Decius Brutus

I was recently cast as Decius Brutus in Julius Caesar so... why not make this blog?

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Introduction

So, I am playing Decius Brutus in a small production of Julius Caesar. I'm also playing Artemidorus, but I think he's too small of a character to make sideblog for, so if I end up wanting to write anything about or for him I'll still put it on this blog. I'll just add -artemidorus at the end so it's clear. Anyways, in this production there aren't as many people so Decius Brutus has kind of been combined with some other characters in the way that he's taken their lines and such so if I say something that you remember is supposed to be from Cicero not Decius that's why. Also I am well aware that the character Decius is based on Decimus (correct me if I spelled that wrong), but I'm just talking about Shakespeare's version not the real guy. I did initially audition for Brutus (the main guy, ironic how I got the Decius version instead) and Mark Antony and Cassius and Casca so basically all the leads and I am still a little disappointed that I was not cast as any of them but I've made this blog so I can fall in love with this character despite that. In this blog it'll probably mostly be reblogs of Julius Caesar stuff (not strictly Decius) but there will be a few original content from me, which will end with -not decius and perspective posts from Decius (and maybe Artemidorus sometimes, we'll see) which will end with -decius. I don't really know what's in store for this blog, but if you're here, you're probably only here for the ride... so enjoy the ride.

-not decius

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Gentle Storm - Poem #128

Thunderstorms roll by outside, I lean my head against your collarbone, I hear the boom of your chest and the sky and I like it, Some are afraid of people like you, Dark, mysterious, a warning of coming peril, threatening, That's all they see, Not the growth and change you bring, not the light that follows, So much like a storm, you are, But unlike others I feel safe in it, The embrace of a gentle storm, The smile you only show me, If no one else is willing to take them from you, I'm glad they're mine, Glad to be wrapped in your hurricane, Glad to be a light you can't always see, You're my storm.

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Ghost Who Haunts My Room - Poem #127

Soft eyes, soft hair, soft skin, soft soul, Sweet as honey, mind as bright as lightning, Burn my skin as you melt in, Warmth in my cold, An unforgettable feeling, Please don’t forget me, Ghost who haunts me room.

Dainty speech, fierce eyes, Do I haunt you too? Always think of you, Yearning for more of you, I want to learn, I want to know, The ghost who haunts me room.

Fear is not intended, But still I do not look to you, I always know you are here, Feel your winter’s touch, Once so warm, But how can I see you, When I know you didn’t want to be here, Leave me be, be free, Ghost who haunts my room.

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The Final Dance - Poem #126

One last dance is all I ask, One last time for you and I, Then we can die, Let go of each other's warmth and free ourselves to the cold embrace, It's been reaching for us, Trying to separate the way our bodies connect and fold together, And I think it's finally time, But I just want this one last dance, To hold and cherish forever, Just this one last dance, So I can remember, How you loved me, How we weren't alone, How we needed each other, How I'll miss you when you're gone and I am not.

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Lyrics for Decius and his Sweetheart #1

This is a new series where I take lyrics from songs and give (small) explanations for how Decius and/or Trebonius relate to the lyrics. Starting with Francis Forever by Mitski after Trebonius has died. The lyrics will be in Italics and Decius will explain what they mean under them in bold/brackets.

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Francis Forever by Mitski

I don't know what to do without you I don't know where to put my hands (I should be holding you and I don't know what to do with my hands now that you aren't here for me to hold) I've been trying to lay my head down But I'm writing this at 3 a.m. (The thought of what we could've been keeps me awake at night, I can't sleep and I keep writing you love letters and notes that you will never receive)

I don't need the world to see That I've been the best I can be, but (I don't care if others think I'm evil or cruel because I could never be good like you, even if I've tried to be more like you in your absence) I don't think I could stand to be Where you don't see me (I don't want to live without you)

On sunny days, I go out walking I end up on a tree-lined street I look up at the gaps of sunlight (You always reminded me of the sun, you glowed, so when it's sunny I go out walking and I remember you and your smile as I look up at the gaps of sunlight) I miss you more than anything (I miss you more then anything)

And autumn comes when you're not yet done With the summer passing by (Summer and the sun that reminds me of you is going to fade, but you won't be there to warm my cold nights in the Autumn, I don't want summer to end when you aren't here to keep me warm)

-decius

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Merry Christmas and a happy new year to anyone who is reading this and everyone who isn't!

-not decius

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Decius x Trebonius

Now if I have any further updates or ramblings about this ship that are not from the perspective of Decius, they will be put here instead of that other ships post because it was getting too long for my liking.

First of all, I am making a playlist for this couple and so far, I only have six songs, so if anyone has any song recommendations for it please let me know in the comments or my messages. Here are some things to help inspire y'all (and myself).

