Somebody Mixed My Medicine

{26} {Peace-Keeper} {Amity Born} Milo is a worker who protects and guards the outer fileds of Amity from whatever lays beyond. He is the older brother to Axel, and takes pride in being such. Milo has severe Bi-Polar disorder. Caution is advised.

[dauntlesslymarcus-blog]

Marcus couldn’t help the butterflies that fluttered in his stomach when Milo grabbed his hand, but knew that it wasn’t the time to act on his feelings. Milo looked visibly upset — he sounded upset — and Marcus needed to be there for him as a friend, not a boyfriend. Setting his hand on Milo’s arm, he looked down at the drink on the countertop. “What happened?” He asked slowly, wary, unsure of which side of Milo he was going to get today.

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo picked up his glass and took a long drink. Anyone who knew Milo knew he didn't drink unless he was upset. "...Axel's gone," he mumbled, looking towards him with pained eyes. "Gone... And it's because of me," He laughed tiredly, his voice drained and in pain that he couldn't correctly express. 

[dauntlessaly]

"Oh my god," She said covering her mouth. "Why… How…" Tears rimmed her eyes as Aly looked down. "Shit! Axel."

[dauntlessmilo]

"I.... I had to," He whispered. "He was in so much pain... I couldn't just... I-I..." Milo trailed off, voice cracking as he tried to stay in control of his emotions. 

[dauntlesslymarcus-blog]

Marcus had meant to say hello to Milo when he heard the unfriendliness in his voice. Frowning, he stopped in mid-walk and stared, his mouth falling open just a bit. “O-Oh.” He said plainly, unable to hide the disappointment from his expression. “I can… We can talk later…”

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo pursed his lips and looked down to his drink before blindly reaching out and searching for his friend's hand. Once he found it, he intertwined their fingers and tugged him a bit closer to his side, seeking out comfort silently. "Hi," He mumbled.

[dauntlessaly]

"What do you mean Axel’s gone? Milo what happened?"

[dauntlessmilo]

"H-He... Overdosed... On his medication. Gone... Gone," He whispered, voice slowly breaking.

[dauntlessaly]

"I’m bored with all this already so tell me. What’s got you drinking? What happened?"

[dauntlessmilo]

"....Axel's gone," he mumbled. 

[dauntlessaly]

"Milo what’s up? You never come to the bar."

[dauntlessmilo]

"....Nothing, Allison. You don't need to worry about it right now. Enjoy the festival, Aly."

[dauntlessmilo]

"Look. I just want a drink. Leave me alone."

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel shivered slightly, finding comfort in the closeness of his brother’s body against his. There was no other place he’d rather be; he wouldn’t give up Milo for an ounce of sanity. “I-I love you, too,” he said quietly, smiling a little as he closed his eyes, biting his bottom lip as he was injected a second time. He could feel that one immediately, the effect of the sleeping drug doing wonders for his poisoned mind. Axel’s breathing slowed down, and he nodded a little at Milo’s words, his movements sluggish. He knew Milo would take the pain away, but he wasn’t sure why he was apologizing. It was what he wanted. He managed to take Milo’s hand in his, closing his bloodshot hazel eyes.

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo swallowed the lump in his throat and let out a shaky breath as he picked up the second syringe. Any more medication than he was already on and his heart would just... stop. It would be over. He'd be safe and peaceful and happy. He whimpered and held his brother closely, taking comfort in his soft breathing. He kissed his head and whispered soft I'm sorry's and I love you's into his ear. He pressed the needle into his arm and slowly injected it until it was empty. He tossed it away and wrapped both of his strong arms around Axel.

And then he started to cry. Not the quiet crying men did when they didn't want anyone to see. Real crying. The painful kind that makes you feel nauseous. He held onto Axel tightly, head nestled against his shoulder. He felt sick. He was shaking. His brother was gone, and it was his doing. But, what choice did he have? Let Axel continue to be in pain? Let him suffer for longer than he already had? He wasn't that cruel. He knew what Axel wanted. This was the most humane way he could think. That didn't make this any easier. 

He whimpered and gently released Axel, laying him on the bed and sitting beside him. He took his hand and kissed it, holding onto it as he continued to cry. He didn't know what he was going to do. You couldn't just kill someone in Dauntless without someone being pissed  off. Then again, who noticed Axel? Who would care? That thought made him even more sick. Aly. Aly would care. Aly would hate him. 

"Fuck," He cursed, letting go of Axel's hand and pulling his legs to his chest. He hid his face in his knees and cried, painfully, to himself. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel didn’t protest when they were moved, leaning back against his brother when they made it to the bed. He wasn’t entirely sure what was going on, but then again, it didn’t matter to him. Milo was there with him; he was safe. “O-Okay,” he closed his eyes, “Don’t get too close, it’s dark inside…" he couldn’t get more than a couple words out at a time, but he was safe, and that was all that he needed. "It’s where my demons hide…" His body stilled after the medication was injected, and he let out a breath of relief, able to actually relax just for a brief moment. His head dropped to rest against Milo’s, his eyelids fluttering as he fought back the pain. "It’s where my demons hide...”

