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im just a stupid dumbfuck, or whatever you call it who’s only seeking for a comfortable happy place to be in, to stay. it seems that ive tried too fucking hard for every single fucking thing. been fighting depression painfully every fucking day, ya’know those fuck shits that nobody actually fucking understands and give one fuck, and truth is that when the dark night falls it be the worst enemy of mine. fuck, i give in too easily. every damn night’s been fucking hard for me and im not jokingly saying that there are some nights that i can’t fucking sleep, for fuck sake who the fuck jokes about lame shits like that. i hate darkness, i fucking hate whatever that is to be controlled by darkness. which is why i always emphasize myself to show smileys and talk positive to every single one, but fuck am i exhausted as fuck. when it reaches the boiling point at times it just feels that one shot of a gun can just fucking end everything peacefully. i know that my mind is fucking playing games with me. i can’t fucking explain depression and expecting others to fucking comprehend my shit, yes i fucking know that. but i’ve been trying, mentally dying but trying to conquer every fuck shit.













