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dear Christian, July 3, day 228

hi Christian!!!! I unfortunately lost both of my netball grand finals :(((( but there's always next time!!! my week has been super busy!!! I'm currently on school holidays (or break whatever u call it in America) I had a party the other night which was super fun!!!!!!! I've caught up with lots of friends which has been pretty fun!!! today is the first day all holidays I've really had a day to myself which has been nice!!!! tomorrow I'm going out with some friends who I don't get to see all that often so that should be nice!!! I hope ur doing well!!!!

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dear Christian, June 24, day 219

hi Christian!!!!! it's been quite a while!!!!!!! my dance concert went well!! I don't think I screwed up too badly and I became closer with a friend I used to be really close with!!!!! both of my netball teams have made it into the grand final!!!!! one game is tomorrow and the other is on Saturday I got all of my exam results back and I didn't do too badly which is a relief!!!!! things have been quite different in the last few weeks, people I never imagined even talking to me are my friends and I don't know I feel like perhaps things might be going even better than I'd hoped things in the last year have been pretty rough for me and although this year has been a lot better than last it's still been tough sometimes!!! but I'm staying positive and things seem to be looking up a lot more!!!!! I know I am a lot more susceptible to being down and things can change in an instant but for the moment I'm quite content I hope things only get better from here!!!!! I hope things are going well with u too!!!!!

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dear Christian, June 8, day 203

hi Christian!!!!!!!! how was ur week??? mine was quite good!!!!! I finished all of my exams and they were nowhere near as hard as I thought they would be!!!! I hope I did well!! I didn’t have school on Friday bc I had finished my exams so that was nice!!!!! it was the first day in a long time that I didn’t have any homework or anything to do!!!!! we won netball on Wednesday!!!!!!!! dancing was good yesterday and Thursday but yesterday I didn’t have any netball :(((((( next week I’ve got my dance concert!!!!!! I’m not too worried about it but there are a couple of dances I don’t know perfectly but I’ll work on it!!!!!! we have a long weekend this weekend so I’m probably having a sleepover with a friend and watch some movies!!!!! I hope ur doing well!!!!

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dear Christian, June 4, day 199

hi Christian!!!!!! how've ur last few days been??? I've had exams this week, fortunately they haven't been all too hard which is good!!!!!! tonight I've got netball which I'm looking forward to!!!!! not much else has been happening hope ur doing great!!!!!!

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dear Christian, June 1, day 196

hi Christian!!! how've u been??? I've been so so busy!!!!! on Friday I had my math exam which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be!!!!! I think I did quite alright hopefully I get a good mark!!!!! after that my friend and I went to my cousin's 21st which was quite fun!!!! yesterday I had an all day dance rehearsal but I had to leave for a while to go to netball and then after that I went to an afl game with another friend!!!!! that was quite good!!! my team lost but it was still fun idk if you've noticed but I've not been writing as much but anyway it's bc I felt I was boring so I thought id write less often so it's a little bit more interesting I hope ur doing well!!!!

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dear Christian, May 29, day 193

hi Christian!!!! what have u been up to?? my week has been so busy!!!!!! I've had so much homework!!!!! today's the last day of assessment but tomorrow we start exams!!!! I'm a bit worried about my first one tomorrow as it's math and I've got three hours of dance tonight!!!!!! I'm just trying to keep positive though apart from that my week has been pretty uneventful I hope ur week has been good!!!

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You know how you do that dear christian? I always see people doing that Dear Christian and I'm just wondering why? I find it's a brilliant idea as it's like a diary entry to him but yeah I'm curious ._.

yeah I totally understand!!!!!! I guess for me personally I do it bc I guess in life there is so much u probably want to say or tell someone but either don’t have the chance or just don’t so for me it’s like I’m telling someone in without being judged (hopefully)!!!!!!! and I guess it’s almost like keeping a diary just a different type and it’s nice writing to someone!!!!! sorta comforting I guess!!!! and he’s replied to me a couple of times and stuff which is especially nice when I’m having a bad day!!!!!! and Christian is such a lovely person he’s said before that he doesn’t mind people doing it (( if he said he didn’t like it or it made him uncomfortable or w/eI would stop ofc))) and lastly I guess I started wrong almost 200 days ago just when things were starting to get better for me but I had more bad days and still do but it definitely helped me a lot!!!!! idk why but u know what people say, just talking about it can help!!!!!! but yes I hope that’s helped u to understand !!!!!! ❤️😎❤️😎😎❤️😎❤️❤️