[dauntlessmilo]

You're doing the right thing... You're doing the right thing... He can't suffer anymore... He needs this. 

That was all he could do to keep himself from losing his mind right now. He listened to his brother's voice and tried to keep from shaking too badly. He couldn't do this if he was shaking. "I love you," He whispered into the skin of Axel's neck gently. He picked up one syringe and placed it against his arm before gently pressing it in and slowly injecting it. "I love you... I'm sorry you're in pain, but it'll stop. I promise. I'm going to take the pain away, okay?" He whispered brokenly, crying silently now as he pulled back to look at his brother, moving his hair from his face. "I love you so much... I'm so sorry," He whispered, kissing his temple. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel wouldn’t have known much of a life in Dauntless if he hadnt been with Milo. He nodded slowly, stuttering out a breath, “I love you, too,” he whispered, eyes drooping. He couldnt find the strength to scream or express his pain anymore. His grasp on Milo’s clothes were weak; he was just miserable, “Help me..”

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo's hands began to shake as he watched his brother in this much pain. Before, Axel would scream and fight when he was in pain. He'd never been this... weak. He pursed his lips and picked his brother up, carrying him over to the bed so he could sit down with him and hold him to his chest.

"Hush... Sing me a song, Ax," He whispered as he picked up one of the syringes of their medication from the side table. He pressed it against his brother's arm and injected it slowly. "Your favorite song... C'mon," He murmured, setting the syringe down. His hand fished in the drawer for a different syringe. Two of them. Sleeping drugs. One more than safe. He was crying. His hands were shaking. He buried his head into the crook of his brother's neck and took in a shaky breath. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel took a deep breath, needing to do so since he could barely get words out now, “My life,” he whispered, “Everything,” he closed his eyes, doubling over and trying not to scream.

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo pulled his brother close and closed his eyes. "Never apologize for that. You're my brother. I love you. I'll always take care of you," He murmured, trying to comfort him in his pain. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel shut his eyes tightly, still gripping Milo, “Milo…Milo,” he pulled away just slightly, resting his forehead against his brother’s. He looked back into his brother’s eyes, “I have to say somethin’,” his voice was slightly slurred from exhaustion and pain, “Thanks…thank you.”

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo held his brother's face and sighed softly. "For what?" He mumbled, furrowing his brows. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel flinched, bowing his head in pain, “It hurts, Milo…I can’t sleep…I can’t…if I sleep, when I wake up-” he whimpered and covered his ears, “Tell them to be quiet.”

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo shook his head and kissed his forehead. "Shut up," he whispered against his skin. "Leave my brother alone... For five minutes, let me have him," He pleaded softly. "I need him... Please."

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel gave a sad smile, the most he could muster for just a couple of seconds. He picked up his knife, placing it in Milo’s hand, “I don’t- I can’t do it,” he whispered, the pain nearly palpable in his voice.

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo looked at the knife with wide eyes. He grabbed it and threw it away. "You're not doing anything with a knife, Axel. Neither am I. You're going to be okay. You just.. need sleep or something. Everything will be okay."

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel couldn’t help but cough out a laugh, looking back at his brother with a reserved form of defeat. He leaned into the touch, tears streaming down his face, “Milo..Milo, please,” he whispered.

[dauntlessmilo]

"I--" He stared at his brother and furrowed his brows. "What... What do I do?" He whispered, brushing his thumbs against his brother's cheeks as he tried to understand what he wanted. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel could barely hear his brother, the blood roaring in his ears making it difficult for him to focus on anything. But his brother would always manage to get to him, he knew that. He leaned against Milo, shivering from the pain that was racking his mind. He could hear the tune, and it just made him sob even more. That was the last thing he wanted to hold on to, and now it was taken from him thanks to the psychotic thing he called his mind. “Milo,” his voice was wrecked, “end it, please,” he cried.

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo furrowed his brows and leaned back, cupping his brother's head and looking him in the eye. "End what? The song? Yeah, sure. I know my voice is annoying," He tried to smile at him but it hurt. He hated seeing his brother in pain. 

[dauntlessmilo]

Breathe Me { Axel/Milo}

[axelkromer-blog]

Axel let out a shaky breath, whimpering slightly, “make it stop, Milo,” he clutched at his brother’s shirt, letting out another quiet yelp of pain. “Make it stop!” He released Milo, looking at his own clawed up arms after trying to dig the pain out of himself. It was useless, not even the physical pain could jolt him out of his own mind.

[dauntlessmilo]

Milo looked down to Axel's arms and frowned. "No, no, no, Ax," He whispered, gently rubbing his brother's arms. "I-I...I'll try," He said softly, pulling him close again and humming a familiar amity tune near his ear. He wanted to help. He tried, desperately. Usually this would help.