it's recovery time bois!!

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i’m struggling so much. i want to get better, i’m sick of restricting. i’ve been telling myself that of course i don’t want to recover, but deep deep deep inside i know how much i hate this. i’m not close with my family at all, and i’m only 16. how do i recover without having to bring it up with my family when i’m still young?

hi bub,

i was in the same place as u not too long ago, if i can get thru it so can u, i believe in u. the first step is realizing that it’s not good for u n that u wanna stop, so ur already making progress! of course i always reccomend therapy but if ur not in a place where that’s an option i completely understand. do u have a close friend or someone u trust wholeheartedly? if so, have an honest talk w them n say that u really wanna feel better but need their support thru it. the thing that helped me the most was dbt, maybe read up on it n find some worksheets online!! eds are so difficult n im really sorry, but u can do this. just try to stay focused on that part of u that knows that recovery is good, when u feel the ed taking over check the facts. ur good n worthy of recovery <3

-mod polly

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happy pride month everyone! ur accepted here, wholeheartedly. 

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hello! i hope this is alright, i really need to talk to someone who? understands so ive been restricting eeally really strongly for a few months now and some stuff happened and now im being monitored by my mom what and how i eat, so i eat much more (i dont count the kcals bc triggering) my problem is, since i cant go for walks during lockdown i feel like i have to burn everything off with exercise - and i absolutely hate it with every fiber of my being, but i still feel guilty not doing it (1)

“(2) so i do /some/ exercising everyday but i never feel like its adequate or enough i am not sure what to do since nothing seems like the right solution (everything connected to exercise makes me feel like crap) and i feel lazy and bad for not wanting to exercise everyday do you possibly have any advice?”

hi darling! my apologies for the late reply, i hope that u’ve found some help. but, if u haven’t, my advice is to try to have an honest talk with ur mom. i don’t know ur situation/relationship w her, but if she knows about ur ed which is why she’s monitoring u, maybe just let her know that it’s triggering u even more and try to figure out a way for u guys to communicate that u’ve eaten enough without u feeling so uncomfy. i’m sorry i don’t have very good advice but i’m here if u ever need to talk. ur not alone <3

- mod polly

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hi! mod polly here!! just wanted to let y’all know that i’ve changed my name to clementine!!! (but since we’re all friends u can call me clem or clemmie hehe)

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happy mother’s day to everyone, especially those who’ve lost their moms, who have unstable relationships with their moms, who have abusive moms, who have homophobic/transphobic moms, or who have any other mom related pain. you’re still loved. i wish you happiness and that you’ll heal soon.

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i hope you’re doing well! this virus stuff is scary but just remember to look outside your window at the sun and clouds and remember to breathe in and out! ✨🕊🌊🍇🎈🍃☀️

thank u lovely!! i hope spring is treating u well, even though we’re all stuck inside <3

- mod polly

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(part one) so february 17 i felt really bad and i was alone at home and i actually almost killed myself and i have thought about it if I am being honest but that was the first time I had actually made a motion to go through with it and it stuck with me the rest of the week and again two weeks later on march 9 i did not have a good day at school and i was again home alone...

hi love! we don’t have a part 2 ask or anything so i’m not sure if you changed your mind or the ask didn’t go through. but i really do hope you’re feeling better, you deserve only good things in life. please try to remember that feelings are temporary and everything’s gonna work out in the end <3 we’re here if you need anything

-mod polly

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Everything going on in the world right now has brought up a lot of ptsd from trauma and now that is making recovery even harder and I just feel so lost.

that’s completely understandable, the world is a really scary, uncertain place right now. recovery isn’t linear and i’m proud that you’re trying so hard. please try to take comfort in the reliable things in life that make you happy <3 you got this, we believe in you

- admin polly

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bernie says recovery rights!

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(Part 1) So I've been trying to start my recovery from restriction, but I've been holding myself back. I still haven't gotten an appointment with a therapist or dietitian, and even though I should be getting appointments soon, I'm afraid to really start eating without having spoken to them. I had a breakdown tonight and finally snapped and ate a slice of pizza. I'm trying not to feel guilty about it (especially cause god it tasted good lol), but I still worry that if I start eating more,

(Part 2) even if it's just a little bit, before I talk to a therapist/dietitian, they won't think I have a problem because well, I'm eating aren't I? My mom gave me a plan for what I should eat tomorrow for breakfast lunch&dinner, & I WANT to eat it. I don't wanna restrict myself anymore, I'm sick of living like this. But again, I'm scared if I start eating three meals a day, even if they're SMALL meals, that a therapist/dietitian will think I don't have a problem because well, I'm eating!!