The vibes: - The six songs I currently have are: I Want You by Mitski, Sailor Song by Gigi Perez, ur so pretty by Wasia Project, Dear Arkansas Daughter by Lady Lamb, I Bet On Losing Dogs by Mitski and Francis Forever by Mitski. - Dynamics I kind of connect to this ship is: bad boy x good girl, the morally grey character who has a soft spot for the innocent character, grumpy/sunshine. - Sad songs are welcome since at the end of the play Julius Caesar Trebonius (and all of the other conspirators) pass away except for Decius Brutus and I imagine he would feel lost without his sweetheart (this is where Francis Forever comes in).

If you have absolutely any recs even if you have no idea what I am talking about, they will be appreciated.

-not decius

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I imagine that Decius would call Trebonius "sweetheart" as a nickname. He'd probably use other nicknames but "sweetheart" is his favourite and at first Trebonius would blush every time, but as it became more frequent and they became closer and closer she would grow used to it and just smile whenever she heard Decius call her that.

-not decius

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Decius x Trebonius

Now if I have any further updates or ramblings about this ship that are not from the perspective of Decius, they will be put here instead of that other ships post because it was getting too long for my liking.

First of all, I am making a playlist for this couple and so far, I only have six songs, so if anyone has any song recommendations for it please let me know in the comments or my messages. Here are some things to help inspire y'all (and myself).

The vibes: - The six songs I currently have are: I Want You by Mitski, Sailor Song by Gigi Perez, ur so pretty by Wasia Project, Dear Arkansas Daughter by Lady Lamb, I Bet On Losing Dogs by Mitski and Francis Forever by Mitski. - Dynamics I kind of connect to this ship is: bad boy x good girl, the morally grey character who has a soft spot for the innocent character, grumpy/sunshine. - Sad songs are welcome since at the end of the play Julius Caesar Trebonius (and all of the other conspirators) pass away except for Decius Brutus and I imagine he would feel lost without his sweetheart (this is where Francis Forever comes in).

If you have absolutely any recs even if you have no idea what I am talking about, they will be appreciated.

-not decius

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I need someone to ship Decius with, or even Artemidorus. Even if they are characters who never canonically interact within the play (for example my Benvolio and Paris ship). I need to find someone to ship them with because shipping Shakespearean characters is part of my obsession with them. If I have no on to ship them with my obsession is lessened. PLEASE!

If anyone can find something please tell me! I am desperate.

-not decius

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I am still very desperate, but due to this I have had the thought of Decius Brutus x Casca. Perhaps as a one-sided love because there is so much chemistry between Casca and Cassius for there to not be something going on, whether that is due to a past relationship or a current one. Although when thinking about that, that opens many dynamics.

First of all, Decius could have unrequited love for Casca. Second of all, Decius could believe it is unrequited and therefore never make a move while Casca shares his feelings but is afraid to get into another relationship after being hurt by Cassius. (During this Casca and Cassius could be friends with benefits or something.)

I don't know though, there is potential here and my multishipper/hopeless romantic self is craving ship that involves one or both of my characters. I'll update y'all.

-not decius

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In our production Decius is going to be very evil and manipulative and "I must survive" type of character. Which makes sense and I love, and I am very excited to do. So, expanding on the idea of Decius having feelings for Casca would be Decius being angry that he even has feelings for her (Casca is female in this production) seeing as she believes in fate while he believes in free will and compared to him, she is the complete opposite. He finds he silly, maybe even stupid for her hopefulness and such. And in the case of Casca having feelings for Cassius, this could be another factor of his anger and jealousy as he believes himself better than most.

However, if Cassius were to have feelings/some kind of relationship with Brutus instead of Casca then Decius could also believe that Casca is even more idiotic for liking someone who clearly isn't interested. All of these factors would contribute to how and why Decius is almost unkind/rude or just blunt and neutral with Casca. Because of his jealousy and anger towards his feelings in general.

Anyways, that's my update. None of these ships are going to be explicitly shown in the production, but Casca and Brutus are currently having a battle for Cassius for an implied ship. We'll see how things develop as we get deeper into rehearsals.

-not decius

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This update is about a complete change in my Decius Brutus shipping. I still like the idea of Casca x Decius; however, I have found a much better companion: Trebonius!

This all started with me and the actor for Trebonius accidentally sharing a chemistry filled glance, that everyone started joking about. Due to this we have expanded a little bit on the characters relationship and pretty much the whole cast has decided that this is the best ship of the play. Now I'll explain how I imagine their dynamic.

