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Finally catching up on Deltarune chapters so I can play the latest one and I KNOW this will be controversial but Queen deserves all the Tumblr sexyman fanart that Tenna is getting. Tenna is OK he's fun but Queen coming before him and setting the stage for similar aspects of Tenna's level design just made me miss her so baddddd I know that Tenna is #gaydivorced and is an object head man in a suit and has abandonment issues and ppl love a sopping wet sad man but have you seen Queen. Have you looked at her in her giant robot form also. Have you considered how draw-able she is. Are you all fools. Must I do everuthing myself
So I do 3D modeling and printing as a hobby, and a few weeks ago I designed wheel guards meant to prevent office chairs from running over cables and clothes... or your pet's tail.
I got the idea from cowcatchers old locomotives used to have.
Anyways, yesterday I uploaded the model to Thingiverse, and just hours after uploading it, the Community Relationship Manager of the whole website left a comment suggesting I enter the model into a competition that's currently being held on the site.
So I did... and now it's in third place not even a day later. First place is $500, but the competition still has a month to go.
Then the Community Manager contacted me again, telling me they want to feature my model in an upcoming design promotion.
Just, what is happening? I mostly made this thing for myself in, like, an hour, and now it's suddenly super popular? This is all a little bit overwhelming 😵💫
Other models I worked on for weeks didn't get nearly as popular. I swear, it's impossible to predict what people will like.
Anyways, if you want to print the wheel guards yourself, you can get the model here or here.
I also made a quiet version you can stick furniture felt pads on.
Very important announcement! (Last post) PLEASE READ!!
So I got an email back from some nice people who have been helping me. They worked with me and my mom to make sure we could get through our goal so we are close to getting out of the streets! (along with you guys help too thank you!)
I was informed we just need $530 that way we can get the full help that we need so me and my mom can finally get everything we need to be stable 😭 I was so happy to read the email this morning!! I'm so close I'm serious this time!! I'm so close to getting a normal life again!! So I need everyone's help one last time!! I just need $530 and I'll finally get the help I should've gotten since shelters in my area were unresponsive and ghosted me which was frustrating. I can get a car ride, finally get a damn truck, I can get clothes, I can go grocery shopping, get my medication all of it!! No more homelessness, no more heatstrokes, no more hospital visits, nomore sleeping in the rain and floor, no more anxiety being in the dark at night.
Aren't tma/tme from terfs? From their Transgender Rights Activist acronym TRA. Like i just started seeing these acronyms (tma/tme) more frequently so i think im just uninformed.
they are certainly not from terfs, as they are language used by transfems to describe oppression that they face.
TMA - "TransMisogyny Affected" - Someone who is transfeminine and faces misogyny, and the intersection thereof.
TME - "TransMisogyny Exempt" - Someone who is not included in that axis of oppression, such as cis men and women, and trans men.
the fact that it is assumed that this language has terf origins is unfortunately likely a result of transphobes muddying the waters of discussion. unfortunately a lot of people try to smear this transfem discussion of oppression as terfy, as an attempt to discredit transfems.
it's actually crazy that people believe that terfs, the demographic who infamously don't believe that transmisogyny exists at all, coined or even use the terms "transmisogyny affected" and "transmisogyny exempt".