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dear Christian, may 25, day 189

hi Christian!!!! what's been happening in ur life??? yesterday was alright I had netball and dancing, not much out of the ordinary happened really, same with today I feel as though my life is so uninteresting and normal it must bore u whenever u read these I guess that's normal tho. at school we've been told to think a lot about what we want to do when we leave school. idk what I want to do apart from go to uni probably. I know that I don't just want to be another person with just another job spending their whole life looking forward to something that never really happens I mean I don't want to have a boring life or just be another person with nothing worth mentioning I want to do something big I want to have a life interesting enough to be remembered but I don't want to just be another celebrity or politician idk I guess I just want to have not wasted my life and by the time I'm 80 I want to look back at my life and be proud of what I've done!!!!!! I guess that probably sounds selfish or stupid but that's the honest truth. idk how I'm going to do that tho I guess we'll find out in due time I've got exams coming up and dance concerts and netball finals which I'm looking forward to!!!!! both of my netball teams have made it into finals!!!!!!! hope ur having fun rn!!!!!

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dear Christian, March 23, day 187

hi Christian!!!!! how've u been???? my week has been quite busy, I've had a lot of homework and netball and dancing so I'm really tired tbh all though I was really busy not much happened if that makes sense????? this weekend is the last free one having for a couple of weeks so I'm going to do nothing!!!!!!! my exams start next week which is scary!!!!!!! hopefully I'll go okay!!!! have a great day/night!!!!!!

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dear Christian, may 19, day 183

hi Christian!!!!!! how've u been?????? I had an excellent weekend!! on Saturday night I had a party which was very fun and afterwards myself and some other girls went to another friends house for a sleepover!!!!! I was sorta nervous about it bc the other girls are a part of the "it group" and although I'm anything but unpopular I'm not really part of their group but that was so fun!!!! last night I went out for a family dinner with some family friends which was quite nice!!!!!! I'm super tired now though bc of my busy weekend good luck for ur week!!!!!!!!

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dear christian, may 17, day 181

hi christian!!!!!! how've u been?? yesterday I had a really good day!!!!!! it was my best friend's birthday so after school we went to her house and hung out and had a nice chill evening!!!!!!!! it was so much fun!!!!! today I had netball and dancing I had a really intense game of netball but it was really good!!!!!!! at dancing we got our costumes for our concert coming up which was pretty interesting!!! tonight I have a party and then I'm going over to a friend's house for a sleepover which should be fun!!!!! I'm a little nervous but it should be okay!!!!! hope ur day was good!!!!

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dear Christian, may 14, day 178

hi Christian!!!!! how've u been????? the last few days have been quite uneventful really I'm not feeling all too well though but tonight I have netball!!!!!! that should be good today I filmed my media project with a friend which was really fun!!!!!!! we still have to edit it all together which always takes a while but hopefully we'll get it done on time I hope you've been well!!!!!

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dear Christian, may 12 day 176

hi Christian!!!!!!!!! how've u been going??? my last few days have been really quite uneventful, Saturday I had a really intense netball game and dancing yesterday and today I've been sick so I didn't go to school apart from that I haven't done all that much!!! hope ur well!!!!

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dear Christian, may 9, day 173

dear Christian how has ur day been???? today wasn't all that great for me tbh I didn't get tickets to a concert I really really wanted to go to and also another concert I really wanted to go to but couldn't get tickets to is tonight so not in the greatest mood my day was pretty average otherwise probably ate too much tbh and not feeling the greatest about that but oh well I hope you've been well!!!!!!!!!

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Hi I hope u r o k. -&

thank u!!!!!!!! I hope ur feeling great!!!!!!!!!

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dear Christian, may 7, day 171

hi Christian!!! what have u been up to???? today and yesterday have been alright!!!!!!! I've got quite a bad math teacher this year so my parents got me a tutor. I thought it wasn't going to be good but it actually turned out to be quite okay!!!!!!!! he's really nice and I'm doing it with a friend so it's not too awkward. it helped me so much!!!!!!! today was quite good, I spent a lot of time with a friend who I don't see all that much at school at the moment which was nice!!!!!!!! I have netball tonight which I'm looking forward to I hope you've been great!!!!!!

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dear Christian, may 5, day 169

hi Christian!!!!!!!!!! how r u????” my past few days have been quite good really Saturday I had dancing and netball which was really fun!!!!!! on Sunday I went into the city with some friends which was so great!!! I also went to a concert last night which was so amazing!!!!! overall my weekend was very good today wasn’t too bad I guess but it wasn’t all that great either tbh I hope you’ve been good!!!