is a little over achiever,” Johnny muses, his tone soft.
“Is it bad if I cum fast?” Jaehyun asks. “I’ve been wanting this for so long- to have her actually sucking my dick is a little, uh… overwhelming.”
“Cum on her tits whenever you want,” Johnny responds smoothly. “I’ll finish her and I off once you’re done.”
“Okay, yeah,” Jaehyun’s motions falter ever so slightly. “Fuck, princess, you just feel so good-”
You look up at Jaehyun, and you see him shiver when you meet his gaze.
“You love this, huh?” he asks. “Love having two cocks inside you?”
You can only moan a sound of affirmation, and Jaehyun sucks in a harsh breath. “Okay, shit, fuck-” he pulls out of your mouth, hand finding his cock-
Johnny adjusts you ever so slightly, holding you up and arching your back almost to an unbearable point- giving Jaehyun full access to your tits as he jacks off-
“Fuck-” Jaehyun groans again, throwing his head back as ropes of white cum spurt out of him, painting your chest.
Johnny fucks you faster, his large cock spreading you open like nothing else ever has.
Jaehyun finally stops, and Johnny helps you onto your knees, one hand finding your throat to hold you with your back to his chest. “Look at you, all covered in cum,” Johnny whispers in your ear.
You moan, resting your head back on his shoulder.
Johnny’s other hand finds your chest, and he swipes a finger through the cum, bringing it to your lips. “Guess I should let you have a taste.”
You greedily suck his fingers into your mouth, and Jaehyun’s brand of cum explodes across your tastebuds. He’s a healthy guy, with a focus on clean eating, and his cum reflects that.
“Want you to play with your cum covered tits, give Jaehyun a show while I make us cum,” Johnny instructs. “In fact, play with your clit too.”
Your right hand slips between your legs, two fingers rubbing your clit in fast, harsh circles. Your other hand finds your breasts, squeezing the pump flesh and spreading Jaehyun’s cum across your skin while he sits back and stares up at you in shock.
“Feels good?” Johnny asks.
“Feels so good,” you groan, walls clenching around Johnny as he builds you up to another orgasm.
You pinch your nipple, squealing at the sensation while Johnny fucks you even harder.
“You’re close, aren’t you, baby?” Johnny questions, his breath hot on your throat, his fingers digging into your hips.
“Yeah-” you nod, unable to think too much as your high quickly approaches.
“Here, I’ll rub your clit, I know you like giving up control when you cum.” Johnny pushes your hand to the side, two much rougher fingers finding your sensitive bud.
You let out a cry of desperation, your stomach muscles clenching in anticipation-
“That’s it, baby, cum for me,” Johnny coos in your ear. “Cum on my cock like the good girl you are.”
You can’t help yourself, your pussy squeezes Johnny incredibly tight as your orgasm hits you, throbbing through your whole body and making you gasp in ecstasy.
“That’s it,” Johnny grins, burying his face in the crook of your neck. From his sounds, you know he’s close too, and after three more rough thrusts, he’s cumming deep in your core, filling you with everything he has to offer.
Johnny fucks you through your highs, and when he finishes, he simply stops, breathing heavily in your ear. “Shower?” he says after a moment.
“Shower,” you agree.
“Jae, I’ll uh-” Johnny runs a hand through his hair, “I’ll see you out, unless you wanna crash on the couch.”
“I can go,” Jaehyun responds almost too casually, and you notice he’s already half hard again. You’d bet your life he’s going to go home and rub another one out to the thought of you covered in his cum and playing with your tits-
“Come on, baby,” Johnny carries you bridal style to the bathroom, pressing a soft kiss to your lips. “I’ll be back in a minute.”
You don’t feel the need to say goodbye to Jaehyun as the hot water begins to fall against your skin, washing the cum away.
You’re so tired there’s not much going through your mind.
Johnny is true to his word, rejoining you a short time later.
He scrubs your body clean, and helps you with your towel when you’re done. As the two of you get back into bed, your phone dings, and you see a message there from Jaehyun.
JaeJae (2:00 am): that was fun
JaeJae (2:00 am) we should do that again sometime
JaeJae (2:00 am) goodnight princess
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🔮 preview. You can only whine and whimper, held down by his weight and unable to do anything. This position is definitely a favourite, you’re their little pillow princess, and you love nothing more than laying there and taking cock.
cw/ tw. Threesome, Johnny participates as a watcher, unprotected sex, voyuerism, fucking with a skirt on, breast worship, creampie, cumming together, dirty talk, praise, slight edging, begging, etc… I petnames. (hers) baby & princess.
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🌙 starring. Jaehyun & Johnny x afab!Reader
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“Straight up,” Ten sighs, watching Johnny and Jaehyun standing by the bar waiting for drinks, “I did not think this was going to work.”
“Me neither,” you admit, laughing.
“I guess Jae just needed the right dom to control the situation, huh?” Ten cocks his head to the side, thinking the whole thing through.
“When you say it like that, it sounds a little odd,” you giggle, “but maybe.”
“Who knew Jaehyun could share.” Ten shakes his head again. “I’m shook.”
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