As I've said, Decius is a bit of an evil/insane kind of guy and has a lot of experience with violence and manipulation unlike Trebonius who is a sweetheart that only wants the best for everyone and for Rome. They are pretty opposite in their personalities. Trebonius doesn't want to hurt anyone unless it is needed for the better of all while Decius is into violence and believes that it is warranted as long as it benefits him. Decius doesn't hate any of the other conspirators, in fact they are the closest thing he has to friends, but he doesn't necessarily like any of them either... except for Trebonius. He has a soft spot for the girl and finds her kindness and optimism compelling and sweet. I'm not entirely certain how Trebonius views Decius, but she definitely likes him back. She would have a crush on the man and keep it secret, thinking that Decius would view themselves as too different to work.

So, in the show there won't actually be many moments where they interact there is going to be a montage where Decius teaches Trebonius how to use a gun properly. (Similar to those scenes in movies where the dude teaches the girl how to shoot a bow and arrow correctly or that one kathony scene.) I have feeling there will also be a few more chemistry filled glances the characters share sprinkled throughout the play. Then there is the moment when Decius finds Trebonius dead body, he will place his gun down, showing weakness and (maybe) brush her hair out of her face. It will be very sad.

Point is a really like this ship and have many ideas for it and the characters dynamics.

-not decius

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I need someone to ship Decius with, or even Artemidorus. Even if they are characters who never canonically interact within the play (for example my Benvolio and Paris ship). I need to find someone to ship them with because shipping Shakespearean characters is part of my obsession with them. If I have no on to ship them with my obsession is lessened. PLEASE!

If anyone can find something please tell me! I am desperate.

-not decius

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I am still very desperate, but due to this I have had the thought of Decius Brutus x Casca. Perhaps as a one-sided love because there is so much chemistry between Casca and Cassius for there to not be something going on, whether that is due to a past relationship or a current one. Although when thinking about that, that opens many dynamics.

First of all, Decius could have unrequited love for Casca. Second of all, Decius could believe it is unrequited and therefore never make a move while Casca shares his feelings but is afraid to get into another relationship after being hurt by Cassius. (During this Casca and Cassius could be friends with benefits or something.)

I don't know though, there is potential here and my multishipper/hopeless romantic self is craving ship that involves one or both of my characters. I'll update y'all.

-not decius

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In our production Decius is going to be very evil and manipulative and "I must survive" type of character. Which makes sense and I love, and I am very excited to do. So, expanding on the idea of Decius having feelings for Casca would be Decius being angry that he even has feelings for her (Casca is female in this production) seeing as she believes in fate while he believes in free will and compared to him, she is the complete opposite. He finds he silly, maybe even stupid for her hopefulness and such. And in the case of Casca having feelings for Cassius, this could be another factor of his anger and jealousy as he believes himself better than most.

However, if Cassius were to have feelings/some kind of relationship with Brutus instead of Casca then Decius could also believe that Casca is even more idiotic for liking someone who clearly isn't interested. All of these factors would contribute to how and why Decius is almost unkind/rude or just blunt and neutral with Casca. Because of his jealousy and anger towards his feelings in general.

Anyways, that's my update. None of these ships are going to be explicitly shown in the production, but Casca and Brutus are currently having a battle for Cassius for an implied ship. We'll see how things develop as we get deeper into rehearsals.

-not decius

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I need someone to ship Decius with, or even Artemidorus. Even if they are characters who never canonically interact within the play (for example my Benvolio and Paris ship). I need to find someone to ship them with because shipping Shakespearean characters is part of my obsession with them. If I have no on to ship them with my obsession is lessened. PLEASE!

If anyone can find something please tell me! I am desperate.

-not decius

[deciusbrutusfromjuliuscaesar]

I am still very desperate, but due to this I have had the thought of Decius Brutus x Casca. Perhaps as a one-sided love because there is so much chemistry between Casca and Cassius for there to not be something going on, whether that is due to a past relationship or a current one. Although when thinking about that, that opens many dynamics.

First of all, Decius could have unrequited love for Casca. Second of all, Decius could believe it is unrequited and therefore never make a move while Casca shares his feelings but is afraid to get into another relationship after being hurt by Cassius. (During this Casca and Cassius could be friends with benefits or something.)

I don't know though, there is potential here and my multishipper/hopeless romantic self is craving ship that involves one or both of my characters. I'll update y'all.

-not decius

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Decius Brutus:  it were a mock Apt to be render’d, for some one to say ‘Break up the senate till another time, When Caesar’s wife shall meet with better dreams.’

Calpurnia:

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Hey guys, just so you know I'm not 'Brutus' Brutus, I'm Decius Brutus. Two very different people. I swear to the gods if anyone mixes us up.

-decius

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I need someone to ship Decius with, or even Artemidorus. Even if they are characters who never canonically interact within the play (for example my Benvolio and Paris ship). I need to find someone to ship them with because shipping Shakespearean characters is part of my obsession with them. If I have no on to ship them with my obsession is lessened. PLEASE!

If anyone can find something please tell me! I am desperate.

-not decius