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I’ve been away from this blog for a year.

Too tired to write a long post now.

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“BREAKING: Gawker's chiefs are resigning amid controversy surrounding an article the site posted then took down about Condé Nast's married CFO soliciting a gay porn star.”

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Affirmations on 4 years of a transition

I always thought recovering from trauma was a linear experience; with time lessening the weight of grudges and insecurities as the months and years went by. Even though I am in a different place in my life now, the anger and pain I have around my transition is still there. Most of my feelings I've managed to move on from - but I still harbor a lot of feelings of anger and resentment due to the non support from my family and other key people in my life that I needed. (My) healing has been this cluster fuck of ups and downs on good days and bad. I'll have a breakthrough then tackle another aspect of my past only to discover that I was using anger to mask sadness or hate to mask hurt. It's easy for me to have days (like today) where shit feels weird and I feel like I'm not making a lot of progress in my life. But then I realize that where I am today is light years from where I was this time two years ago and that progress isn't this jump from point a to point b. It's little moments and small revelations and having a moment where you can finally let a piece of your past go. I'm learning each day. It's not easy or pretty, but I'm moving forward anyway.

#ftm #qpoc #transition #trauma

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Mr. -----,

We’ve received your additional documentation and we will approve your passport tonight.

See you soon Jamaica.

I’ve been off this site for a minute. Needed to fall back and take care of myself for a while.

Learning to love (and take care of yourself) is so much bigger than a routine. The past few months I’ve been digging deep and acknowledging the consequences of suppressing emotions and memories starting back from my childhood.

I did start this year by saying that I wanted to be healthier. While some of that is physical, it’s been largely emotional. And that hasn’t been easy.

I’ll be around in a few more months. I just can’t handle dealing with this and being bombarded with a lot of the content on this site.

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