hello world!

i’m dani & i love dogs, bullet journaling, bts, one direction, 5sos, the 1975, troye sivan, LANY... basically this is just a combo of music i like, typography/bullet journal ideas, memes, vents, aesthetic posts, etc. it would be more organized but im lazy

[daydreamstudies]

hello, studyblr!

as my new year’s resolution, i have decided to make a studyblr. 

my name is dani, i’m an isfp, and i’m 20 years old. i’m a third year biology/anthropology student.

i’ve been on tumblr since 2012, and i’ve always loved being organized and focusing on academics. i always did homework ahead of time, and i would always be asked by my teachers if they could show my work as an example. yeah, i was that kid. 

however, i lost myself back in 2018-19. my best friend took his life, and to this day, i still have trouble processing that. i was also dating someone who didn’t support me and didn’t want to grow with me. he encouraged me to stop caring so much about school (which, i understand, can be true to some extent), but so much of my identity and passion was embedded into it. i was changing -- not for the betterment of myself -- but so i could be more like him. so when i was grieving, i stopped caring about everything. there wasn’t anything i could hold on to or focus on, you know?

anyways, we all know how shitty of a year 2020 was. but academically, i have never done so poorly. going from a’s, to c’s, to withdrawing, to failing... the shame surrounding this drastic downfall was so intense that i didn’t know how to deal with it. i wasn’t able to face it because i didn’t feel like i could.

i want to change that. i know things don’t change overnight. but i want to keep trying. i want to do things that will make me feel alive again. to try and be brave. because i don’t want to live like this. i don’t want to remember my 20′s as a hazy depressive episode. i don’t want to dissociate constantly. i want to feel alive again. to feel young, and vivid, and reckless. i want to feel as chaotic and active as i did when i was 13 when homestuck updated. just that kind of vivacity and unrelenting spice LMAO

although it’s easy to slip into negative self-talk, i know that i’ve taken significant steps towards taking care of myself. i told my parents about my mental health. i’m seeing a therapist and a psychologist. i’m taking medicine for my depression/cPTSD. i’m getting disability accomodations. i’m trying.

i have to be brave. i have to fight. i know it won’t be easy, but i’m going to fight this. i don’t want to be muted by my own brain.

anyways, welcome to my world. honestly, i don’t think anyone will ever read this or follow my blog. i’m starting super late and i’m fighting an uphill battle. but that’s okay. i’m doing this for myself. so buckle up!! let’s get it gamers!!

[homuras]

— You’re just like this sky. I’m so sad… because you’re so dear to me. 

[gayangelprince]

smash that rb if you know a boy that is just so fucking handsome

[difficultsuggestions]

Love doesn’t leave you traumatized.

[difficultsuggestions]

Listen to me, LOVE doesn’t leave you traumatized. What was happening to you wasn’t love.

[niyarest]

rb to change your fate

[weloveshortvideos]

[snailandwellmet]

I love the guy who’s clearly a teacher who came over with the intent to tear two fucking idiot teenagers apart from each other only to find these fucking nerds it probably made his entire month

[daftqunk]

seth everman going WILD in the background

[parentheticalaside]

Time has an interactive feature to discover what your name would be if you were born today, based on popularity of your birth year vs. now.

My name would be Mylah. With all apologies to anyone named Mylah, I am now very happy to be named not Mylah.

[budwq-deactivated20200211]

The other day my mom said something that i found really insulting to the 2d animation movies, she said that they stopped doing those because they were no longer appealing to the audience and that they were supposed to be discontinued, and i just thought how bullshit of an argument that is.

Comparing 2d animation with 3d and saying one is superior is like saying that digital art is better than traditional art, better than the fucking Mona Lisa, The creation of Adam, in fact, is a pretty ignorant comparation to do because one does not suprass the other, but new techniques are getting invented and we invest in those more.

Is just another way of animation, in fact, the shitty move all those studios did by closing their 2d animation studios eas pointless and it´s gonna cost them greatly, because someday people are gonna want to go back to the 2d animation and studios like Disney or Dreamworks will be too scared to do that, that will be the day that other studios will take upon them and give us what we want.

