From The Ashes Of Burnt Offerings

So a bit about me - I’m an old school punk rocker who also grew up in the theatre. I love music and football and things and stuff. I suffer from CPTSD, major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder and a couple of other things I can’t remember right now. I started knitting to stop cutting I’m probably pan-sexual and probably gender-fluid but I am not really sure - at 49 it is difficult to figure out how to change to be what and who you are. I have been dysmorphic about my body weight since I was a child - fat boy was my nickname even when I weighed in at 129 lbs at 5’8” - and I still believed I was huge - this has never gone away What do I want to do here or say here? Fucked if I know - I just want it to be an honest representation of who I actually am.

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I love this💛

[pairofeightz]

Fantastic idea 🤗

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Agree 100%

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Still a few hours of adulting to do, the question is do I take the pain killer now and do it in a fog or suffer through and do it in excruciating pain - what’s better for concentration do you figure? https://www.instagram.com/p/BppYv6mgvT3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ink9l33b9kn1

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As you may know, Post it Forward was created to reinforce something Tumblr users had been doing on their own for years: being open, being kind, and offering support. For many people—particularly young people—it has been a safe haven for openly discussing issues that matter, especially issues pertaining to mental health. From Issue Time question and answer segments with licensed psychiatrists to celebrating Mental Health Month year after year, we’ve been committed to talking about things that matter since 2015.

That’s why we’re so excited to honor World Mental Health Day on Wednesday, October 10.

This year we paid homage to the day by partnering with Made of Millions, a grassroots mental health platform, for Seen: A Mental Health Exhibition. Featuring photography of Rose Cartwright by artist Yumna Al-Arashi, the premiere of their short film Mindstory, and incredible AR-enabled work from some hand-picked Tumblr Creatrs (@creatrs), this exhibit aimed to explore how the digital world can keep people from suffering in silence. You can see some of the pictures of the event above.

It’s important to be seen. And we see you, Tumblr. Stay tuned here to @postitforward. We’re going to reblog some posts that speak to mental health and self care all day long. Want to join in the discussion? Tag your posts with #postitforward so it’s easy for the rest of the community to find you and interact.

And remember, there are resources out there if you need them. It’s okay to use any help you can get.

Ditch the Label (@ditchthelabel) is one of the largest international anti-bullying projects. It offers free support for anyone who signs up for their community. It’s free, it’s easy, and it’s there for you.

It Gets Better (@itgetsbetterproject) gives support for members of the LGBTQ+ community who want it.

It’s Ok To Talk is a safe space to share your experiences with mental health, mental illness and wellbeing.

And of course, Made of Millions is an amazing new 501c3  grassroots mental health non-profit launching on World Mental Health Day.

Take care of yourself, Tumblr. You deserve it.

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Halloween couple-costumes ideas

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That feeling when all the meds have worn off and the next batch have t kicked in yet... https://www.instagram.com/p/BnIE3gunOUA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=fouwqoijt26y

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Reblog if you're gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, asexual, transgender or a supporter.

[nimurea]

This should be reblogged by everyone. Even if you’re straight, you should be a supporter.

[phase2-moved-deactivated2021073]

IF YOU SCROLL PAST THIS UNFOLLOW ME IMMEDIATELY I SWEAR TO GOD

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Tomorrow, there will be much less pain as the ablation reduces my overall pain level by 30% - but tonight - tonight there is only fiery, burning, transmitting pain.

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Hibiscus - flowering away! Shortly after this, I was stung by a friggen wasp right behind my ear... unfun

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Sculpture By: Alexandra Reeves Instagram: @artwoonz

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The pain continues... @troubleboundstudio @dave_munro

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This... so much this..,

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Home

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Buddy is happy to see me!

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As I knit on the plane on the way to Newfoundland, I received many looks - mostly from men, some looked baffled, some looked curious, and some looked like they might have wanted to punch me. The older gentleman sitting next to me at one point asked if he could take my picture. I said of course. After he did so, he said, “if a big man like you can knit, so can I. The makes fun of me so I need to show them!” I am thought that was kind of fabulous. Later on the flight, as folks were lined up for the bathroom, a young woman leaned over and tapped me on the shoulder, saying “knitting is the last thing I would expect someone who looked like you to do.” We chatted for a bit and she said she was going to get back into it as it seemed kind of meditative. I explained that I started knitting to try and control my anxiety. The only problem I have with knitting in public is that, myself being a burly, heavily tattooed and pierced, bearded kinda fella, I become a topic of conversation. Not always a bad thing but not necessarily helping in the anxiety control part :)

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She’s a wee bit damp...

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...and I just keep checking the screen waitin for a message that ain’t never gonna come...