T.

‏‏‎‎‏‏‎‎‏‏‎( ic : ylu_u on twt )‏‏‎ he / him ; disordered boy

[decayingseraphim]

welcome to my blog, please mind the the fact that this blog will be centered around me living with an eating disorder if this may trigger you - please do not interact with me and just block me. i do not encourage disordered behaviours, i'll always encourage recovery.

more under the cut.

you may call me T. ( but i quite enjoyed being called prince so feel free to call me that too ) he / him. unlabelled queer ( i love men and nonbinary folks. women too sometimes ).

i am not new to tumblr - i am somewhat new to the €d side of it. used to be very active in the twitter space of thing.

i have an eating disorder ( - which one .. good question, ) since i'm ~13. i am currently 17, turning 18 this year. i am also afflicted by others disorders. most notably i'll cite dyslexia, as it will affect how i write.

stats :

lw : around 48kg ? / 18.8 bmi

hw : 58kg / 22.7 bmi

cw : 54kg / 21.1 bmi

gw : 48kg / 18.8 bmi

ugw : 35kg / 13.7 bmi

( i have different others target gw between the first one and my ugw but i won't list them here )

please do not hesitate to talk to me. i may be awkward at first as i do not have the ability to partake in socialization in my irl life thus it reflect online too.

i also identify as a 地雷男子 ( i dress jirai / sabukaru and fit the idea of a landmine psychologically / emotionally ). but not with the toxic idea of it created by western jirais. please do not associate me with the western jirais. i also identify as a メンヘラ.

european, 🇫🇷 with a bit of 🇵🇱. thus english is not first my language. i apologize for any grammatical / orthographic errors please do correct me ( kindly ). college student that wants to desperately drop out, will turn into a hikki / NEET if i do though so can't afford to do it.

as said before i am afflicted with different disorders, i am mentally ill. please keep that in mind. i am not mentally well. it's reflect on everything. that said i am and always am for recovery and getting better – i am just not currently in a state where i can do that.

related to that i engage in pet play and age regression. which should not bleed into this blog but i may make a posts mentioning so be aware of that.

no dni. obviously. if I had one it would be at the top of this.

[decayingseraphim]

not counter / post for yesterday because i had an issues with my parents. but i didn't eat dinner. so that's a win.

[decayingseraphim]

hello edblr. id like mutuals. please be my mutual.

you can call me T, im soon to be 18, an university student and a nerd (for history, fashion, and embarrassing amount of manga / animes, languages). my ugw is 35kg. and i genuinely like the taste of rice cakes.

moot me now. 🫵🦭

[decayingseraphim]

having to choose between putting your ed first or putting your education first is hell. why can't i do both at the time same time ?

[decayingseraphim]

– trying to stay under 1 400 cals : day one, lunch + dinner

-> 1 178 cals total ; 146 cals burned

note : ok-ay day. still could indulge because because breakfast and lunch were light.

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– trying to stay under 1 400 cals : day one, breakfast ( oats + a quarter of a green apple + some cinnamon + fruit juice )

[decayingseraphim]

i thought the 'freshman fifteen' ( idea that in your first year of college you gain weight ) was a myth or that in the possibility it's true, I'd be immunized to it.

i am not. gained 2kg in like two months of actual college ( though i suspect i stared gaining a month prior because of stress related to college ).

my commute to college is mostly public transport, whereas in high school i walked from and back to school thus i was easily getting to 6 - 8 k steps 5 days out of 7. now i only hit 5k steps twice a week. i also dont have the time to do 1h workout / 30min of dance everyday.

and skipping lunch or breakfast is harder because i need to energy to function at least a little bit because i can't just sleep through my classes like i did in high school.

if anyone has any tips on how to combat the freshman 15 I'll take them. 🙇‍♂️