2D animation has the most beautiful animation i´ve ever seen, there´s something in it that i can´t explain that makes a big difference from watching cgi, and what i think would make a great combination is the great amount of details that you see in CGI and 3D movies into 2D techniques so you could expect to see shit like this

Atlantis (2001)

Treasure Planet (2002)

Sinbad (2003)

5 centimeters per second (2007)

The princess and the frog (2009)

Children who lost their Voices (2011)

Beyond the boundary (2015)

Your name (2016)

So whoever dares to say 2d animation is dead is wrong and also a bitch

[deathstars]

character aesthetics: asra 

“ it’s not all napping. sometimes i daydream instead “

[healingsuggestions]

you are soft and sweet and you should be so sure of yourself

[lettersfromadreamgirl]

do you ever have these small moments in life where your sadness and anxiety leaves you for like ten seconds and it feels like time has stopped? when you look around wherever you are, whether you’re running through heavy rain or in the middle of a club shouting the words to your favourite song on the dance floor or riding ur bike home at 3am and you feel alive. like really ALIVE. when you’re not thinking about anything; you’re just living through your senses, trying to take in the moment. and when it passes you realise nearly every moment leading up to that moment - every second, every day you’ve been on this planet - you haven’t felt that alive? that you haven’t even been living, just existing, until that moment? i live for those moments

[daydreamstudies]

P L S get out of my head!! i can’t stop thinking about you smh not even in an emotional i-miss-you way just like in a way where you keep popping up cuz I’m wondering how you’re doing and I DO! NOT! WANT! to obsess over you!!!!! you didn’t choose me, and i don’t hold that against you because it’s your decision n you need to find happiness, but you don’t get to fucking occupy my thoughts like this all the time. fuck this shit. im over you and i don’t have feelings for you but my dumb ass heart still cares about you as a person. why didn’t you just break my heart brutally like everyone else so i could cut you off completely. actually i think that my coping mechanism is to just completely forget about you & forget you exist & forget everything we had. everyone says i got over you so fast, but honestly i just fake it til I make it. it’s the same way i throw away my feelings when I know my crushes won’t like me. if I get broken up with, I just throw all my feelings away and pretend they never happened anyway so it doesn’t hurt. I don’t have feelings tbh

[daydreamstudies]

i’m over it! we good! i’m thriving and i feel good and at peace so that’s all that matters to me. im a wonderful person, so deciding to let me go was just your loss. i hope you find peace. i have no ill feelings and i hope you find someone who makes you happy. there are people in my life who love me and support me, and one day there will be someone who’ll treasure me as much as i treasure them. but most importantly, i love me 💛

[quixoticrobotic]

im not a homestuck anymore bro i swear, this hypothetical strife specibus, chumhandle, god tier, dreamself, quest planet, sprite prototypes, and fetch modus are just for emergencies i swear. dude. dude i swear. this trollsona is just for emergencies i promise. dude

[lovelysuggestions]

i can’t love you as a lover so i’ll love you as a friend

[daydreamstudies]

things happen for a reason. it is what it is. i really liked you, and that was genuine. and i know it’s over, and it does hurt, but i can’t be upset forever. it will only hurt me more. that doesn’t mean my feelings weren’t real. if i don’t try to get over it, if i don’t try to cope, if i don’t try to get this feeling out of my chest, then i never will. i can’t lie to myself and say i feel nothing though. it’s really complicated to get over it. i am sad. i am hurt. but maybe it’s for the best. i don’t know what the lesson i learned was, but at least i had you in my life for a little while.

[daydreamstudies]

actually, everything is okay! i don’t feel anything bad. i don’t hate myself or anything. things happen for a reason. not everything works out. unfortunately it comes down to timing, i guess, which is hard to control. but also, it sucks because it seemed like it’s more of a problem of effort? there was a clear solution that just took effort and rearranging things, which is what you do for people you care about. but i mean, i know im worth the effort so im only lowkey mad that someone didn’t think i was worth the effort. but that’s fine because i know whatever they think doesn’t determine my self worth. also, i feel like in a situation like this, you wouldn’t break it off immediately. you would try to fix it, and if then it wasn’t working, then fine, break it off! but well, whatever. i don’t like people giving up on me so at least it’s done with. it’s sad, but if you cared more, maybe you would’ve tried for a bit longer/been more patient and stuff. if you can’t compromise, and stick it out when it’s tough, then it’s not worth it if you don’t even care enough. i’m not hurt, just mad that you thought i wasn’t worth trying for.