theres cars in here too

plural blog. hi he/him, call me tuvu or wes

[dear-vitya]

the bird wants to sleep on the floor

[dear-vitya]

when my house is rearranged and my dog is here i should replace my banner + icon with my own pictures

[dear-vitya]

my apartment is getting a little closer to being picture worthy

[dear-vitya]

when my house is rearranged and my dog is here i should replace my banner + icon with my own pictures

[dear-vitya]

why have i been lugging around these heavy ass boots. who picked these. i feel like that stallion that wont stop running

[dear-vitya]

when i run it doesnt feel so much as if im moving my feet but moreso throwing my shoes with my legs

[dear-vitya]

god i miss bugs. im ready for it to be warmer. being uncomfortable is part of the joy.

[dear-vitya]

i tried very hard to be back for march, but i can settle for april 7th.

[dear-vitya]

i do want to continue livejournaling like this actually. its been genuinely helpful for us and i think having a positive experience with re-emerging is really important to document. both for my system and anyone else.

hi! welcome. my name, personally, is tuvu. i use he/him.

(though tuvu is also our system name, you can call us wes if you’re more comfortable)

ive been the host for a majority of my life, but i migrate in the winters. this is to help other alters practice being around and because my pain tolerance is shiiiiiiiit id keel over.

due to extreme circumstances (both in and out of headspace), i have been gone for a year. over the past month or so i’ve been working on coming back up, and i finally made it. bird’s back home.

this has been a very long and hard year that i now have very little memory of. holding the body again is taking some getting used to.

topics we tend to talk about:

addiction, death, unreality, derealization, depersonalization, feeling guilty for pleasure, complicated relationship with food.

we are all individually therian.

we dont sensor. we dont use tiktok. i use language the normal way mostly.

i think that’s everything for now. goodnight.

[dear-vitya]

why have i been lugging around these heavy ass boots. who picked these. i feel like that stallion that wont stop running

[dear-vitya]

shit i was supposed to eat

[dear-vitya]

YO we’re high and he came back??? we’re drawing now and this bitch just Draws lovely in 30 seconds as if we haven’t been struggling for FIVE MONTHS!!!

[dear-vitya]

the rest of us when we draw lovely: this is the embodiment of everything i have done, the progress i made, and the true form i possess

tuvu: hehe my oc

[dear-vitya]

THEY WERE STRUGGLING FR

[dear-vitya]

still amazed that my cat has been alerting to me this whole time. thank you sweetheart. i’m getting emotional about it. how did you know to do that? did you do it with your last owner? do you know i love you? how do you know this is dangerous? is it instinct? compassion? is this something that started with me? does it scare you? do you know i love you?

[dear-vitya]

the problem with not eating properly for a month is that i now feel so weak and gross i dont want to eat anything at all. gonna try to eat Something beef and deal with the repercussions for a few hours. my dog is getting here soon. i want to be healthy for her

[dear-vitya]

it might have been two months. i ate half a sandwich before i got sick and then proceeded to work a full shift in a warehouse without any food at all. the hunger pains aren’t as bad as i expected it to be, but ive never been this shaky in my life, so its taking its toll in other ways.

we’re starting with the basics again. chocolate milk in bed.

[dear-vitya]

til swallow alerts my blood sugar????

[dear-vitya]

the problem with not eating properly for a month is that i now feel so weak and gross i dont want to eat anything at all. gonna try to eat Something beef and deal with the repercussions for a few hours. my dog is getting here soon. i want to be healthy for her

[dear-vitya]

it might have been two months. i ate half a sandwich before i got sick and then proceeded to work a full shift in a warehouse without any food at all. the hunger pains aren’t as bad as i expected it to be, but ive never been this shaky in my life, so its taking its toll in other ways.

we’re starting with the basics again. chocolate milk in bed.

[dear-vitya]

the problem with not eating properly for a month is that i now feel so weak and gross i dont want to eat anything at all. gonna try to eat Something beef and deal with the repercussions for a few hours. my dog is getting here soon. i want to be healthy for her

[dear-vitya]

something big’s coming

[dear-vitya]

YO we’re high and he came back??? we’re drawing now and this bitch just Draws lovely in 30 seconds as if we haven’t been struggling for FIVE MONTHS!!!

[dear-vitya]

the rest of us when we draw lovely: this is the embodiment of everything i have done, the progress i made, and the true form i possess

tuvu: hehe my oc

[dear-vitya]

YO we’re high and he came back??? we’re drawing now and this bitch just Draws lovely in 30 seconds as if we haven’t been struggling for FIVE MONTHS!!!