(Part 3) Have any of you ever felt like this and do you have any advice on how to deal with it? Do you think if I begin eating more before I meet with someone, that they won't take me seriously and will think I don't have a problem anymore?

hi darling! i've definitely been there, and i know how hard that struggle is, but i promise it's best to start as soon as possible. when you see someone just tell them that you'd been restricting and you're trying to eat more and recover, but you would still like some assistance as you're still struggling with the thoughts! it sounds like your mum is supportive so maybe she could come to help support you!! i'm so so so proud of you for trying to start recovery, you deserve to get better and eat and enjoy food (and you're right, pizza is damn delicious!)!!! eds are hell, and recovering is always the best idea, no matter where you are in getting professional help! i wish you the very best in your recovery love, have a wonderful day/night ♡

- mod sam

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Im not sure if my problem needs recovery but. I have this job and people there make fun of me all the time. I feel like trash most of times and sometimes on my way there i have panic attacks. Everyday i wake up the first thought is "what will happen today". Yesterday i had a breakdown cause i wanna leave that job but im scared i wont find another job. I thought about going to uni but idk, im scaredn:(. Can you give me any advice please? Thank you

unfortunately i don't have a lot of experience with jobs, but that sounds absolutely horrible and if you're able to i think it sounds like you really need to quit and maybe try to report what's been happening cause thats?? probably illegal???

- mod sam

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how do you pronouns fae/faer pronouns?

*pronounce

here's a post i made that explains it!

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Im overweight, and have been all my life and i suffer from anorexia. I feel ashamed to say this cause, look at my body. No one believes i starve myself for days. But this disorder its the only thing ive got. My illness is everything to me. I suffer with depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder and disassociation. I thought about recovery but its very scary to me. Im scared of who i am without my problems. Im scared of my future and im scared of recovery.

i totally totally get where you are, but i promise recovery is worth it. you feel like your illness is all you are because that's what it wants you to believe. but really? you are an amazing and wonderful and complex person who is so much more than your weight or your struggles. eds consume your entire life, so it feels like that's all your purpose is. but when you start recovering your life slowly gets bigger and bigger! when i was really sick all i thought about day and night was food and weight and how much i hated myself. i didn't go to things because what if there was food and i wouldn't wanna be rude but i just couldn't bring myself to eat, or if i did i'd feel so horrible and suicidal. but now i've been in recovery for about a year, and whilst i still get those thoughts and to be honest my life isn't as exciting as i'd like it to be due to my other disabilities, my life is so so much better than it was and i get to find out more about myself and build a life that actually makes me happy! and being overweight in no way negates your ed, i known that can be hard to get in your head but i promise its true! your ed will never let you see your beauty, but recovery will!! maybe try following some plus size people body positive / ed recovery accounts (i recommend @/bodyposipanda, @/scarrednotscared, @/iamdaniadriana, and @/fiercefatfemme on instagram) as for me at least that's helped to get some more positive messages in my head! recovery is scary as hell, but it's worth it. it will be scary and hard and sometimes it'll suck but it'll give you a much better chance of a happy future than your ed ever could! you deserve recovery and food and happiness, and i wish you the very best on your journey towards it ✩･*✧˚☾

- mod sam

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ah I just made an Ed recovery blog and my name is Sam too xP

aaaah that's cool!!!!! i have asks off at the moment but if you wanted to rb this or something with your recovery blog please do n i'll give it a follow!

- mod sam

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hey I just found your blog n feel a lot less alone!! do you maybe have any advice for when your trying to recover but you're ed is telling you all the reasons not to n that you'd be better,,not,, like in my head I know recovery is healthy but,,idk,, I hope this made sense??

don't worry dear, that makes perfect sense! i think for me things that have helped are: writing lists of why i need to recover and going back to them from time to time, having other people like my mum remind me of these things when i'm struggling, following recovery/body positivity and/or neutrality accounts, and when the thoughts get overwhelming trying to distract myself to block them out! and if anyone has any other tips fee free to reply to this post woth them!! i'm so so so proud of you for trying to recover, i know you can do this!!!

- mod sam

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just to let everyone know that it might be a while til asks get answered. the other two mods are both kinda busy and i don't think they've been on this blog for a bit and i (sam) am struggling with some medical stuff and ed thoughts of my own so trying to put together coherent answers and advice (whilst also not triggering myself) is kinda hard. i'll try to get through the asks soon, and i promise i care and i wish you all the best recovery, everyone of you deserves it!

- mod sam

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