this is just my speculation but, i do think it might be an attempt at purposeful obfuscation. it appears many people don't even know what the terms mean! therefore people claiming "those are terf terms" with no explanation on what the letters MEAN just serves not only to instill bad faith in people who use them (i.e. not actually terfs, but transfems, rather), but also to prevent interest in the discussions the terms actually service
Finally catching up on Deltarune chapters so I can play the latest one and I KNOW this will be controversial but Queen deserves all the Tumblr sexyman fanart that Tenna is getting. Tenna is OK he's fun but Queen coming before him and setting the stage for similar aspects of Tenna's level design just made me miss her so baddddd I know that Tenna is #gaydivorced and is an object head man in a suit and has abandonment issues and ppl love a sopping wet sad man but have you seen Queen. Have you looked at her in her giant robot form also. Have you considered how draw-able she is. Are you all fools. Must I do everuthing myself
Finally catching up on Deltarune chapters so I can play the latest one and I KNOW this will be controversial but Queen deserves all the Tumblr sexyman fanart that Tenna is getting. Tenna is OK he's fun but Queen coming before him and setting the stage for similar aspects of Tenna's level design just made me miss her so baddddd I know that Tenna is #gaydivorced and is an object head man in a suit and has abandonment issues and ppl love a sopping wet sad man but have you seen Queen. Have you looked at her in her giant robot form also. Have you considered how draw-able she is. Are you all fools. Must I do everuthing myself
FIRST DRAFT FOR ALL 7 VIDEOS OF MY FREELANCE PROJECT ARE DONEEEEEEEE!!!!! Now I just have to do some minor edits and I'm FINISHED :) to anyone who has tried to contact me during this project Im so so sorry I've been in possibly the ultimate hermit mode, I had a serious time crunch and was working 10 hour days some weeks lmao... not ideal but I'd bend over backwards for a liveable wage and a job I'm passionate about over an underpaid retail position any day!
this has been in my drafts for one whole year as of today because it's a good joke but i don't know why it had to be me who had to tell it. this isn't my turf and i don't belong here. good night
FIRST DRAFT FOR ALL 7 VIDEOS OF MY FREELANCE PROJECT ARE DONEEEEEEEE!!!!! Now I just have to do some minor edits and I'm FINISHED :) to anyone who has tried to contact me during this project Im so so sorry I've been in possibly the ultimate hermit mode, I had a serious time crunch and was working 10 hour days some weeks lmao... not ideal but I'd bend over backwards for a liveable wage and a job I'm passionate about over an underpaid retail position any day!
Text of tweet under the cut because it is loooong.
But... Stochastic Parrots.
Timnit Gebru was fired from Google in December 2020 for refusing to retract a research paper, and every single warning that paper made about large language models has now happened at a scale the industry spent 4 years trying to make people forget about.
Her name is Timnit Gebru.
She co-led the Ethical AI team at Google. She co-wrote a paper called "On the Dangers of Stochastic Parrots" with Emily Bender at the University of Washington and two other researchers. The paper was 14 pages long. It was submitted to a top AI ethics conference. And it was the reason Google decided that one of the most senior Black women in AI research could no longer work there.
The story Google told publicly was that she resigned. The story she told, confirmed by 2,695 of her colleagues in an open letter, was that she was fired by email while on vacation because she refused to either retract the paper or remove her name from it.
The paper had not even been published yet.
Here is what she actually wrote, and why every prediction inside it has now come true.
The first warning was about scale itself. Bender and Gebru argued that training ever-larger models on ever-larger scrapes of the internet would produce systems that appeared fluent but had no actual understanding of language. They called these systems stochastic parrots because they would repeat patterns from training data with statistical confidence and zero comprehension. The paper predicted that this apparent intelligence would fool both users and developers into trusting outputs that were structurally incapable of being reliable.
This was 2020. GPT-3 had just come out. The paper predicted the hallucination problem before anyone had a word for it.
The second warning was about bias amplification. The paper documented in detail that internet-scale training data contains systematic overrepresentation of dominant viewpoints and underrepresentation of marginalized ones. The models would not just absorb this bias. They would amplify it, because the optimization process rewards confident outputs, and confidence in language patterns tracks frequency in the training set.
The prediction was that hiring tools built on these models would discriminate against women. That healthcare triage tools would underperform on Black patients. That loan approval systems would entrench inequality while presenting their decisions as neutral algorithmic judgment.
Every one of those things has now been documented in deployment.
Amazon's hiring algorithm penalized resumes that contained the word "women" in any context. Healthcare risk scoring algorithms used by major US hospitals were found to systematically underestimate the medical needs of Black patients. Apple Card's credit algorithm gave wives credit lines 10x lower than their husbands for the same financial profile.
The third warning was about environmental cost. The paper calculated that training a single large language model produced emissions equivalent to the lifetime output of 5 cars. The prediction was that the race to scale would create an environmental footprint that would eventually rival entire industries.
In 2024, Google's emissions were up 48% from 2019, and the company explicitly blamed AI infrastructure. Microsoft's were up 29%, same reason. Both companies have now quietly abandoned the climate commitments they were publicly celebrating the year Gebru was fired.
