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[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

Less coping perhaps, more just ignoring the whole situation really.

Tea would be nice though.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

On my way. Anything specific you would like, or is just milk fine?

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

deadliestdiamondhunter:

We all understand, sir. I do hope you’re actually better and not just trying to convince everyone otherwise, though.

I’m as good as I’m gonna be Michael, don’t worry.

I’ve at least got my head on straight again.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

As long as you're coping with the loss, I guess that's all we can ask. Would you like anything brought to you in the meantime?

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

As you wish. It doesn’t matter Michael, if you want to come around you can. I won’t stop you either way.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

I'm just concerned for your health, sir.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

No…no, I don’t want to eat. I’m just, not hungry. Thank you though. If you want to come visit I won’t deny you. Dan already broke in my door so.

But I’m not going to be any sort of company really.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

Well I can ensure that others don't attempt to bother you if you want. Stand guard outside the door with food and water just in case.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

Just, keep an eye on the kingdom for me please. I’ll try not to get too out of sorts but I…I need a few. I just need to think. To sort out what’s going on…I feel like I really messed up Michael.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

I can do that, sir. Was there anything you needed in the meantime? Did you want me to send someone up with food and water and such? I can come out there if you needed, as well. If you want someone to talk to.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I don’t deserve to rule these people. I can’t keep my knights and those closest to me alive, so how can I be trusted to keep my people alive and happy?

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

If that is your thought, then I don't know what else I can say, sir. Take your time to get some rest, but please don't let yourself fall too deep into your grief. Grieving is a good thing, though, on the other hand.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I’m sorry Michael. I’ll try and get back on my feet. But I might need to just…step out of my position as king.

I blame myself, that’s enough for me.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

Whatever your choice is, I support it fully. Just make sure that you know what you're doing first.

That is your choice, I guess.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I don’t even know what I could have you do honestly. I just. Want to be alone for a bit. Even though I probably shouldn’t I’m just. Too upset to focus right now. I messed up and I can’t be trusted to watch the kingdom.

It was. I sent him alone on the mission and he got killed. It’s my fault.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

I don't know either. My apologies, I'll leave you to your thoughts, then. If you need anything, let me know, sir.

It wasn't your fault, though. I promise, no one blames you.

[hoardingdragonshinies-deactivat]

Miiiine…. [hisses]

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

Like I said, all yours.

[hoardingdragonshinies-deactivat]

deadliestdiamondhunter replied to your post:Oh my god. Oh my god. That’s the biggest hunk of…

………..

Go away, it’s mine.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

All yours, sir.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I’m not in any shape to run the kingdom Michael. Not right now. I can’t focus myself enough to even lead. I don’t need the people becoming worried. But…I can’t focus.

I still shouldn’t have sent him. It’s my fault he’s dead..

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

You have us to help if you require. I mean, it would be quite wrong of us to abandon you in a time of need. The people will never need to know, they are alright for now. It won't be a problem, just please try to get yourself okay.

Sir, you need to trust me here. It was not your fault in the least. That was supposed to be a peaceful mission, no one could have expected it to happen.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

You know what, I'm just going to hide out for the day.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I just…want him back. I want to take back sending him off to that village. I just want to not have completely messed this all up. I’m sorry Michael…truly I am.

I sent him there. How am I not responsible?

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

I know, sir, I know. Please, give yourself time to grieve, but it isn't good for you to fall too far. You need to take care of yourself.

You couldn't have known what would happen.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I should have never sent him out there. This…this was all my fault.

This is why I should have never become king. I got my friend, my knight…my love killed because I thought that things had settled down.

I’m so stupid.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

Things happen, sir, it isn't like we knew it would. I'm... I'm very sorry for your loss. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here.

It wasn't your fault, sir. Trust me on that one. You had nothing to do with it.

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I know. I wish we never had Michael…God do I wish we never did.

This is all my fault…but he told me…he promised. I thought that with all the training Lindsay gave him that he’d be okay..

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

He should have been, but you never know out there. I'm so sorry, sir...

It isn't your fault, though, no one could have known. Please, don't blame yourself, in all ways he was prepared, something had to have happened that was out of the ordinary.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

themaddestking replied to your post:Michael…we need to talk. I need to talk to all of you knights.

I…I wish I didn’t have to tell you this. I really do. But, Gavin is…Michael, he’s dead.

… You’re kidding, right?

[themaddestking-deactivated20141]

I honestly wish I were.

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

Oh god.

I fucking knew it. I knew this was a shitty idea. Why did we send untrained soldiers in there? We knew it wasn't safe!

[deadliestdiamondhunter]

themaddestking replied to your post:Michael...we need to talk. I need to talk to all of you knights.

I…I wish I didn’t have to tell you this. I really do. But, Gavin is…Michael, he’s dead.

... You're kidding, right?