quarter life cry-sis

it's just me vs my mind everyday—

[dearjournail]

so all these pain and madness happened in a week is because i'd get my period on sunday morning?? like, specifically in the morning? on a quiet sunday? wow

👏😭

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I'm literally at the age where i'm closer to 50 than to the day i was born :')

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love is a maze damn but you is amaze 🫶🏻

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How'd people be gaining energy by drinking coffee and here i am had my heart beats fast like a roller coaster and a sudden bubble gut and skyrocket my anxiety and couldn't sleep at night and BE LOOKING LIKE A ZOMBIE ON THE NEXT DAY?

Syied, the amount of physical pain a cup of coffee did to my body is unbearable :"(

[dearjournail]

so ready to meet Jacks ❤

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Been keeping myself busy by reading some novels lately.

What was i trying to escape, actually?

[anxietyproblem]

[dearjournail]

Not me wrote down all my resolutions, planning everything hoping that i'd be the best version of myself by the end of the year but ended up going back and forth to work and feeling exhausted after :) God please forgive me and bring back my soul to my body. I miss having spirit and motivation of doing things i like ~

[dearjournail]

Sometimes i hate myself for not being able to lie. Even just a white lie. Like, if you lie a little, the situation would be so much better, stoopid!

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Being complimented for your beauty or the way you look is nice. But, "I like talking to you" or "You're so easy to talk to" hit different.

Feels like they're complimenting my character, my integrity, aslo indirectly saying i'm a good and genuine person lol

Might be my favorite compliment to ever receive. That's a top tier 👑💐

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

"You don’t have to figure everything out today. You don’t have to solve your whole life tonight. And you don’t have to tackle everything at once. You just have to show up and try. You just have to focus on the most immediate thing in front of you.  And you just have to trust that you’ll figure out the rest along the way." - Daniel Koepke

[dearjournail]

Tue, March 05th, 2024.

A little recap of the day :

- Got to handle a lot of tasks more than usual that made me had to coming home late.

- Got stuck in traffic for about 30 minutes and accidently, a scooter bumped into mine.

- And as if it wasn't enough, i just spilled my drink on the floor.

Call me dramatic but why life, why 🥲

[dearjournail]

Picking petals off of the flowers. Asking herself, "Do I love him? Do I love him not?"

And though the last petal is not, the heart doesn't lie.

[anxietyproblem]

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January has got to be the worst month of the year, for real. Why is this month taking so long to end? It's weird tho, cause feels like the day went so fast but then when i checked the calendar, it's still January 28th? Like, i thought i've passed 10 Monday already, but it's only the 5th Monday of 2024? How could i be this delusional?

I need January to end as soon as possible cause not only this month drains my energy, it also makes my wallet empty. Damn! Payday needs to come quick, cause i couldn't hold back the tears no more whenever i check the balance in my bank account meh *crying in poor*

[dearjournail]

Listen, I might not be vengeful, but I'm a tattletale. If you've hurt me or ever pissed me off, and you'd probably think I wouldn't do anything harm as a revenge? Well, that's true. But to be clear, i've already reported you to Allah xixixi ~ Just be ready 💫

[catchymemes]

[dearjournail]

My best friend and i, we're both introvert. We've said sorry in the beginning that we might've replied late to each other's text lol :)

I love this friendship <3

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

"I wanted to write down exactly what I felt but somehow the paper stayed empty … And I could not have described it any better." - Unknown