its nothing an alprazolam and a coke zero and 3 weeks of faking it in group therapy and enough cisplatin to start hallucinating and a rare steak and a few hydrocodone/acetaminophin and a cigarette smoked in secret once a year and a morning run once every two weeks and copious alcohol mostly wine and trashy tv in a hotel room until midnight and whatever ssri that the psych prescribed that stopped working six months ago and french toast and sleeping with contacts in and another alprazolam cant fix












