A Collection Of Things In My Head

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[starving-and-sadness]

It’s so weird that I feel like my life is together when my calorie intake is low and when I’m being restrictive, is this just me or 

[6vix]

yeah same

[nicostiel]

[coffeebean5]

I want so badly to see myself look emaciated and sick. I want to look in the mirror and see a sunken, carved out version of my face. I don’t know why. I just know it’s what I want.

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

Freeze your brain Suck on the ice, get lost in the pain Happiness comes when everything numbs Who needs cocaine? Freeze your brain Shatter your skull, fight pain with more pain Forget who you are, unburden your load Forget in six weeks you’ll be back on the road When the voice in your head says you’re better off dead Don’t open a vein

Just freeze your brain

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

i (probably) just want attention

I (probably) don’t want your heart

Maybe I just hate the thought of you with someone new

I (probably) just want attention, maybe right from the start

Maybe there’s just no getting over you.

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

I hate how unhappy I am without you

but all I want you to do is move on Don't listen to me when I tell you I still love you I want you I dream about you and I cry about it I hate this

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

This isn't fair I did this for and because of me not you I thought you know that. It's not fair it's not fair No matter what I do I'm fucked Ensnared by this overwhelming ache and tiredness The inability to find a reason to want to live Tangling with an unbearable need to protect you from me And all of my dark corners And I have no energy to do anything else I'm like a star I'm burning out fast I try to shine But it's never gonna last. Can't you see me just letting you down?

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

疲れた。 Everything hurts。 Nightmares don't help, but they're more frequent than anything else。 How much longer can I pretend to be human？

[sewages]

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

What if I told you that the world was gonna end And you had fifteen minutes minutes to spend with me or your friends I guess we don't even need to use the phone I don't need your answer, I'll be spending it alone

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

Introspection: 07-06-2017

I used to be good with flowery words Utilizing every inch of the thesaurus I’ve built In the library of my mind To try and accurately depict how I’m feeling. To show you the things going on in my brain. But since I met you, Oh you, You’ve left that thesaurus behind Defied it openly and cast it out Overshadowing any words I could say That I could find And now everything I know is only an eclipse of you, And your overwhelming sense of Perfection.

[theflashingwater]

opens window curtains, takes 50 selfies in natural light, closes window curtains

[shoujo-paradise]

[theunrequitedlover]

[decaffeinatedheadspace]

He can’t remember a time when he felt needed If love was red then he was colorblind

[kitchendisease]