my body is a cage

22 || 5'7 || sw: 213 cw: 147 gw: 121

[deathwhitewasteland]

bReaKfaSt oF cHAmPioNs✨

[blossomfully]

Sue Zhao

[recovering-witch]

Do you beat yourself up for not being able to restrict "as well" as you used to? Or because in the past you were able to force yourself to work out obsessively and now you just can't? Or because you used to be the best liar ever and now you suck at it? Do you consider yourself a failure because right now you're struggling with intrusive thoughts but cannot bring yourself to perform the disordered behaviors that used to do the trick to keep your mind at some sort of ease? Do you sometimes feel like you were faking your ED all along because you don't look nor consistently act like you do struggle with an ED anymore? Do you consider yourself too big, too lazy, too indulgent, too weak to have an ED? Do you feel like you don't get to feel scared of food or gaining weight or losing control now that everyone assumes you're "fixed" and "healthy"?

Because I do.

[deathwhitewasteland]

many thoughts head full head very full

[tryagainluv]

Cause I've been eating less all day

To give my brain some extra space to think

Bout all the things to do to help

Distract me from the rude of heart -beabadoobee tired

[jugurtti-deactivated20210925]

[leidgott]

[s-p-o-u-t-n-i-k]

Bodycheck of the day !! 58kg

Sometimes I like my thighs, sometimes I hate them... rn it’s more hate

So sorry for the quality :( well it’s not like a lot of people will see this lol

[idyllisch-deactivated20210614]

Fasting

[aeris-poetry]

skinny

when I was dying

I think it is really fucked up

to start a scentence like this

everyone complimented me

on slowly turning to ashes

'You look so pretty dear'

they said

and I heard

'try harder"

when someone is suffering

from lung cancer

You don't light them a cigarette

You don't

You do not hand a suicidal person

a loaded gun

unless you want them to die

so why did you?

why did you handed me a gun?

what was I supposed to do with it?

besides pulling the trigger

when you are sixteen

and at some point

we all are

nothing is as easy as dying

without anyone noticing

dying isn't like it is in the movies

a 60 second sequel

with blood and wounds and lots of noise

it is a quiet long-term-process

You do not recognise the dead

-aeris

[backwards-to-infinity]

[lotsarecoverymemes]

[and-how-to-heal-from-it]

Forgive yourself if today was a bad day. 

Forgive yourself if things didn’t go according to plan. 

Forgive yourself, even if you feel like you messed up. 

Be gentle with yourself. You’re doing the best you can. 

[and-how-to-heal-from-it]

psa if you relapsed

Take a deep breath. It’s going to be okay.

Just because you had one setback doesn’t mean your efforts are ruined. Recovery is not linear. Today is a new day.

You’re still worthy of love and respect.

Remember: you’re amazing for even attempting recovery, no matter how difficult it might be. 

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

Remember that the reason you’re doing this is to make your life better

[byebye-ed]

Me putting my ED in the bin like

[fatestmodelinthebureau]