The fourth warning was about documentation. The paper argued that the training datasets being assembled were too large for anyone to actually audit. Nobody at Google, OpenAI, Meta, or any other lab could tell you with confidence what was in the data their models were trained on. This was not a temporary problem to be solved later. It was a permanent feature of the approach.
In 2023, researchers discovered that the LAION-5B dataset, used to train Stable Diffusion and other major image models, contained thousands of images of child sexual abuse material. The companies that had trained on the dataset had no way of knowing. The paper predicted that category of failure 3 years before it was found.
The fifth warning was the one Google cared about most.
Bender and Gebru argued that the deployment of these systems would centralize linguistic and cultural power in the hands of the small number of companies that could afford to train them. The internet would become a place where the dominant voice was a statistical average of dominant voices, presented as a neutral assistant. Languages underrepresented in the training data would degrade over time as more web content was generated by these systems and fed back into the next training run.
This is now happening in real time. A 2024 study found that 57% of new web content in English is AI-generated or AI-assisted. Researchers studying low-resource languages have documented active degradation in translation quality, because the synthetic content fed back into training is itself worse in those languages.
The paper Google fired her for predicted the model collapse problem before model collapse had a name.
The mechanism behind why this all happened is the part of her work that nobody quotes.
Gebru's argument was not that AI is dangerous in some abstract sci-fi sense. Her argument was that AI is dangerous in a very specific structural sense. The technology was being built by a small group of researchers who shared similar backgrounds, worked at similar companies, and were rewarded for shipping products faster than competitors. The incentive structure made it impossible for safety, ethics, and bias concerns to slow anything down. Anyone inside the system who raised those concerns was either ignored, sidelined, or removed.
She was making that argument from inside Google.
Then Google proved her right by removing her.
The team Google had built to make sure their AI was safe was dismantled in 90 days because they did the job they had been hired to do. Margaret Mitchell, the other co-lead of the Ethical AI team, was fired two months after Gebru for searching through her own emails for evidence of how Gebru had been treated.
Gebru did not stop. She founded DAIR, the Distributed AI Research Institute, in 2021. The mission is to do AI research outside the control of the companies that have a financial interest in not hearing the answers.
Every prediction in the Stochastic Parrots paper has now been validated by deployment. Hallucinations are an industry-wide problem the largest labs cannot solve. Bias amplification has been documented in hiring, healthcare, lending, and criminal justice. Environmental costs are larger than entire small countries. Training data audits remain impossible. Model collapse is an active research crisis at every major lab.
The question worth sitting with is the one almost no one in the industry will say out loud.
Every researcher with the technical credibility to call out these problems watched what happened to her in December 2020 and made a calculation about their own career. The number of people willing to speak publicly about safety and ethics issues inside the major AI labs collapsed after that firing and has not recovered.
The researcher Google fired for warning about exactly what is now happening was right.
The company that fired her is now the second-largest deployer of the technology she warned about.
And the people inside that company who agree with her are not allowed to say so.
I do need something for today!!! I would like to have enough to stay in for the week until May 28 hits so I can get my testosterone! Please I need something for today so I won't be outside in the heat!! And the goal I'm going for is to get $700-800! It would help me plenty this week to get things done! Paypal
So help boost so I can stay out of the heat!!
(Note: It is very disheartening that I have people saying they're unfollowing or are skeptical of my situation, I am really in need of help, I have been going through this for awhile now and I don't need to dox myself to show that I am going through alot. I have close friends to back me up and know of my situation. I have been to the hospital, I have been calling people, I have been calling shelters. I need all the help I can get, so please keep helping me so I can get to my goal.)
So we got news that the truck my mom's boyfriend got will be here in 4 days!! We just need to last in a hotel until it gets here 😭 this is very good news and I'm happy so if we get this truck I'll finally be okay!! So help me this last time!!! Please!!! PayPal
I have nothing for tomorrow so if we can make it until Sunday it would be a blessing!!! To my goal ($700-800) or whatever, if we make it to this truck I'll be good 😭😭😭 I'm so happy I can finally live normally!! Dang I'll even take a picture to show when it gets here!!!!
