Dear Shane:

I doubt you will ever see these Shane, but might as well post these somewhere.

[dear-shane-dawson]

6th Letter

DECEMBER 9TH 2013

Shane, Im losing it. Im losing my mind. I cant do this anymore. I cant eat, i cant sleep, i cant focus on simple things anymore. I feel like such a failure. How can I rely on one person so much? This person, this guy. Ive known him for 5 years. I let him in, i let him in, i let him fix me, and then he breaks me. Like a cheep toy. He just left. No warning no nothing. I cant get him off my mind and Ive tried so damn hard. Hes driven me over the edge. I cant do anything...

[dear-shane-dawson]

Hey guys. I have a favour to ask. It's not huge, but still greatly appreciated. Can you guys tweet Shane the link to my blog. Or get the link to him some how? I've tried many of times, including DMing him on twitter, yet nothing happens. I'd like Shane to read these letters. Not because I want to be like "OH LOOK SHANE! I HAVE PROBLEMS! FIX ME?" No, I want Shane to know what an amazing man he is. That he's not just a YouTuber who enjoys dressing in drag and making out with Joey. That he's a hero. A wise man. Someone people look up to. So please guys. Somehow get Shane to see these. Thanks guys. Xoxo (My twitter is jaydealexxandra if you need/want it)

[dear-shane-dawson]

5th Letter

SEPTEMBER 7TH 2013

Hey Shane, there's a lot that's been going in since we last talked, but that would be days if writing. So I'm just going to talk about right now. I finally broke. I lost all sanity I had. I'm almost at Amanda Bynes level. And for a 17 year old, that's not safe. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I don't know if I feel like crying or punching something. Idk if I want to selfharm or cry for hours. Idk if I want to continue this anymore. In just so done with everything Shane. You don't understand. Or maybe you do. But you never read these so maybe you don't.... I'm so broken right now. And I can't be fixed anymore.... I.... I'm done with feeling like this. I can't take it anymore. I love you Shane. You are an incredible man. You truly are. Idk if this is good bye or not. And if it is. I'm sorry I've let you down.

[dear-shane-dawson]

I will hopefully write a letter to Shane EVERY week. <3

[dear-shane-dawson]

4th Letter

JUNE 13TH 2013

Hey Shane. So this week is really starting to look up. ive gotten rid of that asshole who didnt care about me. and the guy ive been crushing on for awhile told me that he likes me. Hes perfect Shane!! PERFECT!! he treats me like a queen. ive never felt more wanted in my life before. He is everything i could ever ask for. He's funny, sweet, caring, attractive.... but theres one problem. his ex gf. or soon to be ex. idk..... she is the biggest bull shitter ever. and her and i were friends,...... i dont want to hurt her by dating him. but i dont want to lose him either. But really its up to him. I really hope things keep looking up. And loved the new videos. Thanks for keeping me strong and laughing Shane. xoxo I'll message you soon. :*

[dear-shane-dawson]

3rd Letter

JUNE 10TH 2013

Hey Shane. Umm you prob don't read these because you have to many but I just need someone to talk to... And I thought I could just vent here because it feels like someone is listening... So Ive been going though some really tough shit and last night I took a bunch of pills hoping I wouldn't wake up. But I did. And today I had to deal with more shit. I hate my life. I hate myself. I hate almost everyone and nobody tries to help. They just make it worse. Today I came to the conclusion that the guy Ive had a thing with was probably just using me. Most of our convos he would turn to sexting and always ask for pics. He was the only guy Ive ever sexted & sent nudes to..... Today I just needed someone to talk to an nd he was being a complete asshole telling me to "get over it because my life isn't that bad". I beg to differ. I come from a broken family. My parents don't pay attention to me at all. They blame stuff that isn't done (dishes, cleaning, feeding our dog) on me when they never asked me to do it in the first place. I'm failing school because I stay home because of my anxiety & depression and my parents yell at me for it. Everyone hates me and I barely have any friends. People who say are my friends are extremely two faced and talk shit when ever I'm not around. Shane it honestly scares me how many times Ive thought about killing myself. And in all honestly, I'm afraid of myself. I don't know what to do anymore Shane. I really don't...

[dear-shane-dawson]

2nd Letter

JUNE 9TH 2013

I have never cried because of something some said to me. but your new vid made me cry so much. i love you so much and you have been there for me when nobody was. You are an incredible man and you need to know that. thank you Shane. This was perfect timing actually. I promise you i will NOT give up. I will get through my depression and anxiety because someone cares about me. I love you so fucking much Shane Dawson!! You are truly my best friend.

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[dear-shane-dawson]

First Letter I Ever Sent You

MAY 10TH 2013

Hey Shane, i know you probably wont read this, but if i never sent it there wouldnt be a chance of you reading it. I want to thank you for everything. I have horrible depression, and most days i dont even want to leave my bed. If i feel like its the end, or if i want to selfharm, I watch one of your videos. You and your humour has helped me so much. Its true when they say Laughter Is The Best Medication. And Shane you are truly a doctor in that sense. That you Shane Dawson for making Youtube videos. I love you and everything you do.

Much Love Fan Since 2010

Jayde Fleming xoxo